Well... Hopefully, you'll like this story. It's shonen ai and if you don't like it, then don't read it.

Btw, this will be a Thiefshipping story, even if it doesn't look like it at the beginning.

Enjoy! ^-^

Disclaimer: I don't own Yu-Gi-Oh!

Chapter 1

I sat in my room. Outside it was dark. Full moon... again. It remembered me of the day he left. Without any prior warning. Without any goodbye.

I'd thought I would never lose him. He promised to stay with me forever. One second, I see his white hair shimmering in the moonlight, waving in the wind, and then...

*flashback*

"Hey, Kura, I'm back", he said as soon as he was in our apartment.

I've waited impatiently for him to come back from the store. Every time when he wasn't at home, I didn't know what I should do. Today, I had started with watching TV, but without him, watching TV was boring. Then, I'd begun to read a book, but reading was something I usually only did in school, and books were more boring than watching TV without him. As there had been nothing else I could do, I'd positioned myself on the couch and looked constantly on the clock. After 328 seconds I'd yawned the first time and then I had repeated this every 180 seconds. At my ninth yawning (I was already 1768 seconds laying on the couch), I thought I'd go insane. When would he finally come home?

And that was the point when he came back.

I stood up and went to him. "I'm glad you're finally back", I said and gave him a kiss, that made him blush. I loved it when he blushed. His normally pale cheeks then had a beautiful red color that made him irresistible. I snickered and hugged and squeezed him. "I missed you, Ry", I whispered into his ear.

Ryou sighed. "I was just gone somewhat over half an hour..."

"Yes, but no matter how long you are not with me, the fact that you ARE not with me makes me missing you", I explained and kissed him again. Carefully, I pushed my tongue into his mouth, taking him by surprise, as always when I did this. He dropped the shopping bags. The surprised look in his eyes made me slightly smirk while I was discovering his mouth. Ryou always had this sweet taste. Sweet and delicious. Like... There was nothing similar. It was indescribably.

As I had to break the kiss for getting air, I led him to the couch. Ryou smiled dazed. I grinned and kissed him again, passionately. Slowly, I started to take him his jeans off, but he then hold on to my arm and broke free from our kiss.

"Please, don't...", he whispered softly and continued with kissing. I sighed inwardly, broke the kiss and stood up. He looked at his feet.

"I'm sorry, Bakura, but...", he said and looked apologizing at me with his big chocolate brown eyes.

"Never mind", I said and walked away, into my room. I'd thought that today would finally be the day...

I lay down on my bed and started to think. Why didn't he want it, too? I couldn't understand him. Every time I tried, he said the same. 'Please, don't...' I didn't know why we should not do it. We were together for a long time. He loved me and I loved him.

"Argh... Maybe he doesn't love me enough...", I muttered to myself.

"That's not true." Suddenly, Ryou appeared at the door.

I closed my eyes. "Well, then tell me why you don't wanna do it", I said.

I heard him coming closer to my bed. As he stood beside me, he sat down on the bed. I opened my eyes. He didn't look in my direction. He just stared at the wall.

"I just... don't want to jump the gun on the whole thing", he explained.

I scoffed. "Yes, sure. Because three years are such a short time..."

Ryou closed his eyes. I sat up.

"Bakura...", he began, "If you'd really love me, you'd understand..."

"So, this is a love-test?", I asked.

"No, of course not", he answered quickly and looked in my face.

"Then what?", I questioned.

Ryou shrugged. "I'm just not ready...", he muttered.

"Really? Or is it because you don't think that you'll love me forever?"

His eyes widened. "No!", Ryou answered. "I'll love you forever. I can't imagine anyone else at my side. But... Will you love me forever?"

Now my eyes widened. "Of course! You're the only one for me! How could you even think that I won't love you forever?"

Ryou just smiled. A moment of silence followed.

"But...", I began, "Now, that we both know that we'll love each other forever..." I opened the first button of his shirt.

"Bakura", he muttered.

"What?", I whispered. "Ryou..."

"Bakura...", he said again, "Not now. Not today. Maybe... I don't know when, but I want to be sure of it."

Inwardly, I rolled my eyes. He did like it was such a big deal... Well, okay... It was a big deal, but why did he delay it? I gave up, but only for today.

"Okay...", I said, "Then I'll wait until you are sure of it. But I just want to tell you something."

He looked at me, expectantly.

"We're meant to be together", I told him. "Don't ever forget that."

Ryou smiled and hugged me. Then, he went out of my room. I sighed and slumped backwards on my pillow.

"Oh, Ryou...", I muttered. "Of course I'll wait for you until you're ready, but it's just so hard to resist you..."

I lay on my bed for a while and just thought.

Suddenly, it knocked at my door. Ryou peeked through the door crack and smiled.

"Come in, Ry", I said and he stepped into my room.

