Hey guys, I haven't written in several years now so please be gentle. I decided I needed to write out some feelings and what better way to do it then write a story and use some of my favorite book characters as a way to help me write up a good one! Hope you guys enjoy!
Also don't you worry, this is indeed a Bella X Edward story but there had to be some back story to lead up to it! This is an all human story!
Stephanie Meyer owns Twilight!
Roll on Chapter 1!
Jake and I had been together going on five years now, high school sweethearts. I was a freshman and he was a sophomore when we first met. I started high school off in a new town, not a single friend to be had. But Jake from the first day I met him, was nothing but kind to me.
At the time, my parents Charlie and Renee could hardly stand each other anymore and we were starting off in a new town for them to try to 'rekindle their relationship'. Long story short on that end, my parents ended up divorcing my junior year.
But thank god that I had Jacob to help me get through it. When I first met Jake, we were in art class. I would sit there with my headphones in at the end of the long table and mind to my myself as I worked on my project.
Jake sat at the other end of the table with a few of who I assumed were his friends and we only ever made eye contact for the first few weeks of class. A few weeks into the course I completed my first big project. My art teacher Mrs. G asked me up to her desk to talk to her, and here I was scared shitless that she hated my work. However, she asked me if I would be interested in moving up to the other end of the large work table to sit with the advanced art kids, as apparently she thought my work was 'special'.
So here I was, an awkwardly tiny freshman standing at a whopping height of five feet tall, now sitting at the end of the table with roughly six huge upperclassmen. I was small but had definite shape to my body, I had a perfect hourglass shape and a nice ass, but I really was nothing special.
"Bella, right?" One of the tall boys asked as I sat down to my new seat. I nodded and smiled politely, as I went to put my headphones in as I always did.
"I'm Jacob Black" The boy introduced himself with a smile. "Can I see your drawing? Mrs. G seems impressed so it must be good."
I gently slid my large portrait across the table to him and took my earphones out before I even had both of them in.
"Well Bella, I'd say that's pretty damn impressive" He smiled his kind smile at me.
Jacob was beautiful. He probably stood a good six foot tall, had the most beautiful carmel complexion, and had a smile that made me instantly feel butterflies.
I thanked him and took my drawing back from him, continuing on with my newest project.
We didn't talk any more that week. Everyone around me talked and laughed amongst themselves as they all seemed to be friends and I was just a guest in their midst.
"You have to come to this new art club I am starting after school today Bella." Angela, a sweet girl that I got paired up with in Spanish, said with excitement. She was in my art class as well but we had never talked much since I always tried to keep to myself.
"I don't know Angela, I don't know anyone…"
"Well how do you expect to meet anyone if you don't open yourself up and come to my super cool new club?" She chuckled. "Please Bella, it'll be fun."
I knew she was right. I was never going to make any friends if I didn't open myself up.
That day after school, I wandered into the art room to find Angela sitting on one of the tables with several others.
"Everybody this is Bella, she's extremely talented" Angela smiled and announced to her friends as I blushed.
A few of the kids I didn't recognize, but there were a few that I did. One of them to my surprise, was Jacob Black.
Art club ended up being a safe haven for me, and for a lot of us. Many of us had weird home lives and we all just seemed to click. We almost never actually worked on art, more then anything it just became a fun social hour. I was finally making friends and I was starting to feel more at home. Jacob was a jokester I learned pretty quickly, always telling a funny story or trying to make me laugh. After a few months, I was starting to grow a pretty serious crush on him.
Let me tell you, it took me pretty off guard when I learned that Jacob had a girlfriend. Leah was her name, and apparently she went to school on the reservation where he lived. Jacob went there for a while too I guess, before he was kicked out for bad grades. He said he spent too much time on his art and Leah that he neglected his schooling pretty bad, which now ended him up here.
The school year flew by in a blur and before I knew it, we were all getting ready to go on summer vacation. We all went over to Angela's house for a last club meeting of the school year and man did we have a blast. Jacob gave me his phone number, and I gave him mine as we had become fast friends at this point. The first few weeks of summer flew by and I will never forget the feeling that crossed over me as out of the complete blue, my phone lit up with a message from none other then Jake.
