My tears of sorrow, my tears of joy

Chapter1: Remembering the past

Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or Yu Yu Hakusho

Dream… She walked through the forest screaming "INUYASHA!" but no one replied. She traveled deeper into the forest and then she saw right at the sacred tree was Inuyasha fighting Naraku. He saw her and he was about to attack her when Sango jumped in the way. "No Songo!" screamed Miroku. Then…

(A/N: this dream made me cry T.T)

Reality

She woke up with sweat trickling down her forehead. "Dammit, not again that's the same dream!" screamed Kagome. "What's wrong my imouto?" asked the taiyoukai Sesshomaru. " Nothings wrong Sesshou… It was just that same dream about them," she said. " Kagome you know you aren't the only one who has to suffer the burden of the past. Your friends died protecting you." Sesshomaru's eyes softened when Kagome held her head down in defeat. That's exactly why thought Kagome. They died protecting me and I just stood there helpless. Kagome slowly stood up from the bed, the silk sheets wrapped around her. She removed the blankets and headed to the doors. " Where are you going?" asked Sesshomaru. "I'm going to go training," she said in an emotionless voice. He just nodded and watched her leave. Why do you do this to your-self imouto? Thought Sesshomaru. Kagome gracefully walked away from Sesshomaru's castle into the gardens. It had been two years…. two years since her friends died she could still see it so clearly:

Flashback

She just got back from visiting her mother when she walked through the forest she heard a noise so she started to head towards that noise. When she came to a clearing she saw Inuyasha, Sango, and Miroku fighting of Naraku. Then Naraku suddenly spotted Kagome so he was about to attack her when her friend Sango jumped in front of her taking the attack. "No Sango!" screamed her love Miroku. He ran up to Sango and held her in his arms. She opened her eyes and said "Miroku I love…you" she said. Miroku had tears in his eyes and then he hugged her and said "Sango I love you too." "Thank you" then Sango died. "Good-bye…my love" he whispered. He slowly stood up and faced Naraku "You will pay for killing Sango" he whispered. He stuck out his right hand (a/n: was it his right hand can't remember?) and yelled "Wind Tunnel!" He sucked in many samyosho and miasma so the poison finally got to him. He fell to the ground next to Sango and said, "Good luck…my friends" then he died next to his one true love. "No Miroku! Sango!" yelled Kagome. Then she looked ahead of her Inuyasha just attacked Naraku with the strongest wind scar she had ever seen. She saw her chance and threw a sacred arrow at Naraku but what she didn't realize was that Naraku shot a tentacle right through Inuyasha's heart. Naraku turned to ashes and then Kagome ran up to Inuyasha "Inuyasha are you alright?" "Kagome I'm sorry I wasn't always nice to you but I wanted you to know…" "Stop it," whispered Kagome " I wanted you to know I will always love you" "no you can't die!" screamed Kagome. Then Inuyasha closed his eyes never to open them again. Kagome slowly stood up with tears in her eyes but those tears never fell. So on the day her friends died she never even shed one tear…………

Reality…

Kagome stood in the garden all alone sitting next to a Sakura tree. She thought about what happened after that. She collected all the shards then she went home and found out that she was a forbidden demon of fire and ice she was also part silver dragon. She went to visit her family after that but found out that they died in a car accident… and even then she still didn't cry. She knew what it meant to be a forbidden so she never showed her emotions she held all her pain inside. After her family died she spent more time in the feudal era. She then lived with her nii-san, Sesshomaru. He trained her with every thing he knew he even taught her how to make a whip out of her youkai. She also learned how to mask her scent and her aura. But her ice and firepowers she learned by herself. Kagome never really thought about how she looked but all the men at the castle would stare at her in awe. She had long raven black hair with red, blue, and silver streaks in them. She had a strong body but it still was very feminine. She had long silver claws and sharp, white fangs that would glimmer when she smiled. But what caught everyone's attention were her eyes. She had the most captivating eyes any one has ever seen. They were silvery eyes that had streaks of blue in them and they would sometimes change to pure white with black pupils if she were angry. All the woman in the castle envied her for her beautiful looks.

She was alone in the garden practicing her ice techniques when suddenly a ball of orange fur leapt at her. She caught it and smiled when she heard the voice of a young child saying "oka-san, oka-san where is Rin?" it was little Shippo. Shippo was her adoptive kitsune son. She went to the village to see Kaede and found out Shippo and Kirara were still alive. She answered "Rin is in the castle with Jaken why don't you go play with her?" "Okay oka-san" he said excited. After he left Kagome ran at great speed to Sesshomaru's study. She opened the door and stepped in, and there was Sesshomaru reading a few scrolls. "Sesshomaru?" "Yes imouto?" "Can I go visit my time for a little?" Sesshomaru sighed " very well but you must be careful" " thank you," said Kagome. She got a few things from her room then ran to the well. As she reached the well she thought maybe I should go visit Yusuke.