"Well... I've thought and..." Now I was nosey. Maybe he'd changed his mind... "Do you remember the wish you had two years ago?"

I was confused. What did he mean? Well, I HAVE had THAT wish already two years ago, but...

"It was Valentine's day two years ago... and you told me about one wish you had. It was something you'd wanted to do and you'd said that it would show that we'd go through rough and smooth, through foul and fair, through ups and downs..."

Now I'd get it.

"You talk about the cliff diving thing I wanted us to do?", I asked.

"Exactly", he said.

"Well, what about it?"

He grinned. "I thought it maybe could throw a sop to you. You know, two years ago, I thought it was stupid and I really was not ready to do that. Now, I'm not ready for having sex with you. But now I'm ready for doing the cliff diving thing..."

My heart jumped. I sat up. "You mean, you wanna do this with me?!", I said. Ryou nodded.

Two years ago, I'd absolutely wanted to do cliff diving together with Ryou, but Ryou didn't agree to it. He'd thought that it was dumb and dangerous and had nothing to do with our relationship and love. But I thought, that it WOULD reflect our relationship and love. We went through ups and downs together and the whole cliff diving thing... well, you jump down from this cliff and land in the ocean, in unknown waters. When you're standing on the cliff, you have to make the decision how you go on. Will you jump or not? In life, you have to make decisions, too, and sometimes you have to jump in unknown waters. So, the cliff diving thing reflects both life and our love.

Then, I remembered how frightened Ryou had been of the idea as I told him two years ago.

"Ryou...", I began, "You know you don't have to do this, right? You don't have to throw a sop to me because of the sex thing... I don't want you to do anything you don't want to do."

"I know that. But I perceive now, that you'd been right about the cliff diving thing, that it reflects our love and so on. And I thought it would make you happy and everything I want is making you happy."

It had been my longstanding wish to do cliff diving together with him. It was something extreme.

"Ryou, are you sure?", I asked him.

"Of course, I am", he answered. "If you don't want to do it anymore, then we don't have to do it, but I thought, it would make you happy. I know it's a longstanding wish of yours. So... Do you wanna go?"

"Where?", I asked.

"Cliff diving", Ryou answered.

"What? Now?"

"Of course."

"But it's dark outside. It's already late...", I told him.

"Yes, but... isn't that more fun?"

"Well..." I was so near to getting one longstanding wish. "Okay, but only if you really wanna do this."

"I do", he said and gave me an adorable smile. "C'mon", he took my hand and pulled me up from the bed. I grinned. He grinned. We both grinned.

The cliffs were not far away from our apartment, so we walked. Also it was dark outside, it was a warm night. A warm Saturday summer night. Sounds like a stage play, doesn't it?

Ryou and I arrived at the cliffs. How often had we watched some crazy people jumping? Hundred times? Thousand times? I didn't know... But now, Ryou and I were the crazy people that wanted to jump.

We stripped down to our waists and hid our clothes in a bush. I admired Ryou's beautiful pale body, that was shimmering in the light of the full moon. The moonlight also made his white hair gleam. He looked like an angel. Only without wings...

Ryou grinned and took my hand. Then, we walked onto the highest cliff. A breeze made our hair waving in the wind. As I looked down into the deep darkness of the black ocean, I felt how adrenaline rushed through my body. It was a great feeling.

I looked into Ryou's face. He smiled, but I saw a hint of fear in his eyes.

"Ryou, are you sure you wanna jump?", I asked and hoped that he was sure.

"Yes", he assured me.

I squeezed his hand lightly and kissed him.

"Are you ready?", I whispered. He nodded heavily.

"Yes", he breathed.

"I love you, Ry", I told him.

"I love you, too", he answered.

"So, I count to three, and then we jump, 'kay?", I said.

Ryou nodded.

"One...", I counted and looked him in his face. His face was unreadable, but he smiled.

"Two...", I continued to count. Ryou chewed on his lower lip. We both took a deep breath.

"THREE!", I screamed. We both ran to the edge of the cliff and as we reached it, we jumped, hand in hand.

The feeling while we were falling was incredible. We fell so fast, but at the same time it felt like we were falling in slow motion. I didn't lose my hold of Ryou's hand. The dark water came nearer and nearer. And nearer. And then, I felt how my feet broke through the water surface. I felt how water embraced my legs and all of a sudden, I was completely underwater. The water swirled around us and it whirled us around. Suddenly I lost hold of Ryou's hand. I didn't know where he was, where the water surface was, it was too dark underwater to see anything. I struggled and tried to get to the surface, but that was easier said than done when you don't know where the surface is and the water whirls you around. I felt how I had the urge to take breathe, but I was still underwater. I hadn't expected that the water current would be this heavy. From the top of the cliff, I hadn't seen that... I continued to struggle and then, suddenly, I broke the water surface. As soon as my head was out of the dark ocean, I took a deep breath and searched for Ryou.