He wanted to meet up at our outside art club spot near our high school. Of course I obliged, Jake had become a good friend and I was excited to meet up with him just he and I. That night, we sat outside and chain smoked cigarettes and talked for hours. He about half way through the evening revealed to me that he and Leah had broken up after many years of dating. She had cheated on him. He was absolutely crushed, and I will never forget the pained look on his face as he revealed details to me. I have never been able to understand cheating. It destroys the person who you cheat on, and for what? As far as I am concerned, if you are unhappy, leave. Seems pretty simple to me.
Anyways, Jacob and I over the course of the summer, and into the beginning of the next school year started spending more and more time together. He was everything my little fifteen year old heart desired.
For a good portion of my sophomore year, we had a thing going on I guess you could say. We both liked each other, that much was obvious. But I think both of us were just so afraid to ruin things and jump full throttle into a relationship, potentially risking the friendship we had built. After school almost every day Jake and I would head to his house and go straight up to his room. And I know what everyone was probably thinking, Jake and I had to have been screwing around.. Wrong. We spent every evening laying on his bed watching TV, or simply listening to music and staring into each others eyes having deep conversations all night long. Life was so simple and I was actually feeling a sense of happiness for the first time in years. Jake and I both suffered from pretty bad depression, and for a while there I feared that I was going to lose him to suicide. Things were pretty tough for a while. But we both felt so whole when we were together, and things were finally starting to feel okay.
One night, we had been talking for hours and it was late. He was playing the most beautiful and relaxing playlist showing me some of his favorite songs and I don't recall it happening, but I suddenly was drifting to sleep. All I remember was just feeling so at peace, and safe. I'll never be able to forget that feeling. As I was drifting off, I suddenly felt his lips ever so gently press against mine in such a loving way, I cuddled into him and we both fell asleep. We woke up to my phone ringing, it was my dad wondering where the hell I was. It was late and my dad sounded pissed. My parents only pretended to care when they wanted someone to yell at and take their own unhappiness out on. Jake gave me the biggest hug as I left that night. He knew I was going to have a hell of a time at home.
I will never forget the date, it was May seventeenth. I was now sixteen, my birthday had passed a month prior, and he was seventeen. We walked up to the park just up from my house and laid down on the wood chips looking up at the crazy incoming stormy weather. He asked me officially to be his girlfriend.
Freshly sixteen and seventeen years old and we were in love.
Jacob took up most of my high school years. We were utterly obsessed with each other as most teenagers in relationships are. I started spending more and more time at his house as things officially started crumbling with my parents my Junior year. I even spent a lot of nights over there as my parents didn't seem to question where I was. I went on vacations with his family and things were good.
Jakes family became like my own. He was one of five kids, and he was the second oldest. His older brother Sam struggled with substance abuse, his next brother down Quil was such a sweetheart and just two years younger then me and was obsessed with video games. And then he had a little half brother and sister, Embry and Rachel who were the sweetest little peanuts around. We spent most of the time taking care of those kids as Jakes mom kind of started to do her own thing. His parents had divorced when he was really young. His mom Emily was a major gold digger always going after the next rich man she could find. The last guy she was with who was the dad to the two little ones, was a major piece of shit and was really abusive. We were all glad when she got out of that. His dad Billy on the other hand was a very modest older gentleman in a wheelchair. Jake had a weird relationship with him as his mom always tried to paint a not so pretty picture about him, I felt bad.
By the beginning of my senior year of high school, Jake had already graduated and was mainly staying at home to help out with his little brother and sister. I stayed over at his moms house most nights as my home life was absolute shit. When my mom finally moved out of my dads house and insisted that I come with her, thats when things really went wild. She was out every night drinking, not paying our bills, and there was never any food in our apartment. It was a sad fucking mess to be honest with you. My dad was having his midlife crisis, and a workaholic and I didn't see him for about a year. It was hard working my full time job while still in high school just to make sure my mom and I ate. Jacob on the other hand still did not have a job as he was basically the live in nanny for his siblings.
Life was not how I ever thought it would be by the time I turned eighteen.
Jakes mom ended up for a third time, latching onto another wealthy man and they opened up their own coffee shop in town.
I swear, Emily just wanted to keep her kids all so under her thumb. She gave Jake and his two other brothers jobs there so they would always be around and not leave town or do anything else with their lives but rely on her. That is absolutely what she wanted.
