I'll protect you.
Author: vvilma
Fandom: APH
Genre: Angst, romance
Rating: T maybe probably because of a hints to sex
Pairing: SuFin
Disclaimer: I don't own Hetalia.
A/N: sssooo... a friend of mine talked about SuFin, Finland's history, she showed me one SuFin video from YouTube and then we discussed about one headcanon saying Finland lost his virginity to Russia.
...and I couldn't hold myself back. sorry ._.
Sweden wanted to protect Finland. The always smiling man meant everything to him, and he didn't want to see him to get hurt. Yes, Finland was now an independent and wealthy nation but his past wasn't the most beautiful one. And it bothered Sweden so much it maybe wasn't healthy anymore.
Sweden didn't want to leave Finland alone. He did that mistake so many times and now he was sure – if Finland got hurt he would blame himself so much. Yes, Finland was strong and his possibilities to end up in a war or something like that were tiny. But Sweden didn't want to see that happen, not now nor ever.
Instead of worrying and carrying those horrible thoughts with him he could be happy with Finland, love him everyday more and treasure their time together. That was what Finland did, he remembered all the smiles Sweden gave him, every little word from the older nation's mouth was saved in Finland's mind. He couldn't forget them, never. Sweden knew that the younger one would start worrying if he knew about Sweden's thoughts and fears. And Finland with worry, sadness and too many hurtful thoughts... no. Sweden didn't want that. But at the end, if Finland really was that strong, he was safe and happy... why Sweden then worried so much? Nothing bad wouldn't happen if he decided to be happy even once.
The truth was that he had seen the worst times of Finland. All the wars, conflicts and obstacles: Greater Wrath, Lesser Wrath, Civil War...
Winter War.
Those words were still painful. They stabbed Sweden more than any other words in the world. It was the only time when Sweden left Finland all alone, he abandoned his love. And, oh, how Russia liked that. How he smiled when he saw Finland's tired face, the tears in his eyes. Sweden wanted to be there and help Finland, he wanted to hurt Russia so badly.
But he couldn't.
Sweden couldn't do anything but watch how Finland fought. How the small but strong nation did his best to defeat the strongest and largest nation in the world. Yes, we all know that at the end Finland's trust in himself didn't go to waste. But after that war, when everything what Finland had were gone, he wasn't the same old Finland. He wasn't just exhausted but emotionally empty. Yes, he won a war but he suffered. Russia wasn't the nicest man in the world, he didn't care if someone got hurt.
So when Sweden held Finland and wished him to go to sleep, he promised to himself he wouldn't ever hurt Finland. When Finland's arms were around Sweden's shoulders and his teary voice whispered in Sweden's ear how Russia hurted him over and over again, painfully made Finland to stay still while he thrusted inside him night after night, Sweden dried his tears and kissed his forehead. He promised to stay by Finland, protect him and make him happy.
Even if it required him to be worried for the rest of his life.