This is a little story I decided to write after listening to Lindsey Stirling's new song Brave Enough. What happens if Jess just isn't brave enough to see Nick again every single day. This first chapter is a little on the short side, sorry, but the next chapter will be a lot better! I hope to get that uploaded in the next few days. My kids were distracting me while writing this part, so let me know if there are any major grammar errors.
Jess can't take it anymore. It's been a month since Nick went to New Orleans with Reagan. Schmidt and Cece are back from their honeymoon and all she sees is love, love, love. And she is in love with Nick and can't tell him. She has tried to write it down many times. But it always coming out desperate and she gives up halfway through. Maybe it is time for her to look for a place to live. Jess knows that it will be a lot harder to see Nick every day and keep this from him.
She just isn't brave enough to face him every day.
One week later, Jess is looking at apartments about five minutes from her school. She has found two different apartments that she really likes. Feeling so lonely, she calls Cece to get a second opinion.
"Cece, I'm stuck. I need another pair of eyes. Can I come pick you up and you help me decide?" Jess tells Cece.
"Sure, babe, I'm ready now."
"Ok, be there in 15 minutes. Thank you, Cece." Hanging up, she tells the manager of the apartment that she will be back in half an hour. And gets in her car.
Pulling up in front of the Loft building, Cece is already outside.
"Cece, thank you. I just don't know which one to pick. I just keep seeing a one room apartment and no roommates. I can afford both apartments easily, I just don't know. I mean, I only have a little over a month to get settled before Nick comes back. I can't be there when Nick gets home. It will hurt too much. Of course I'm going to miss you guys! But I can't do the Nick thing anymore." Jess blabbers out as she pulls away from the building and heads back to the apartments
"Babe, I get it. When Schmidt and I broke up forever ago, I couldn't bear to see him. Then with the stuff with Elizabeth after Shrivrang, it hurt like hell. I hated seeing him. So you don't have to explain anything to me. But I don't want to be the one to break it to the guys. I have kept this from Schmidt right now, but he needs to know soon." Cece says.
They are quiet as Jess drives. "When are you going to tell Nick? Are you guys still texting?" Cece asks, not sure of what answer she wants to hear. On one hand, she knows that Nick still texting Jess even with Reagan halfway across the country, gives Cece hope that Nick really isn't really over Jess. But Cece also knows that it gives Jess pain to hear from Nick when he is with another girl.
"Yes, I haven't let on that anything is going on. I text him back when he texts me. I'm trying to pretend everything is normal. I know that I need to tell him. I just don't know how. Should I call him and leave a message while he on the plane home? But I run into the problem of Nick actually checking his messages in a timely manner. I could be waiting at the loft when he gets home, but that is what I really want to avoid. I have been trying to write a letter to him, but I don't know, it just always sounds terrible. I want to eventually be friends again. I know he will hate me at first. I just don't know. I think the letter will be the best option. But, Cece, can you help me? Can you read it before I leave it for him? That way, you can tell me if it sounds horrible and I need to rewrite it."
"Sure, that actually is really a good idea. I can give the letter to him when he arrives, that way we know he gets it." Cece says.
Driving up to the apartment building, "Here is the first option. It's pretty nice actually. It has pretty bay windows and is in a quiet community." They get out and walk into manager's office. "I'm back, can I go see the two available apartments again? My friend is here to help me decide which apartment is best for me."
"Yes of course, Ms. Day, here are the keys. The apartment numbers are on the tags, just bring them back when you decide." The manager says smiling.
Taking the keys, Jess and Cece walk out and look at the apartments.