Your Guardian Angel.
Warning: I do not own Degrassi, the song Your Guardian Angel, or The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus.
Eli's POV
I locked my house and walked to my hearse, going to school. I hopped in the car and started it, my speakers blasting music as my engine rumbled to life. I drove to school, humming along with the song playing on the radio; "Your Guardian Angel" by the Red Jumpsuit Apparatus.
When I see your smile
Tears run down my face
I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out
As I listened to the lyrics, I realized how close they were to how I felt towards Clare. Every time she smiled, it made my heart beat furiously fast and made me fall even more in love with her. And it's true, after telling her about Julia I felt like I had become stronger and that maybe it wasn't so bad if I was with Clare. I felt like now that she knew my deepest secret and still accepted me, then maybe I did deserve her.
How this world turns cold
And breaks through my soul
And I know, I'll find deep inside me
I can be the one
I wished so badly that I could be the one to stay with Clare forever. I wanted to be the one to comfort her when she cried, make her smile when she was sad, and make her happy for the rest of her life. And, even though I wasn't exactly sure if she loved me, I definitely loved her.
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven
I'd already been through so much with her, like when I helped her get through her parents divorce. I would give myself up if it meant I would be saving Clare. I thought about the Night in Vegas dance and shuddered. When Fitz came towards us with the knife, my heart stopped and I pushed Clare away, hoping Fitz would forget about her and focus on me instead.
Seasons are changing and waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you, I'll be the one
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven
'Cause you're my, you're my, my
My true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
She was indeed my true love. She was the only one who understood me so well, and I was pretty sure I also knew her better than anyone else.
'Cause I'm here for you
Please don't walk away
And please tell me, you'll stay, stay
Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know, I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray
Ugh, I remember the short period of time where I tried to ignore her, hoping she would realize I was probably a bad influence and maybe find someone better. It felt as if my heart had shattered into a million tiny pieces when she realized what I was saying. The hurt, betrayal and utter sadness I saw in her beautiful blue eyes almost made me want to tell her the truth. But at the same time, I couldn't because she was really better off without me. I didn't ever want her to walk away from me like that, and I was going to keep her as happy as I could, no matter what I had to do to accomplish that. The chorus continued to play, and then the song was over. I turned the key in the hearse and got out. I jogged towards Clare, who had just gotten off to bus and was looking around. She smiled as I reached and I smirked back, thinking of how wonderfully beautiful that smile of hers was.
So, whaddaya think? Please review my darlings, as this is my first ever fanfic and I figured: why not make it about my fave and the totally cutest tv couple; Eclare? Quick questions: Should I add more chapters? Alternate POVs between Clare and Eli? Suggestions for other chapters, if I should add some? Thank you to everyone who reviews, virtual hugs to all who do! :3
