(((Dedication: Dedicated to Agent of the Divine One—extending this story was a pretty good idea, and it was his.
Summary:
It's been a long time since Raven first met Beast Boy, and a lot has changed since then—for both of them. Can Raven accept these changes when her emotions are at war?
Disclaimer: I own my depictions of Kindness and Jealousy, but nothing else.
Info: This is a pure Teen Titans strain and a Raven/Beast Boy romance. The first chapter is based on the song Won't Say I'm in Love from Disney's "Hercules". If the lines are in Italic font, it means they're actual song lyrics; inside slashes (//\\) are words of the Muses (in this case, Raven's emotions). Otherwise, Meg (Raven) is the one singing. I might have gotten some of the song lyrics wrong, and as you can see, I skipped some of the parts that I didn't know.
Author notes: This used to be a one-shot songfic, but at the request of Agent of the Divine One, I extended it (and about Agent—he's got this totally cool Teen Titans story going, if you wanted to see it). It's still not very long—only 3 chapters. Another thing: I'm confused about Raven's emotions. Every fanfic I read seems to have information that differs from my original information. I also made up a couple of the emotions in this story. So, the whole emotions thing is sort of screwy in my story.
ONE LAST THING! If your review got deleted while I was updating this story, SORRY!!!)))
I'm Not in Love!
By: Tjix
Chapter One: Lullaby of Love
Raven lay in bed, tossing and turning. Her emotions were in turmoil, causing her powers to fluctuate and lash out randomly.
The cause was Beast Boy. When Raven first met him, she'd thought she wouldn't even be able to stand working with him for a short time. Soon after, she had changed her mind and decided to tolerate him. Then she'd grown rather fond of him. It was only recently that she'd realized how devastated she would be if anything happened to him.
Raven turned restlessly on her side, twisting the sheets into an even worse mess. This was ridiculous. People came and went. Caring too deeply for anyone was bad news. No matter who. No one could be there forever.
If there's a prize for rotten judgment…
Raven snorted. Malchior? Beast Boy? Her judgment was rotten, alright.
I guess I've already won that.
Bad luck in love. Oldest story in the book, and yet Raven had still gotten into the "Bad Luck in Love" Hall of Fame.
No man is worth the aggravation…
Not that either of them were men. One was a draconic sorcerer, and the other was a mutant boy…
It's ancient history. Been there! Done that!
//Who d'ya think you're kidding? He's the earth and heaven to you. Try to keep it hidden, honey, we can see right through you…\\
Oh, no, no. No chance! No way! I won't say it, no, no.
//You swoon, you sigh. Why deny it, oh-oh?\\
It's too cliché. I won't say I'm in love.
Never.
I thought my heart had learned its lesson. It feels so good when you start out. My head is screaming, 'Get a grip, girl! Unless you're dying to cry your heart out!' Oh no…
//Baby, we're not buyin'…\\
oh, no…
//You got, got, got it bad!\\
No! No chance, no way. I won't say it, no, no!
//Give up, give in. Check the print, you're in love.\\
This scene won't play. I won't say I'm in love! You're way off base, I won't say it. Get off my case, I won't say it!
//Girl, don't be proud! It's okay you're in love.\\
Ohhh…
"It's not possible," Raven whispered. "It just can't be…"
"Raven?" Beast Boy was standing in the door, rubbing bleary eyes. "Are you okay? I can feel your power all the way from my room. Something's gotta be bothering you if your power's so… rampant."
Raven stared at him. Why couldn't he have stayed in bed? A simple question of friendly concern had broken right through the barriers she had so painstakingly erected around her heart.
"Raven?"
Raven sighed. "I'm fine, Beast Boy. Go back to bed."
Beast Boy stared at her for a moment, puzzled, then shrugged. "Okay. If you want to talk…" He shrugged again and shut the door.
Raven smiled sadly.
…at least out loud… I won't say I'm in love.
//Shalalalalala… ahhhh.\\\