What up? Guess what this is? ;) FINALLY RIGHT? So I'm sorry I haven't been a good writer and wrote for the sequel as much as I had hoped, but things have been insane! Uni starts in fall! AND I'm working this summer but I finally got the first chapter done, and FINALLY decided on a chapter title and story title because 'Love Story Sequel' wasn't gonna cut it. But I like this title because of many reasons, mostly because it's the title of one of my fave Taking Back Sunday songs (key inspiration for this sequel btw.) Anyways enjoy! -xoxo Tak
DISCLAIMER: The only thing I own is the story line and any OC's we encounter. Also all the events that go on are 100% FICTION! No Kendall and Katelyn didn't sleep together! I wish, but they didn't! And I will let you know what IS real upon request!
Recap: Kendall revealed to Katelyn that he was in love with her while at the Big Time Rush season 1 wrap party, after performing Times Wastin' a song he wrote for her.
Music was Kendall's downfall. But the music he played with the words he sang, made him finally gain the strength to do what was needed done. An act of God, and nothing less was what caused him to say I love you to Katelyn, now only an act of God was going to help him face her.
Two months. It had been two whole months since Katelyn last saw or heard from Kendall. Ever since he told her that he was in love with her, he seemed to disappear from the world, well her world. She'd see him tweet all the time and even see the guys on do a few interviews on T.V, but other than that, she hadn't seen him at all. She wasn't sure if it was a good thing or a bad thing, but she knew that she didn't like it at all. What kind of person tells someone they are in love with them and then leaves them standing like an idiot on a rooftop and never comes forward again? She didn't necessarily blame him or hate him for it, she knew it was hard to tell anyone that you're in love with them, especially if you know they don't feel the same, but she was mad that he left her stuck between a rock and a hard place.
After he had confessed his feelings, they were both joined by Erin and Stephen, leaving them with no room to even talk about it. Everything from then on felt like one big awkward act they had to put on. Every word spoken, every eye-lock broken, every hug given, felt like a lie to them both. He then proceeded to leave without any indication that he was going to be back. Inside Katelyn's mind there was a million thoughts zooming. What was she to do? What would happen to their friendship? What would David think? How is she going to go on? Does she feel the same? She didn't know the answer to any of these questions. She wanted to though. And the way to get them was to talk to Kendall. But he was nowhere to be found. He ignored her calls, texts, messages, visits, etc. He was hiding as if she were the mob.
She was beginning to feel the lack of his presence take over her peace of mind. She wanted to have him back. She needed him back. She felt if she didn't hear his voice soon, she'd have a mental breakdown. She tried all the guys and they all told her that he was either busy or not with them, which she sensed was him telling the others to lie for him. She just wanted to talk to him. Or have him tell her himself that he didn't want to talk because that was better than what he was doing now.
One day when she was walking home from the organic market she knew Kendall loved, in hopes that maybe he'd be there and she'd see him but no such luck, she got a text from the blond boy himself, telling her that they needed to talk, which seemed incredibly stupid to her considering that's all she was trying to do for the past month.
Instead of texting him back, she called him. The tone rang twice before she hung up, not even knowing what she was going to say to him. She texted him back asking where he wanted to meet up to talk. She waited for his reply, walking back home still. When she got inside her house, that's when he answered, letting her know that he wanted to meet in the park where this whole mess began. She sighed. She didn't want to go back there. That place felt too sacred for them to end up fighting in. Nonetheless she had to see him and get some answers, even if it meant having a worse memory replace the good ones at the park.
Katelyn told him she'd be there in ten minutes. She changed out of her sweats and into a pair of jean shorts. She grabbed her car keys and got in the car. She drove to the park, currently filled with hundreds of little kids playing, and waited in the parking lot. She searched the area and found Kendall talking to a little black haired girl. She groaned at him for being adorable. She took a deep breath and got out of the car. She walked over to him, crossing the playing children. The little girl whom he was talking to stayed there even after Katelyn arrived. Kendall gave Katelyn a half apologetic smile and tried to get the little girl to go away for a bit.
