The first few times it was an easy thing to dismiss but John's amorous introductions with off world females had become no less frequent even after they had decided that all they wanted was each other. She understood the need for secrecy, the military regulations clearly stated that there was to be no relationship between team members, and her own people generally frowned upon formally uncommitted unions. She knew she should be content with what she had but with John carrying on like he had never asked her to be his made her wonder if he had regretted doing so.
Teyla didn't know how to bring it up when they had their meager time alone since she was too preoccupied with making the best of that time.
He would touch her, ask her questions and reveal aspects of his own life that not many knew. His kisses left her breathless and aching while his mere presence made her feel protected, which made his attention to other women that much harder to endure. Her father would scold her for her natural pride. There was no denying the feelings associated with being someone's most trusted and chosen companion.
She found herself responding less and less to his eager boyish smiles when they discovered new allies and Ancient technology, and it stung that he never seemed to notice.
John had never paid her much public appreciation, aside from off handed comments or a simple look of thanks, and doing so now would definitely raise eyebrows. Yet, sometimes she couldn't help wanting more. Teyla had grown used to wanting things and letting them go. She wondered how much longer she would be willing to hang onto to something that she could never claim as entirely her own.