Darn it! I know it's not the best idea to post another story when one is in progress but I couldn't help it. Here's a heads up: I have a writer's block concerning Sakuno's character and I've been working on ALL of my stories. I hate myself. Oh, and another thing, could you believe that I lost two of my notebooks just when I needed them most? Argh, finals are coming up and I won't get my permit unless I pass every single requirement needed. Ugh.
Disclaimer: I do not own Alice Academy
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October 10, 1993
Dear Diary,
I have learnt that even the person closest to your heart can never be given a hundred percent of your trust. Have you heard of the saying 'Your best friend is also your worst enemy.'? I believe it for I have lived through an experience that exudes the very essence of the saying itself. I mean, how could she have done such a thing to me? After everything we've been through, after all the years we've spent together. We were like sisters, inseparable by a strong bond that I thought would never break. Sadly, I thought wrong. The day she did such a thing to me, the day she showed me her true self, the day I was hurt and broken beyond repair, was the day that life proved to me that not all angels in disguise were from heaven, but some were from hell.
It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care
She was sweet, caring, thoughtful, understanding and most of all, she was my best friend. She was the last person I have ever thought to ever hurt me. But, I was wrong, because she did it. How dare she?! How could she have just stolen him like that as if it was the most natural thing in the world! As if her actions meant nothing, as if she didn't care about me and about my feelings, as if every second we've spent together meant nothing to her like dust in the wind
And him, oh, how I loathe him with my very existence. The very thought of him makes me want to strangle him to death! We've been together since we were in high school, building the relationship we once had. But he had to shatter everything with a simple snap from his fingers. Just. Like. That!
I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
That's coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you
Ugh, I can't believe I trusted him. I can't believe I took every word he said to heart. I can't believe I trusted him to fulfil his promises. I can't believe that every word that had escaped his mouth directed at me was a stupid lie! I can't believe that he was a fake!
No, wait, let me rephrase that.
I can't believe that both of them were fakes! The two people whom I trusted so much, who were placed so closely to my fragile heart, were just two good for nothing pretenders! I trusted them so much that I thought everything was true. I believed in them so much that I thought everything was real. Only to be harshly woken up from a beautiful daydream by a bucket of freezing water dumped on my head.
I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song
And on one of the supposed happiest moments in my life, I instead had a heart shattering experience. Can't a girl ever be truly happy? Well, life is a wheel and you can never stay on top for too long. Life has its ups and downs and just because I fell down doesn't mean I'm never going to stand up again. What happened you ask? This happened:
Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you
My ex-best friend (supposed to be maid of honour –not anymore–) and my ex-boyfriend (supposed to be husband –not anymore–) weren't really the people I thought they were. And they never really saw me through the way I thought they would. All of the memories we shared. Everything I once held so dear, so close to my heart, are all fading away. They were mere illusions created by them. All of these years we have spent together, they were just pretending. And I was too naïve to see it. I was so distracted by the beautiful scenery to realize that it was only a dream. I was too engrossed in seeing my wish finally come true.
I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind
Everything was a lie, everything was made up. I'm not a princess and he isn't my prince since this isn't a fairytale. I'm not some actress that will find true love in a set since I'm not in Hollywood. I'm just a normal girl living a normal life in a normal city. Well, not everyone gets the happy ending that they truly deserve, and I'm one of those few unlucky people.
Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you
---Mikan Sakura
Mikan sighed as she put down her pen. Her face emotionless yet her eyes were glossy with unshed tears as her brown orbs expressed deep sorrow. She gingerly placed a hand on her stomach as a single tear rolled down her cheek and dropped on the page. One of her hands went to her cheek as more tears rolled down her porcelain face. She couldn't take it anymore as both of her hands flew to her mouth and she cried all her sadness, problems and pain away.
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