Chapter 1
That was, the worst mistake of my life.
BPOV
I felt my knees go weak as I rushed towards the door for my escape, knowing that my heart couldn't take the hurt my realization gave because if I won't go, my heart will crumble into a million pieces.
By the time I got outside, I felt my heart stuttering so badly and my breathing go haggard. My mind was throbbing painfully from all the memories that came rushing through it.
For all I knew, it's thinking only about him and the moments we shared.
I thought, and oh how badly did it hurt:
"Why did I realize it only now?"
"Why did I even break up with him?"
"Why was I so stupid to let him go?"
As these kinds of thoughts shuffled in my head, I sobbed. Tears streaming down my face that I didn't notice those arms, whom I admit never grew up to be used to, wrap around me as I sank to the ground.
"Ssh Bells," Jacob cooed, "I saw Ed-.." I shook my head. "Err, him. And how my arms hurt from restraining myself into punching him because of all the freakin' hurt he caused you."
I bet you could tell that I didn't tell him the truth. And yes, I didn't tell him the truth and the whole story. That I was the one responsible for the pain and hurt I was feeling.
"Oh! I should've just done that when I first saw him inside. Don't worry, I'll be back in a sec. I'm just gonna tea-.."
My eyes shot up alarmingly, "No. Jake. I'm okay, don't mind me. And I want you to know that I'm happy you haven't done what you wanted. So please, restrain yourself to go back in there."
Jacob frowned at me and brought me back to my feet. "I'll try. Let's..", he sighed, "Let's just go home."
I nodded as I felt a smile appear on my face though I knew it didn't reach my eyes. "I would really like that."
He didn't talk to me after that. For I know that he knew that I wouldn't be myself if we did talk.
And so when we arrived at my house, he just smiled at me, kissed my cheek, gave a 'goodbye' and sped off. I didn't mind exploding at him after that.
I sighed and took the keys from my purse and opened and locked the door after I was inside. I didn't mind to turn on the lights and went straight to bed. I didn't even change into my pajamas for I was too sore after I realized that I'd been sobbing too much after all that happened.
Soon as I know I could trust my breathing, I was already being sucked into a massive black hole, my friend whom I call 'sleep'.