But I didn't see him. Where was he? My heart beat nervous against my chest. Was Ryou still underwater? I looked down into the deepness. I couldn't see anything... But stop! I thought I'd seen something white! As fast as I could, I dived into the darkness and tried to find Ryou.

I found him. He hovered in the water, his hair pointed in every direction and his eyes were shut. //Oh, no!//, I thought. //Please don't let it be too late!//

Quickly, I grabbed his arm and pulled him up to the surface. He was unconscious. He didn't move. What should I do?

I pulled him to the waterside and positioned him, so that he lay on his back. I tried to feel his pulse, but to my horror, I couldn't find one.

"No, no, no...", I muttered. "C'mon, Ryou... Breathe!"

I did everything I knew of first aid, but Ryou did neither begin to breathe nor did he show any sign of life. He just lay there...

The moonlight shined on his pale body, his pale angelic face, his white shimmering hair... His lips were blue...

My whole body trembled. Suddenly, I had a strange feeling. It was like my heart was ripped apart at the sight of Ryou, laying motionless on the waterside... My heart and my head started a fight. My head said it was too late. He was... I couldn't even think that. My heart tried to put the parts of itself together again, and said that he was just unconscious, that in one minute, he would jump up and tell me how much fun this had been.

But he didn't jump up. My head was right, not my heart. Ryou didn't move, he didn't breathe, he... didn't do anything. His blue lips were slightly opened as if they wanted to say 'Kiss me, Kura'. So I bent forward and pressed my lips against the blue, cold lips of my lover. It was a long kiss, or so I thought. A short time, the thought that he maybe would wake up from the kiss, like in a fairytale, crossed my mind. But, of course, life wasn't a fairytale.

I broke away from the motionless figure of Ryou. This was not fair! Ryou couldn't be dead. No way! He'd promised to love me forever, to never leave my side and now...

"Ryou, please...", I whispered and tears flowed down my face, "Please, don't let me alone... I need you, Ry. You can't just go, without goodbye... Please Ryou."

But no matter how often I whispered these words to him, he didn't wake up. He just lay there. Just lay... The full moon shined on his angelic, peaceful looking face. Ryou was so beautiful.

Again, I tried to feel his pulse. Again, there wasn't one. I tried to find a heart beat, but there wasn't any.

Then, I crawled backwards, away from Ryou. My eyes burned from crying.

Sobbing and crying, I sat two meters away from Ryou and just watched him do nothing. It was a awful sight, to see my lover laying there. My lover... my Ryou... He couldn't be dead... I loved him and he had said, he loved me, too. He couldn't just leave me... No, no, no, no, no... This was a nightmare. Was life like that? Unfair? Was it supposed to be like that, or am I the only person that had to live such a life. Why was my lover taken away from me? Why? Oh, Ryou, why?

"Why?!", I screamed into the darkness of the night. Of course, I didn't get an answer.

But what should I do now? I went back to Ryou's dead figure. Should I bury him? I didn't think, Ryou'd like that. He had been somebody who liked to be free.

I decided to position him in the ocean, so that the waves could bring him anywhere. So that Ryou could be free...

I sat at the waterside and watched my lover disappearing between waves. And then, a thought crossed my mind.

"I've killed him...", I muttered. "Everything is my fault..."

He suggested to go cliff diving, to make me happy, because he didn't want to do what I wanted to do. I am so egoistical! Only because of me, he was dead now. Dead... Because of me... We wouldn't have gone cliff diving, if I hadn't been so frustrated. If I hadn't been in the condition that made him think, that he had to make me happy. Ryou was dead... gone... forever...

As his body was far, far away of the waterside, I stood up and walked home.

I didn't really remember how I get home, but finally, I was home. I couldn't believe it... Ryou couldn't be dead...

I went into my room and started crying again. I slumped on my bed and buried my head in my pillow.

"Ryou, Ryou...", I muttered until I fell asleep. And the light of the full moon shined on me through the window...

And now I sat here, in my room. One month was gone by. The Monday after Ryou's death, I had gone to school as if everything was normal. As Yugi and the others had asked me where Ryou was, I answered that he'd left me, because he didn't love me anymore. They couldn't believe it, but finally, they did. I thought, it was better to think that Ryou had left me than to think that he was dead. I liked to think that, and everybody else should think that as well.

I was glad, that nobody had found Ryou's body yet. And hopefully, nobody would find it, because then, I'd have to explain and it would reopen the wounds...

I sighed and lay down on my bed. As every night, I buried my head in the pillow and started to cry, like in the night Ryou had died.

And the light of the full moon shined on me through the window...

Poor Bakura, poor Ryou...

This was sad, wasn't it? If you want to know how the story continues, then you'll have to wait for the next chapter.

But one thing I can reveal: Malik is going to show up in the next chapter.

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~Crystal of Moonlight~