Jake was my everything. My absolute everything at a mere eighteen years old. But things started to feel different.
Emily hired a few other people to work at their shop as well, but absolutely insisted that no girlfriends work there. Which is funny as his older and younger brother both had their girlfriends working there within six months. Things felt off. And let me tell you why.
So, suddenly one day Jake mentioned this new co worker and how cool she was. Her name was Tanya. So, here me being like oh cool I have to meet her, I go down to hang out at the shop and it was just Jake and Tanya working.
Tanya was relatively tall, she has stringy blonde hair, grey blue eyes, and absolutely no shape to her body at all. She was like a bean pole.
So here's the thing, it took me all of about a minute of listening to this girl talk and seeing the way that she looked at my boyfriend, to realize I was not a fan. I could smell her fake bullshit from the first minute of meeting her. But let me tell you, apparently I was the only one. Within the next few months, all anyone could talk about was Tanya and how great she was. Tanya even started calling Emily mom. She all of a sudden was like Emily's new daughter. She started coming to all the family meals and holidays, she had found her perfect meal ticket and she knew it, thats for sure.
She knew I didn't like her, and she knew exactly why. She knew I was onto her.
That June, I graduated high school. Life was going on and Emily had announced she was getting married.. again and she asked me to be a bridesmaid. Guess who else was asked to be a bridesmaid? Yep I can pretty much guarantee you guessed right. Tanya.
Jake moved into his own little apartment that summer and you can imagine that put some kind of distress on our relationship when at that point, we had been talking about getting a place together for several years. He said he wanted us to live on our own to get the experience of it and learn to take care of ourselves. Mind you, at this point I had been taking care of myself for years. Things became tense pretty quickly as well when all of a sudden Jake and Tanya were now hanging out, outside of work. I started showing signs of visible upset whenever Jake would mention Tanya in any conversation, and I couldn't help it.
"You're being ridiculous Bella, you know that Tanya has a boyfriend right? You are being so immature." Jake hissed as he sipped his coffee.
"That's great and all Jacob but I am not stupid. A woman knows when someone has intentions of certain kind with their man. I just have a gross gut feeling about her."
Jacob was quiet for a minute before he quietly said "Bella, I think you should leave." My world shook. This wasn't my Jacob anymore.
And at that, Jacob and I split up. I drove back to my dads house where I had a few weeks prior, permanently moved back in after I had a major blowout with my mom. I couldn't handle the verbal abuse anymore. Thankfully, my dad had gotten his funk out of his system and I had him to fall back on for once. Because after all these years, I could no longer fall back on Jacob.
Jake and I were only apart for about a week before he apologized and we re kindled. That one week though, I did nothing but cry in bed very single day. We are talking open mouth, ugly sobs. My dad was acting like a parent for the first time since I was a small child, and bless his heart, he did everything he could to try and make me feel better. It was just a weird time in my life.
Anyways, Jacob had me come over to his place and I of course took him back. He was my safety blanket for so many years, and I always felt whole again when I was with him.
About a month later, Emily's wedding was upon us. Jacob had made a solid effort to stop hanging out with Tanya without me ever asking him to, which I had to at least appreciate. I was back with my Jacob and life was good.
"This is where you kids will be staying for the weekend" Emily said excitedly as she showed me to the room we would be staying in for the wedding weekend.
Emily was getting married that next day at the most beautiful location I had ever seen. It was a gorgeous, brand new building way up at the very top of a massive hill, overlooking where they normally have ski hills in the winter. The view from up there was magical, there were nothing but massive green trees for as far as the eye could see. And the building was absolutely exquisite. Very Emily. She had become so obsessed with everything being nothing but the best, like she was trying to prove something to herself and everybody else. This was so out of my normal, I felt so out of my element in a place like this.
I had gone out ahead of everyone with Emily to get things set up and ready for the rehearsal dinner we would be having that evening. Emily and I continued back downstairs and went about setting up the tables and placing small white tea lights all around the large foyer, when I heard the massive door open behind me.
Great. Tanya was here. I tried to force a smile to her, however I can't imagine it looked all too convincing.
"Mom this place is amazing!" She shrieked as she flew right in past me and to Emily's side.
As soon as Tanya arrived, the others seemed to all follow behind her. Thank god, Jacob was here.
