couldn't be good

"Don't be stupid", Macau yells in frustration.

"She re-quipped", Cana informed us, as Erza's body started to glow.

"What are you doing?", Loki was the next to speak

"Protecting the guild hall", stated matter of factly like the idea wasn't insane.

"Protecting the guild hall.", she stated matter of factly as if the idea of her stopping a shot from Jupiter wasn't insane.

I watched on as my childhood rival sprinted to the edge of the cliff, where our guild stands, our home. Transforming into an armour I seldom get to see, the Adamantine Armor, though the armour is bulky and usually would not be one of Erza's wardrobe choices. This armour was not for show, it was for defence. I don't know how powerful the redhead believes her armour is. But it surely can't really be strong enough to block a direct hit from Jupiter, can it?.

As the shot was fired I froze, feeling my brother using his body to protect me from harm. I could hear the members of the guild scream at the queen of the fairies, begging her to move. Natsu and Gray struggling with each other as Natsu attempted to get to the scarlet haired woman. I closed my eyes as I heard the cannon hit the defence of the Armor. Holding my breath, as the wind whipped my hair into my face, pleading for some sort of miracle.

I could hear Erza's scream, as her shield weakened. Finally, one final bang before the magic energy disappeared. When I looked to the spot where Erza had been standing, in her place was a giant crater. "No", I whispered. I followed the crater's length to a body lying at the end of it. My breath hitched, my hands shaking, Erza can't be dead.

"Are you okay? say something." I watched as the pink haired man, ran over to check on the injured woman. I let out the breath I was holding, as I noticed Erza's body shaking. She managed to muster up the strength to shout at master Jose during his speech, then the eruption of the rest of our self-made family joined her.

I spotted Lucy, and I knew straight away what she was thinking. I couldn't let Erza's sacrifice be in vain. I had to do something before lucy gave herself up.

In the guild

Some of the men brought in an injured erza, before going back out to fight. I offered to tend to her wounds and keep watch over her, despite how useful I would be if anything did happen. I hated this, being weak at a time where my friends needed me.

"You're just as stubborn as ever, aren't you?", I stared down at the body on the table. "You haven't changed since childhood. How I envy you.", I placed my hand on her hair, smoothing it out.

I glanced around at the damaged building, unrecognizable from our past. Memories flooded back to more peaceful and carefree times. Some weren't as happy as others. But no matter what, the members of fairy tail are always there for me. This was the only place I can call home.

"Do you remember when we used to fight?." I asked the unconscious woman on the table, I never expected an answer from her. " it seems silly now, I thought you didn't like me. but when Lisanna passed away, all I wanted to do was to be alone, but you wouldn't let me carry that burden by myself."

Flashback

I sat on the cold hard ground in the forest, my knees to my chest, hiding my broken arm between my body and my legs, my back resting against a bolder.

My good hand had tangled in my hair as tears streamed down my face. My mind replayed the incident over and over again. "It was all my fault if I was stronger... this would have never happened. If I hadn't taken that S class mission and brought her along with me, she would still be here.", I was begging for this to be a dream. I would give anything, just to wake up and be greeted by her smile.

A snapping of a twig had brought me back to reality. When my head shot up, I spotted the redhead who fought with me on a daily basis. "Get out of here, now", I warned her, but she didn't budge.

"Look, I just want to say…", I cut her off before she had the chance to speak.

"I don't want pity, especially if it's coming from you." I jumped to my feet, angry at no one, in particular, holding my arm as a pain shot through it.

"I'm not here to give you pity, I'm here to check on a friend.", She spoke softly but firmly. "When dealing with a loss, it's sometimes good to have someone for support. You don't need to go through this by yourself, Mirajane.". I grounded my teeth together.

What would you know about loss?", I stepped closer to her. "you have no clue what I'm going through or what's good for me." I yelled at her.

She opened her mouth ready to say something but quickly closed it. I could see the pain in her eyes but I didn't care I just cared about mine. "Exactly." Without thinking, I threw a punch with my one good arm. " You know nothing about what I'm feeling. You have no idea what I'm going through.", I screamed in her face. "How could you?", every syllable that left my mouth another punch would land on the knight's face, She never fought back. She finally fell to the ground, without thinking I continued my vicious attack, climbing on top of her. I could see her face was swollen, but I couldn't stop myself I needed to let it out.

"You don't know how guilty I feel for not being able to protect her. I'm her big sister, after all, that's my job. I would give anything to get her back, even if it meant my own life." tears streamed down my face, my nose running as I looked at the battered knight. "ERZA, I WANT HER BACK, I WANT MY SISTER BACK, Please.", I completely broke down, stopping my assault on the girl beneath me. I slowly slid off her, as I buried my face into my good arm. Trying to steady my lower lip. I was startled, when I felt to arms wrap around me, she pulled me into a tight hug.

"you have no idea how much I can relate right now." her voice was shaking. " I know the feeling of loss and the guilt of losing a loved one. But please remember Lisanna will always live on inside of you." With that, I broke down again.

End of Flashback

"I never did thank you for coming after me, did I?", I spoke softly. " I wish a lot of things had happened differently back then. But I don't regret any of it, joining fairy tail or becoming your friend. I couldn't pitcher my life without either of you in it." I let out a giggle. "we were such a destructive pair back when we were younger. You never knew what would happen next."

"Now look at us, the falling fairy queen, Titania and me, the broken she-devil. At least you fell with honour, that is just like you erza, too stubborn to turn down a fight. But for me, when Lisanna past I could never find the heart to fight again.

"That's probably because the queen is never selfish and will always protect her people. While the she-devil is nothing but a coward, I'm just being selfish and pathetic. If I could use my satan soul, I could help fight." I covered my hands to my face, trying to hide the tears that slipped from my eyes, even though it was only me and an unconscious erza.

I felt something skiff the skin of my arm. I looked down to see erza's unfocused eyes staring at me. I can't help but be embarrassed by getting caught in my pity party. "You're not selfish or pathetic.",she spoke softly struggling to get her words out, breathing heavy.

"Erza, you need to rest", I wiped my eyes, softly held her fallen hand.

The queen of the fairies ignored my concern and continued on. "You are the strongest….person I know, not much people can go through... a loss and still come out with a kind heart… I never did think the she-devil described you in the best way, it just didn't fit. Even in that form you always did have the most loving heart. ", she took another shaky breath.

"Your power isn't in how much magic you have, but in the heart you carry.", I looked at her through misty eyes. "I can honestly say, I always look forward to returning home, to the guild after a job. When you are there to greet me with a smile and a warm welcome, it always makes a long mission seem worthwhile. I know everybody else in the guild feels the same." She weakly squeezed my hand. … I can", she paused, as her body tensed in pain. "I can honestly say you've made Lisanna proud". I couldn't hold back the tears but before I could thank her, Erza she had passed out once again.

'You really are, the queen of the fairies. I know what I need to do, it's time I protected the guild." I swang open the door of the building, preparing myself to give my life in the name of my comrades, my family, my home.`