I Only Wanted You

by Blazing-Fire-In-His-Eyes

Feliciano was ignored by the one person he loved, and to get his attention, he changes. It really is too bad that he still wasn't noticed. Rated T, because I am cautious.

1. Feliciano's Note

I always wanted you to notice me Ludwig.

You always thought I was some idiotic loser that you just had to put up with. You actually never saw what I was.

I was smart.

I was able to communicate with you and your friends, but all of you ignored my pleas for attention.

I didn't care for what they thought, but it hurt me that you felt the same way.

I become stronger.

I became smarter.

I became a person who would be worthy of your time.

You still ignored me.

Being ignored, it does things to people. I was not my usual cheery self, and I had changed. I was different.

Yet, I was still ignored.

I did everything for you to notice me.

I even killed someone for you Ludwig. It was my brother.

He didn't deserve it, but I, in the spur of the moment, thought that if he looked like me, then you were paying attention to him.

He had a future. He had a boyfriend.

He had friends.

He was everything I wasn't.

I hated it.

Don't you realize I did this for you?

Did you notice?

No.

So, I figured that if you wouldn't have me, then my life wasn't worth living.

Ludwig, I died this morning.

Did you even know who I was?

Did you even see my pain?

Does it hurt?

Does it?

Good, now you know how I felt!

I was ignored.

I was lonely.

Did you ever notice?

No.

Now, as you wallow in the pain of losing me, you will see that I felt like that EVERY SINGLE TIME you talked to someone instead of me.

Can't you tell I did this for you?

Do you think I became that and killed my brother for nothing?

I mean, damn, I killed myself, and that is what it takes for you to notice me?

I love you Ludwig, but you should have been more observant.

This is totally a one-shot. I wanted to do one depressing Fanfiction, so here it is. It will okay I guess. I wanted to do this as a GerIta, so I want your opinion. I don't know if I should finish this or not. SO here it is! It is in Italy's view. He is 1p!Feliciano turning into 2p!Feliciano, and then he killed himself….I am good at making depressing things, aren't I? Should I complete this with Ludwig's side? I really don't know what came over me for this...