I was ready to embrace death, my eyes became heavy and she pinned me against the wall as she drained the blood from my bare neck. I felt the disgusting bloody tears brush against my neck and she punched me harshly in the stomach simultaneously. I looked at her and our eyes met:
"Bitch, you seriously don't know who your messin' with." I breathed out, not even believing my sore face could produce such bold words.
"Oh Sookie, do not fuck with me." She said throwing me to the ground. I with some semblence of strength crawled over to where the toolshed was while Lorena was distracted by her idiocy for what she did to the man she so called loved. I found what i was looking for, and prepared myself for the right moment.
"So sorry Bill" she said crying more tears than a water spicket. I lunged at her and said the final words she would hear:
"He doesn't fucking love you."
Lorena faced her final death.
I felt her presence was no more but a bloody mess she made and some relief swept over my exhausted body. I dropped to the ground and crawled towards Bill.
"Hun, can you hear me?" I ask quietly and suddenly Bill, with immediate reaction attacked me, and held me with more force than Lorena had right before.
"What are you doing?" I yelled before my scream was muffled by his hand. I felt like everything I had believed about Bill Compton wasn't real, it wasn't ever real. I then blacked out, conciousness was to unbearable.
"She is going to need lots of blood!" I heard an unknown voice yell and my body agreed with her thought. I felt people stab me with needles and it stung like a bitch. I remembered my life in little intervals, streams of random thoughts, I remembered Christmas with Mamma and Daddy, sitting under the tree unwrapping presents with Jason, I remembered making Sun Tea with Gran, while making myself as tan as a 10 year old could get, I remembered flying a homemade kite with Lafayette and Tara on her 12th birthday, I remembered graduating high school, I remembered applying for a job at Merlotte's and meeting Sam, I remembered meeting Bill at Merlotte's and he was the first vampire I met, and then I remembered meeting Eric...I wasn't sure if I remembered that because of the blood exchange or because I genuinely thought it was a milestone in my life. I lost conciousness again.
"Sook," I heard Jason beside of me, my mind was in its right place because I began to question my surrounds. My mouth felt dry, I heard loud beeping, I smelt death, and the needles in my arm felt more like an IV now. Hospital.
"I know you can't hear me, but, uh, well I just wanted you to know that I love you Sookie and I am so sorry I haven't been there for you when I need to be the big brother, from here on out I will not leave you alone. Especially with a bloodsuckin..."
I lost conciousness.
"Hey Sookie," I heard a raspy voice say, it was Tara's "I have been crying" voice. " Sookie, you cannot fucking leave me, I can't lose anyone else. I just lost Eggs. I can't lose my sister too" She said bursting into more tears and I heard Lafayette come and console her and he held my hand gently:
"Sook, you're gonna be just fine. Your a fighter." he muttered and he sat in the vacant chair beside me, I assumed Tara got up to get fresh air or dabble her eyes.
I felt the room grow silent and I lost conciousness again.
"Sookie" I heard and a snarled escaped me. Bill Compton. He was the reason I was here, barely able to breathe because it hurt to bad and now he was less than a foot away from me.
"I know I cannot atone for this unbearable and life threatening pain I have caused you. I have finally come to terms with what I am...and that is I am not good for you, no matter how hard I try to be human...I am a monster." He paused to sniff, must have been crying.
"Not that I do not love you, because I love you very much Sookie Stackhouse, but I have to leave for a while and when I return in time. You never have to see me again." He said standing up, kissing me on the forehead, and exiting without a final word. I didn't try to stop him, I just fell back into a peaceful and serene state.
*******
Instead of hearing my name, I felt a hand laced into mine large and soft.
"I apologize for last week." he spoke monotone and relaxed. I breathed out shocked, but unnoticable. Eric Northman. One guy I disliked a little bit less than Bill Compton, but not by too much at that moment.
"I hated how cruel I was, but I mean, who am I kidding, why apologize for being who you are. I just know that it is in part, my fault you are in this bed and suffering. I should have protected you and instead I yelled at you for saying something honest. My feelings for you are far from nothing." I felt astonished and my breathing quickened and I forced, with some shred of strength to open my eyes. He looked exhausted, his ears were bleeding and he had been crying, but for me?
"Eric?" I questioned and he laughed.
"Yes" he said pulling his hand away and I smiled.
"You were saying such nice things before I wish you'd continue. " I spoke and he shook his head.
"So you heard that huh?" he said slightly embarassed.
"My eyes might have been closed, but my ears and my heart definitely weren't." I said and I touched my chest. " I don't blame you Eric." I said sweetly, reaching for his hand and he obliged.
"Really, cause I would blame me, you asked me back at your house if I could take care of you, if I could feel your pain and I felt it Sookie. I did and I reacted to slowly." he said and a single crimson tear ran down his perfect face.
"Eric, I don't blame you because its his fault, but mainly my fault. I trusted him with all my life, and maybe you shouldn't trust anyone that much. I cannot make that mistake twice." I said realistically, for the first time in a while.
"Sookie Stackhouse, I am a thousand years old, but you never cease to amaze me." Eric said with a soft chuckle.
"Why did you act like that, in Russell's office." I asked blinking cautiously, not wanting to miss a single expression on his face.
"It's a long story Sookie" he said quivering.
"Eric, I am in a hospital bed, I got nothing but time." I said humorously and he began the long story, of his royal family and how they were brutally murdered, his knowledge of Russell, and finally he told me of the revenge.
"Eric, I am sorry. I never had no idea. " I said and that sentence sounded so offputing I didn't even know how to fix it. I wiped a tear from my cheek.
"Sookie, no one knows. Just you." he said and I swallowed instantaneously.
"Why tell me, why share such important facts with little ole Sookie Stackhouse?" I asked half joking- half serious.
"You,' Eric said deadpan " are not little ole Sookie Stackhouse, not to me." he said and I made a sound I never made with Eric, except when I was dreaming. I giggled.
"Are you sure this isn't a dream?" I asked glancing around and I playfully pinched myself.
"Not a dream, lover." he said sheepishly and I almost forgot where I was until my night nurse came in with my medicine.
"Visiting hours ended." The nurse said harshly. I heard her groggy thoughts, she was thinking about why would some fangbanger let a vampire beat her up so bad, and how she was going to steal her latest hydro from the locked closet here. I smiled in contentment.
"Ma'am" I said sweetly. "unless you want your supervisor knowing that you steal medication, I suggest you leave my friend alone." I said and the nurse left with a bug eyed look.
"That was amazing." Eric said and I grinned.
"I got skills you don't even know about cowboy. " I said and Eric looked shocked but completely in awe.
"I'm sure." he began and stood up. "I better be, uh, going.."
"Nu-uh. you ain't leaving. "I said scooting over slowly and patting the vacant place beside me.
"I am well over 6 feet tall, i can't lay there." he said pointing and I huffed and scooted a little more.
"Eric Northman, I am offering you a place to lay and hold me, are you declining because if you are I will not ask again." I said pitifully and the next second he was laying with me, holding me.
"Who knew to get close to you, all I had to do was be honest." he said and I nodded.
"The way to my heart." I said, laying my head against his chest and he pressed his lips to my hair.
"goodnight Ms. Stackhouse." he said and I lifted my head.
"goodnight Mr. Northman." I said pecking his lips and dozing off into a deep sleep. The best sleep I got in a very long time.