"Is this your girlfriend?" The little girl asked.
"No, she's just my friend." Kendall answered politely.
"Why isn't she your girlfriend? Why aren't you his girlfriend?" The little girl asked.
They both looked at each other awkwardly. "Well he never asked me to be that's why." Katelyn answered.
"Why didn't you ask her?" She demanded from Kendall.
"She already has a boyfriend; otherwise I would have asked her out in a heartbeat." He answered, avoiding Katelyn's gaze. She blushed and smiled inwardly.
"Why don't you break up with your boyfriend for him?" The little girl asked innocently.
Katelyn felt awkward now. Truth be told, over the past few weeks she felt like breaking up with David would help her decide how she felt about Kendall, but she didn't want to lose him if she didn't feel the same as Kendall.
"Why don't you run a long and play with the other kids for a bit?" Kendall suggested. She made a silly face at him before running away.
"Sorry about that." He apologized to Katelyn.
"It's okay. Who was she?" Katelyn asked.
"Just a little fan. She recognized me and asked if I'd play with her." He replied.
"That's so sweet of you." Katelyn said with a friendly smile.
"Thanks." He said with an equally kind smile. This felt wrong to both of them. They were both being too polite, which was not them at all. Three months ago, they'd have been running around the park playing like the big kids they are, making jokes and laughing, and calling each other 'doofus' and 'loser.' But now, they felt like strangers who knew too much about the other before meeting.
"You look good." Kendall said awkwardly. He was sincere in his compliment though. Katelyn always looked good, but after not seeing her for a while, he was reminded of how beautiful she truly was.
"Thanks." She replied. "You too."
Silence fell for a brief moment.
"So… um we need to talk." He finally said, reminding them of why they were there in the first place.
"Well I've been trying to these past few weeks, but you kept avoiding me like a coward!" She said angrily, finally getting back the ferocity from the topic.
"I'm sorry. I just needed time-"
"Time?! Kendall of all the people who would need time I would be the one who needed it the most when you declared your feelings, but no, I didn't need time, I needed you so I could stop feeling like crap every time I thought about what you said. You left me hanging for so long that I don't even think you really meant what you said." Katelyn ranted.
"I meant it Kate, I did." Kendall muttered. "I still do."
"Then why'd you avoid me? Why'd you pretend like I didn't exist and what you said never happened?" She asked, exasperated.
"BecauseIwasafraid." He mumbled.
"What?"
"Because I was afraid, okay!" He exclaimed. "I was afraid that you were going to be the one to avoid me and ignore me. I was afraid you were gonna tell me you didn't feel the same or worse, that we can't be friends all because of what I said."
"Why would you think that?" She asked.
"Because that's what happens to me. I either break someone's heart or they break mine, so to avoid that, I cut the ties, but also you've done that before. When I lied to David and then when we slept together." He explained. He avoided her eyes, fearing she'd see the tears that were forming.
"That was all different Kendall." She argued. "You were still hiding your feelings then. You never told me why you did all that. At the time I just thought it was because you were being a jerk, which you never were so I got scared too. And now, I'm not as scared, but I'm confused because I don't know what to say or do and the only one I can talk to who knows about everything is you, and you didn't want to talk before."
Kendall looked shamefully away. He didn't think that he not talking to her was going to hurt her this much. At first he thought she'd have dismissed his confession and be on her merry way with David, but every time she called, it felt like she wanted to make it clear she never would love him, and that's why he couldn't take hearing her voice or seeing her name and face. It was all a painful reminder of his love for her being turned down.
"I'm here now and I need to talk because it's been killing me too." Kendall said. "It's been killing me since before I admitted it. It's been killing me since I first started having feelings for you."
"Why didn't you tell me how you felt?" She asked.
