Note: Hey, I hope you enjoy this fic, it is set at the start of season 3 and will eventually be Faberry. Sorry for any mistakes or things which don't make sense- I am trying to improve my writing but it isn't going that well :L I hope you like this first chapter : )

Warnings: Contains self-harm, eating disorders, child abuse, rape and other such things...

I do not own 'Glee' unfortunately!

Senior year, their end to McKinley, the end of the slushies and the constant terror, the end of glee club as they knew it- the end of the most memorable years of their lives. It all ended here…

Fall soon arrived and the kids of McKinley were back at school as teenagers across Lima groaned as they desperately searched for the snooze button on their alarm clocks. All pupils with the exception of one Rachel Berry. The brunette woke with a start as soon as her iPod began blasting out her wake-up playlist, a gleaming white smile beaming across her face. Yes, today it wasn't just first day back, today there was so much for her to enjoy with the highlight of her day being glee club. But Rachel wasn't the only glee member wide awake…

A house several miles away…

Delicate pale fingers fiddled with the blade in her hand which she had plucked from her razor. Her hands weren't trembling, they never did as she brought it to the skin of the underside of her left forearm. She pressed down firmly drawing three straight horizontal lines of blood, each cut deeper than the last. The blood pooled as drips began making their way on to the tiles on her bathroom floor. She passed the blade from her right hand to her left as she repeated the action pressing even harder on her right arm before letting the blade drop from her tingling hand, allowing the blood and pain to flow.

After her morning rituals, Rachel was ready for school at precisely 7:36 ready to spend the next fourteen minutes walking to school in order to arrive for when the doors were opened to McKinley. The halls were practically empty as the petite teen clutched her bag as she raced towards the auditorium. Rachel passed the janitor, a few jocks, a group of Cheerios and Jacob down the main corridor, but now the only noise was the sound of her pumps as she near enough ran. Before long, Rachel had collected the key for the auditorium and was already working on her scales, playing the notes on the piano then echoing them with her voice to then progress to arpeggios and other such vocal exercises. She was certainly looking forward to returning to glee club today and a few slushies would definitely be worth it.

Soon others began to arrive at school; Sam pulled into the parking lot with Mercedes in his passenger seat, Finn was getting a lift from Kurt whilst the smaller boy tried to educate Finn about the songs blasting out of the radio, Tina and Mike walked through the doors hand in hand, Puck, Lauren and Artie entered together as Artie crossed paths with the couple and Brittany and Santana walked together like normal in virtual silence (since the Latina expressed her love for the bubbly blonde things were often awkward between them). That left one person- Quinn Fabray. The ex-cheerleader used to drive to school, but today she wandered slowly down the side walk expressionless, tugging at her sleeves all the way making sure no-one could see the girl who was hiding in a shallow person's skin. No, no one could know the truth.

Quinn appeared as a completely new person as she strolled into the high school. She had her head held high, smiling brightly greeting her peers as she passed them on the way to the notice board. She scanned through the sign-up sheets pinned up on the board, focusing on two- New Directions and Cheerios. Nope, no-one had signed up for glee club, possibly because it was barely visible as the endless sheets for Cheerios had been stacked up above it. She carefully wrote her name on the cheerleading list after checking that Santana and Brittany had signed up too ready for tomorrow.

Lessons went by slowly for everyone at William McKinley High School, but soon the bell rang signalling the end of the day for some and the start of glee club for others. Rachel walked into the choir room laughing with Finn to only find Brad and Mr Schuester already there. The rest of the club filed in a few minutes later and took pretty much the same seats as normal.

'Mr Schuester?', Rachel raised her hand as she began to stand, 'If I may, I would like to take this opportunity to inform the club of a song that I think would be perfect to showcase my natural talent and broad range as well as the idea of everyone taking part to try and get people to join. I have the sheet mu-'

'Blah, blah, blah,' Mercedes interrupted 'Do you ever shut up? I mean we have only been here for like three minutes and you are already making me need to go to counselling sessions.'

'Thank-you Rachel for your efforts and for mentioning the fact that we need to advertise the auditions for glee club and I have just the thing!' the Spanish teacher took control before things began to get out of hand. Quinn spoke up from her chair

'Oh please Mr Schue, we are never going to get anyone to join, glee club isn't cool, it's not popular- there's no use even pretending that it's because Coach Sylvester has hidden the sheet.'

'Wait what?' Mr Schue questioned.

'Anyway,' Quinn continued, 'we have enough people to allow us to compete even if someone drops out so I say we don't humiliate ourselves even further, however fun the performance may be.' The blonde trailed off towards the end, noticing that she had gotten into a Rachel Berry lecture. Mr Schuester watched the girl for a little while longer. Even though the passion was there in her voice, the usual fire in her eyes was missing. There still were flames burning but they appeared duller and lonely as if the fire was going to soon fizzle out.

'Thank-you for that Quinn, but we still are going to do this, and I have the perfect song- here pass these around.' Will gave a pile of lyric sheets to Sam who was sat on the end of the front row.

'I'm all for reviving songs from like the 80s or whatever, but Mr Schue, we can't work this and certainly can't perform it if we want to live.' Puck looked at the sheet in his hands.

'Well what do you guys suggest we do?' No one replied. 'Come on guys! Finn, you're joint captain- what do you suggest?'

'We could do our set list from Nationals, I mean, it will show what we really do and it' not like anyone was there so it will be completely new for them.' Finn hesitated.

'So do we have an agreement?' Most of the club nodded. 'Right we can rehearse in the auditorium and I'll try and organise some costumes!' The teacher clapped his hands together in satisfaction.

The club were dismissed after they made plans or rehearsal and the performance for the following day. The kids began to get up and leave and Mr Schue collected his laptop to book the auditorium out with a quick email to April Rhodes. When he returned everyone had gone except for Quinn who sat there staring vacantly at her phone.

'Hey, are you okay Quinn?' He walked over to the girl.

'Yeah, I'm fine.' Quinn was shaken out of her thoughts.

'Are you sure, 'cause if you ever want to talk about anythi-'

'Thanks Mr Shue, but I am okay, really.' She looked to Will who was now occupying the seat to her right. 'Umm, do you know if anyone is using the dance studios?'

'Err, I don't think so, I know that Rachel usually practices in them around this time, bu she headed in the other direction.'

'Thanks' Quinn put her cell phone in her bag before getting up and leaving.

'See you tomorrow' he smiled at her as she left.

Note: Thank-you so much for reading this! I have some more written up, but please let me know if you want me to continue or not and what you thought of it, but it does take a little while to get started sorry. Thank-you Xx