Blood on His Hands Chapter 1: What Happened?, a cold case fanfic

Title: Blood on his hands

Fandom: Cold Case

Songfic, Two Character Death!!

Summary: Takes place after 4x24 "Stalker". What happened before and after with the team, Lil and Scotty?

Chapter 1: What happened?

"Mom?"

"Mr. Valens?"

"Yeah?"

"I'm so sorry, but… we lost her. It was too late. She lost too much blood. The bullet went through her lung and so it collapsed."

"No… no. That can't be true. She's strong. She said "Hey" to me. She…"

"I'm sorry. We did everything we could. We took the bullet out of her back. I'll give it to your boss. I think you'll need them."

"Yeah, sure."

To him, everything sounded far away. He couldn't believe that he'd come too late. She called to him twice her "Hey" but he couldn't save her.

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

A few days later

"They've started an internal investigation. We all did the right things, we know that, but they want to know what happened before Ed shot Lil. I want to make for sure that everyone of you can come to me if you have questions. The best thing is if we all go home now and have a holiday. We need time to recover, okay?" Stillman said.

Everyone nodded. They stood up and opened the door. Seeing the interview room where Lil was shot hurt inside but nobody showed each other their feelings. As Scotty reached the door, Stillman called him back.

"Scotty, please close the door."

He did what Stillman said then he sat down in front of him.

"There is something you should know. The bullet they found in Lil's back…"

He paused then said the rest of his sentence.

"… was from your gun. I'm so sorry to say this, but… they'll ask you a lot of questions. I think first they'll take your badge and gun and then we'll see what happens next."

Scotty felt like he could die. He killed the woman he loved… his fiancé. No… it was as if he lost the ground under his feet.

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

"Mr. Valens, would you please explain what happened before you went into the interview room?" the FBI Agent asked him.

"Yeah, sure. I'll start earlier that day, I think that's important. When Kat and I came back from an investigation we did on the case, I found out that Lilly didn't show up at work. So I visited her at home. She told me, her mother died the night before all alone and she thought it was her fault, because she was at work when it happened and her mom didn't call her cell, she called the office. We talked a little bit, then she wanted to be alone. I respected her wish, but before I left her, I said to her if she needed anything, she just should say "Hey" and I'll be there. That was something like a secret codeword for us. Then I left her. Later she came back to work. Kim arrived shortly afterwards at the office to talk about her case. We didn't know at that time that Ed had killed her family. I think he was afraid that we would find it out or that Kim would remember something. We didn't know at that time how he could take the gun into the building, but he had one when he took my colleagues as hostages. I think maybe he hid it in a place the detectors couldn't find it. After a while we had found out that everyone was hostages, we heard some gunshots. I couldn't wait and went inside. My boss Stillman was shot, but alive. Jeffries and Vera took care of him. They told me Lilly was in the interview room with Ed and Kim. A few minutes later she called my cell. She told me about the things Ed wanted from her. Then she said "Hey". And then again "Did you hear me? Hey". I knew she wanted me to come in. Vera and I talked about what we could do and after Kim went outside we decided to go in. Lil and Ed where in the room behind the interview room, so we couldn't see where they were. I had to shoot the window, then Ed. I also heard some other gunshots, then I saw Lil laying on the ground bleeding, but alive. That's all I know. She died at the hospital. I think maybe one of my bullets ricocheted against a wall and then flew into Lil…"

"Thank you very much Mr. Valens. We'll see what the investigation in the next few days will bring. Till we find out what really happened, you're suspended. I need your guns and your badge."

Scotty gave him what he wished, and then he went home.

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

A/N: Song is by Simple Plan "Welcome to my life". The finale was so exciting. Sorry that I didn't post this earlier, but I had to learn for my final exams. They are now over. Just to say, this will be very sad. Two character death (one is already). It's not very long but I don't know how fast I can post. Thanks to my Beta Reader :). I haven't watched almost the complete 4th Season but I'll do it now in my holidays and maybe I'll change then anything in the following chapters. Please review, thanks.