This story is dedicated to Earthlight.
First off, I should say that this is something I will take my time on, and you can count on it being well written and well thought out.
I have another story, Forced, which leaves off right where Soubi and Ritsuka are about to... well, you know.
Forced is too long to be a oneshot, but it's not a chapter story. I had the idea for this story a while ago, and it does go into detail about Ritsuka's life after losing his ears to Soubi.
So, sit back, and enjoy the ride!
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"Ritsuka?"
Soubi's fingers slipped tenderly through Ritsuka's hair, and they met no obstacle. Soubi smiled to himself, letting his breath out in a moan, and hugged Ritsuka closer to him.
The ears were gone.
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LOVE AND PAIN
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It had been a long night. Soubi was exhausted, both physically and mentally. No persuasion had been needed to get Ritsuka to sleep with him, but he was drained from having to talk the boy down, assuring him he would be just fine, and that losing his ears did not make him a social reject.
And although he had been careful not to hurt him in the least bit, he was tired from doing just that: being meticulously gentle.
He was gentle, it was in his nature, but nothing could compare to how much he wanted to please Ritsuka. To pleasure him fell in much the same category, and Soubi made it a priority to make the most important moment of Ritsuka's life also the most special one.
There was pain, of course. That was ultimately inevitable, and yet somehow, Soubi couldn't relinquish the sensation of Ritsuka's tears staining his chest. He knew that Ritsuka would hurt, there was no getting around it. But he felt that he had done what was right. Ritsuka belonged to him, and so therefore his ears did as well.
And Soubi knew he would miss that tail. Its perky swish as Ritsuka walked, atrracting Soubi's eyes to it no matter what, yes, that would be missed.
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Ritsuka could remember. His body was in a haze, his mind reeling, and yet nothing mattered because he was here with Soubi. Here with Soubi holding him close.
"Soubi..."
"Shh," Soubi had said, bringing his lips to Ritsuka's.
Ritsuka, feeling Soubi's teeth nipping at his tongue, vividly remembered what Soubi had once told him: that he thought it might feel nice to have your tongue bitten.
And he was sure as hell right.
The love had progressed from there, until finally Ritsuka was so worn out that he couldn't take anymore, and forced Soubi out of his body. His fighter gave up willingly, allowing Ritsuka to rest on him while he slipped away into a hazy world of post-sex nothingness. Soubi watched as Ritsuka's eyes dimmed, beginning to regulate his breathing, and stroked the soft brown hair.
Ritsuka was fragile. He knew that. He'd always known that, ever since the first sun-kissed moment when he'd laid his eyes on the boy. But all fragile things have to break sometime, and he'd just broken Ritsuka.
And he couldn't have been happier. Because that's the beauty of something broken, it can be fixed. Soubi couldn't bring his ears back, but he could see to it that Ritsuka would enjoy this new experience.
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"Mmm... Soubi?"
Ritsuka sat up, rubbing his eyes, a blurry Soubi coming into focus before him. The fuzzy figure came toward him, and he felt a warm hand touch his face. Then warm lips against his own. He welcomed the kiss, marveling at how incredibly needy for contact he'd become in the past twelve hours.
"Come on, now, Ritsuka, you can't go to school like that."
Ritsuka was clad in Soubi's shirt, which he realized was why Soubi was shirtless himself. With a shock, the word school sank into his mind like a stone.
"School?" he asked, his voice positively dripping with fear. "I... I can't... go... like this..."
"Why not?" Soubi asked, handing an outfit to Ritsuka. "You look fine, beautiful as ever. I love you."
"You know why..." Ritsuka said, ducking his head as a blush flared across his cheeks. "You... took my ears."
"So I did," Soubi grinned. "It's fine, Ritsuka... unless you're embarrassed of me?"
"No, no, it's not that!" Risuka said, looking back up quickly. "It's just... I'm the only one..."
"There's nothing wrong with that, not as long as I love you."
And Ritsuka remembered something he had said once, after one of their particularly sweet and passionate kisses.
"How does that make you feel?
He smiled.
"Like something good?"
"Or something tainted?"
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As Ritsuka descended the stairs with Soubi at his side, he suddenly became aware of a problem he would soon have to face, one much bigger than facing his classmates, one he would rather step in front of a firing squad than face: his mother.
The word sent chills down his spine, and tears came to the corners of his eyes; he was so scared. Soubi squeezed his hand, looking through the doorway at the back of her ominous head.
"M-mom?"
"Oh, Ritsuka," she said, deciding that he was her son today. "I'm making something special for di- Ritsuka!"
He flinched.
She had seen.
"Where... where... where are your ears?" She looked at him, clearly stricken. Normally his tail would have twisted meekly around his legs, his ears would have lain flat on his head. But it was the lack thereof of ears and tail that had put him into the situation, so he stood stock-still, his dark eyes wide and apprehensive.
As she sputtered, his mother spotted Soubi lurking behind the corner.
"You..." she hissed, for she had seen Soubi before, had even seen him kiss Ritsuka once. And now even Soubi feared her rage. As her hand felt for a kitchen knife, he picked Ritsuka up, turned tail, and ran.
"Safer at my place, you think?" he asked, setting Ritsuka down safely two blocks away. Ritsuka nodded.
"We'll go and sneak back in after school to get your things," Soubi said, running a hand through his hair and kissing Ritsuka softly again. "Now let's go."
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So, chapter 2 should be coming your way pretty soon. Maybe tomorrow, in fact. I have a con to go to in about two weeks (March 30, 31, and April 1), so there won't be any uploading on that weekend. The con is called Anime Punch!, and let me know if any of you are going, cause I'll hope to see you there.
Stay tuned for more Loveless!