I'm finally released from the hospital. When we arrive home I immediately head to my room to sit on my own bed, and of course, with loads of questions swimming though my mind.

Questions like "How the hell did I end up in a coma?" "Why is it that I dreamt of Yuki and I in a relationship?" And "Why did it end there?" Maybe we really did go all the way I just woke up. Is my mind playing a trick on me? Am I really supposed to still hate Yuki and yet love Tohru? It's got to be a dream, nothing else really makes sense.

Then again, why were we told our memories were erased? Why would they have been wiped out in the first place? Did all of that really happen or was it my sick twisted mind?

But the main question plaguing my mind is.…If all that happened and I just dreamt it again, then does Yuki still love me deep inside?

Even if it didn't happen at all, I've somehow fallen in love with Yuki just through dreams.

That I can't deny.

I swear I'm going insane.

Here's what happening now.

Shigure hates me, but I think I've got that one figured out. (If all my coma dreaming was right that is.) He's mad that Tohru and I are together now…sort of…when before it was Tohru and him together.

That's what I'm thinking. Bad thing is Tohru really acts like she likes me, like she felt that way before. Which would piss me of too if I was Shigure. And I'm sure Akito has forbidden him to love Tohru again; if he knew. I really wish he didn't know about those two. Besides Yuki and I, they really loved each other.

IF my comma dreaming was true, otherwise, I really am insane.

Not that our love made sense to begin with. Two males who hated each other for the longest time and suddenly "Poof!" they're in love?

Yuki also has been…well not himself as much around her. I think (and hope) that he's jealous. He's cruel to me again, that much was expected. And even though it kills me inside, I've decided that I've got to keep picking fights with him. If all of our memories were erased then that means we're supposed to act how we did before. Otherwise I'll loose the memories I still have.

Now that, would kill me so much more than Yuki hating me again. At least having the memories is better than not. If they are in fact, memories and not made up fantasies.

Being loved was the greatest thing that has ever happened to me.

Even if it was all one big hallucination. I can't just give up that easily.

I've never been loved that way…

"Kyo, what do you want for dinner?" Damn, she scared the shit out of me. I sigh and say

"Anything without leeks, you know what? Why don't you ask Shigure?"

She puts on her usual smile and says "Ok!" then she blows a kiss and leaves.

See?!?! It's horrible! She's worse than Kagura…in a non- violent sense. I can see why Shigure would hate me. Even if your memories are erased you can't force someone to love another, which is why he hates it that she so willingly, loves me….I assume.

I just wish Yuki were that way again.

This is way to much for me to handle. I really need to tell someone about my "dream"

Otherwise I'll never figure any of this out. But the only person I want to see or would be willing to work with me would be Yuki. The Yuki that loved me, but I don't know if he ever really existed.

"Cat! Hatori wants you!" Yuki shouts in a angry voice. His voice brings so much pain to my heart. It's nothing compared to the pain I get when he looks at me with

those….horribly beautiful eyes. Those striking eyes, stained with hatred towards one person.

Me.

I walk downstairs to grab the phone, careful not to look him in the face. I can't afford to break my disgusting, angry demeanor now.

"Yes Hatori?" I ask, not letting my voice crack. If something good came out of going to the hospital, it's defiantly my acting skills.

"I'm going to need to see you for a check up tomorrow so could you come over around 12?" I let out a sigh of relief.

"Yeah sure Hatori."

"And Yuki needs to come along too. Tell Shigure I'll get him next week. I won't have time to see him along with you two."

"Alright I'll tell him."

He pauses…

"Kyo do you want to talk? You don't seem yourself lately."

"I just got out of the hospital from being a fucking coma! How the hell am I supposed to be the same!?!?"

"Ok then, remember 12 o` clock."

"Yeah sure." And I hang up.

Yuki POV

As Kyo took the phone I had to race upstairs to my room. No matter what I do seeing Kyo makes me want to tear out my heart, rip my hair, and claw at my chest. It's some sort of awful, unknown, familiar, horrid pain that I can't stand. He's doing it on purpose too.

And that's what really pisses me off.

He deliberately finds me and silently gloats.

He makes me want to stare into his crimson eyes, forces me to dream of him and he commands my heart to race when he's around.

Worst part of all is that I don't know why. Is he still trying to beat me? Is it some new game I'm unaware of? Is he just doing it for fun? What reason could he possibly have for doing this to me!?!?

I finally reach my room, slamming the door shut and sliding down it slowing, head in hands. I take deep breaths in an attempt to slow down my heart and focus. My eyes close just for a second and a face flashes into my mind as it always does.

Why god!?!?! Why am I constantly haunted by the cat?

If only I knew, at least knowing why he plagues my mind every minute of the day will at least set my mind at ease.

Then he comes to my room. The hairs on my neck stand on end, my bones freeze in place and my ears try to shut out his voice, all involuntary.

"Rat! We have to see Hatori tomorrow for a check up at 12!"

He's not actually in my room; he's on the other side of the door, banging with his fists.

I've seen his face so much, it's like he's standing in front of me, anger fueling him. I fight back a sob that threatens to completely break me open. I can't bear to let him win.

I hear him sigh and give up, I should know what those sighs sound like, I've experienced many.

He shuffles away to his room closing the door trying to keep from ruining the silence of the house.

That would be a first.

It's tomorrow…or rather today, so I guess I'd say it's the next day. I don't know I haven't been able to concentrate with Kyo pestering my mind. I wake up half an hour till noon. I'm forced to get dressed to see Hatori. Another day to attempt not to stare at Kyo. I tell myself the reason I stare is to figure out why I can't ever think of anything but him.

When I'm finally downstairs Shigure and Kyo are waiting, I try not to look at the cat and notice every little feature about him but it's difficult.

He has a few strands of hair in front of his right eye. He's staring intently at the carpet where I once had fallen and the edge of a stair scraped my knee leaving a dark brown stain. His hands are in his pockets while one of them has on his bracelet. He digs that hand in deeper attempting to hide it or maybe to forget he even has to wear it. His left sleeve of his red shirt has an inch long string hanging out and lastly, he's got an eyelash near his nose.

Shigure on the other hand has on a serious face, the kind he's had on since Kyo went into a coma…well up until I can remember.

Shigure says something but I don't listen. I can't. I must focus completely if I don't want to look at the orange haired cat.

"Well let's go stupid rat!" The cat yells. Somehow his voice cuts into me like a razor blade.

Before I even know where we are, we've arrived at Hatori's front door. I was concentrating so hard not to even think of the redhead next to me that time completely escaped.

I take a deep breath and knock. Hatori rustles around to get to the door. When it opens I see him, stressed and as tired as ever.

"Kyo, you first. Yuki…Akito wants to talk to you. When your done I'm sure I'll be finished with Kyo so you can just come on in."

Oh no. I feel like this has happened before…

AUTHOR'S NOTE! Well! I hope you like the updated version better. Essentially they're all the same but I'm changing grammar, punctuation, and rearranged and adding stuff. Well review so I know if I'm doing a good job!