"Because it was easier to pretend that I didn't want you like that than to ruin our friendship." He answered. "I don't want to lose you Kate. I never did."
"What makes you think you will?"
"You're with David," was all he could say.
"Again with this. So what? Just because I have a boyfriend doesn't mean I can't still be friends with you. Yes you're in love with me, but neither of you own me. I can do what I want. I am my own person and if I want to be with David then I can. If I want to have sex with you, then I can. If I want to stay you're friend or have feelings for you, then I can, but please Kendall, don't assume I'm going to stop being your friend because of David."
Kendall looked up at her in awe. He had never seen her be so livid. Frankly, he liked her that way. She didn't let any one tear her down and control her, not in matters of the heart or life.
If there was ever a worse moment to kiss her it was this, but he found himself leaning down and brushing his lips on hers anyways. It was rash and impulsive, just like the decision to do it. Before he could pull away he felt her hands move up to his cheeks. She briefly pulled him back in before pushing him away and slapping him.
She was angry. Beyond angry. She was fuming. She glared at him straight in the eyes and walked away, fuming. Kendall kicked himself mentally for his utter stupidity.
"Katelyn wait!" He called to her. The children at the park were now staring at them. The little girl from earlier looked like she were about to cry, making Kendall feel a million times worse. He ran after Katelyn, making sure not to touch her and cause a scene. "Kate, I'm sorry."
"Don't you fucking dare Kendall." She said in a low voice so only he heard. "Sorry isn't going to cut it. I am through with all of these games. You need to stand up and love me like a man, or forget about it entirely because you can not keep doing this; kissing me whenever you feel like it, getting jealous of David, telling me you're in love with me just to disappear and ignore me."
"What do you want me to say then?!" He argued. "I've been killing myself everyday since I told you. I can't help but want you, to hold you, to kiss you. You've become this permanent mark in my mind that whenever I try to even do everyday things, I'm painfully reminded that I am in love with a girl who has no feelings for me whatsoever! And that's not what hurts. What hurts is that I ruined everything between me and you by just telling you."
"When did I say they were ruined? If they were ruined, I wouldn't have a called a million times, or begged the guys to let me talk to you, or have come here today. I wanted to talk to you so it wouldn't be ruined Kendall!" Katelyn said, exasperated. "You're my best friend Kendall and I felt like I was going to lose you."
"I am?" He asked dumbfounded.
"Yes." She replied as if it were obvious. "You make me laugh when I'm sad, you're always there for me when I need you, you do anything I need you to do, no matter how ridiculous, when I cry, you're there to catch every tear and then cheer me up, because you know me so well. I don't want to lose all of that just because I'm not in love with you." She confessed.
She didn't realize how tired she was until she began telling him all these things. She just wanted them to forgive and forget so she could go home and relax for the first time in two months.
Kendall silently studied her. He could see the stress taking over her face. The faint mauve bags under her eyes were enough to tell him he had already caused her enough pain. He wanted to apologize but he knew it would just cause her to get angrier.
"Come here." He whispered to her. She shook her head in refusal, so he walked over to her and grabbed her hand.
"I can't change what I did, but I wish I could. I know you don't want to hear, it but I truly am sorry. I don't want this to be what gets between us. Actually I don't want anything to get between us, not even me being in love with you. If you want me to be your best friend forever, I will with such honor and pride that it puts knights to shame. I just never want to lose you again. No matter what."
He brought her hand up to his lips and kissed it. "Let's make a pact to never let anything get between us. Where we are always going to stay friends even if it's killing one of us to only be just friends. Because the fact of the matter is, I just want you in my life for a long time. What do you say?"
"I say, yes. Whatever keeps us friends is good enough for me." She said. She took the hand he was holding and let her fingers go through his, and squeezed it. "Friends till the end, no breaks, bumps, or bruises that can't be healed, agreed?"
"Agreed."