It had been a long night. Sakura was standing by the gates leading out of Konoha, staring blankly up at the moon. It was raining just like it had been three years ago.

He's not coming back alive. You know that right? He's a criminal, you have no chance with him. Time to forget the schoolgirl crush and focus on protecting your village like a true ninja.

With a deep breath she nodded at her thoughts, trying with all her might to accept them and move on. Her eyes darted to a movement in the trees on her left. Something was approaching quickly, not bothering with stealth as it recklessly broke branches. Before she had time to take out a kunai for defense she found herself staring at Kakashi – sensei.

A squeak of surprise escaped her as she gazed into his one visible eye, heart pounding.

"Thought I would find you here," his voice was casual as if he had just made a comment about the pouring rain.

"S-sensei?"

"I just thought I'd see if you're alright," he paused as if struggling for words. "I know it must be hard on you."

"I'm fine," she muttered with as much strength as she could muster. "It's time I got over it. Three years is long enough. I have more important things to concentrate on."

With a nod he took her wrist in a strong leathery hand and began to usher her back into the village.

"You shouldn't be out so late, you're parents will worry."

"My dad's on a mission until Saturday." Thinking about the empty house back home didn't excite her. When she was alone it was harder to control emotions, harder to stay calm and focused. They walked the rest of the way in silence.

When they reached the wooden door he turned to leave. On impulse she reached out to him. She blushed, shocked by her own behavior. He looked at her expectantly.

"It would be rude if I didn't invite you in after walking me home. Plus, you wait the rain out inside." He watched her a little longer, not giving approval but not walking away.

"I'll make tea?" She added hopefully.

They had drunk tea and talked late into the night, even after the rain had stopped. It had taken her a while to get him to open up but when she did he surprised her. Sakura had always thought of her teacher as a mysterious pervert who couldn't take anything seriously. Instead, she discovered, he was loyal, sincere, and shockingly insecure.

He stood up to leave but knocked over a pillow in the process. The both bent down to pick it up at the same time, bumping heads softly. Her heart pounded even more furiously as he stared at her. It seemed to want to leave her chest in attempt to leap out at him. With fumbling hands she pulled down his mask, smiling softly when he didn't stop her. He kissed her softly and then drew back, watching how she would react. He gave a sigh of relief when she smiled wider.

"That's one way to get over it," she told him coyly.

Before she knew it, the cloths had come off and her hands were feeling every inch of skin they could reach. It amazed her how hot his skin could be yet she could still feel the ice hard muscles flexing underneath. There was a sharp pain and then only endless bliss.

That had been weeks ago though and she hadn't seen Kakashi since. Tsunade had kept her so busy that she barely had time to eat let alone track him down. No one knew what had happened between them. The Hokage had come close to figuring it out before though.

FLASHBACK

"Tell me, who is he?" Tsunade cornered her when she entered to deliver some paper work.

"Wh-what do you mean?" Sakura had tried to sound politely curious and ignore the sick feeling in the pit of her stomach.

"You're glowing! That means a boyfriend so spill."

"Uh…well he's not my boyfriend exactly…it was just once and there's an age difference…um…" she stuttered on with excuses, avoiding Tsunade's eyes.

"OK don't tell me. But I will find out eventually – I always do."

END OF FLASHBACK

Just thinking about it still made her feel ill. Then again what didn't? That little problem was why she was cowering in a bathroom stall with only a little stick for company. She pulled it out from under her and with a glance felt her heart sink.

She ran out, fighting back tears. Tsunade looked up from her desk and stood up with alarm when Sakura barged in.

"Are you alright?"

"Fine, but um…I'm not feeling to well. Is it ok if I go home early today?"

"I think I should look at you, you look horrible!"

"NO!" She answered a little too quickly causing Tsunade to give her a skeptical look.

"I want you to take tomorrow off, maybe I'm over working you…"

With a nod Sakura left as quickly as she dared.

She didn't go home though. Instead she ran to the flower shop where Ino worked. The shop was empty to her relief. Ino stood behind the counter, flipping through a magazine. When she saw Sakura she gave a small jump of surprise, running over.
"What happened to you?" She flipped the sign on the door so it read "closed" and waited for an answer. Sakura opened her mouth but no sound came out. She cleared her throat and tried again.

"C-can I use your bathroom first? I d-don't feel too good…"

Ino went behind the counter and held a door open for her ill friend. Sakura stumbled through, well aware of Ino's concerned stares. She bent over the toilet, taking deep breaths to stop the tears.

"What happened?" Ino knelt down beside her, wrapping an arm around her shoulder.

"I…I'm…" she was shaking uncontrollably now.

"You're what?"

"Pregnant…"

Ino stiffened beside her.
"What? When did you…who?" Whatever answer Ino had been expecting that wasn't it.

Sakura shook her head violently.

"Come on Sakura, I need to know. If you tell me I can help you."

"I'm going to die…he's not going to want a kid," all her fears came rushing out at once. "It was only one night! It probably didn't mean anything at all to him…I probably don't mean anything to him…"

"Who Sakura?"

"K-Kakashi."

"WHAT? You did Kakashi? No way! He's like 30! You're only 17 Sakura what were you thinking?"
"I don't know!" She collapsed into Ino, sobbing.

Ok this is my first fanfic like this but I'm trying my best! I don't know when I'll get a chance to update but I'll attempt to make it soon. Please note though, the more reviews I get the quick I'll update!