"Hey" He said sweetly as he bent down to give me a kiss. I felt a sense of relief wash over me instantly.
"Where's your guy at tonight Tanya?" Jakes older brother Sam chimed in. Sam was celebrating a year of sobriety from heroin in a few weeks, and we were all ecstatic that he was back on the straightened arrow finally doing well.
"Oh he should be here tomorrow in the morning before the wedding, he has to work late tonight." Tanya replied.
"I haven't seen the dude since high school" Sam said looking excited.
"You guys knew each other?" I asked. "That's cool."
"Yea we used to get into a lot of trouble together back in the day" He chuckled.
"Small world" I replied. Tanya rolled her eyes.
Later that evening after the rehearsal dinner finished up, we all decided we had better get to bed early as we had to get up early the next morning for hair and makeup before pictures.
Jake, Quil and I went up to our room where Emily had us set up for the evening and before I knew it I could hear Tanya's voice coming down the hallway.
"Looks like I'm rooming with you guys tonight!" Tanya said with a smirk as she walked into our room with her overnight bag in tow.
You had got to be kidding me. It was so brutally awkward between us as we hadn't said a word to each other all evening.
"Great" I mumbled to myself as I headed for the little bathroom attached to our room to retreat for a minute.
"Bells" Jacob called behind me as I went to shut the door behind me, and he slipped in right before I could close it.
"I love you" He said quietly with a weak smile as he walked up to pin me against the counter.
He lifted me up so I was now sitting on the edge of the bathroom counter. He slid between my legs and gently grabbed my face.
"You know that I love you Bells" His voice was now a whisper.
Before I knew it, his mouth was on mine. I felt a sense of urgency in his kiss, he was starting to work himself up.
Just then, there was a knock at the bathroom door.
"Guys, I've gotta take a leak" Quil's voice rang out from the other side of the door.
Jake pulled away from me with a dark look in his eyes. I knew that look. He would have taken me then and there if his brother wouldn't have interrupted us. God I wish he would have.
"Seriously guys stop making out and let me in!"
I hopped down from the counter and walked out with Jake on my heels. The look on Tanya's face was sour as I turned to look at her. Good.
We all got into our pajamas and Jake and I crawled into our bed, as Tanya and Quil got into each of theirs. I was exhausted from the long day and was just ready to be out of this god forsaken room. Suddenly Jake's phone pinged and he picked up off the night stand. He immediately chuckled at whatever message he had just received. Immediately Tanya let out a little laugh of her own and looked over at him from over her phone she was very clearly texting him on. You had got to be kidding me. Were we in middle school? Jake seemed to send her a reply trying not to laugh at what he had just responded to her with. She immediately giggled.
It wasn't a good feeling I will tell you that. To have your boyfriend in bed next to you saying god knows what to another girl who was all of ten feet away from us, giggling to herself. I turned away from them, towards the wall and fell asleep with tears silently running down my face.
The next morning started off way too early for my liking. Group yoga with the girls by sunrise outside on the patio. Which was beautiful, but obnoxious when I had to watch Tanya shamelessly show off for an hour straight like she was the fucking goddess of yoga. After we finished we all had a quick showers, and ate a deliciously fancy breakfast. We got our hair done and went upstairs to finish getting ready.
"I don't know how you do that Bella" Tanya said from behind me as I finished applying my winged eyeliner. "It always looks so perfect on you." Wow. Tanya was actually complimenting me? This was the first thing she had said to me the whole time she has been here. She was right, I could kill a winged eyeliner and I knew it. My inner goddess sparkled.
"Thanks." I replied back forcing a small smile.
Before I knew it we were outside taking pictures. This was exciting, I hope Emily found the right one, he really is a nice guy and I hope she's not just using this one for his money again.
We all stood around holding glasses of drinks of our choice, taking in the beautiful scenery as the time of the wedding drew near.
"Cullen!" Sam shouted standing across from me in our little standing circle.
I turned to look behind me as I could hear someone approaching.
"Babe!" Tanya squealed.
"Hey Cullen, long time no see man!" Sam greeted him as they shook hands. He then walked over to take his place next to Tanya.
"Everybody, this is Edward" Tanya introduced smugly. He smirked and put his hand up as if to wave at all of us.
Tanya went around the circle introducing us all to Edward and she paused as she got to me. "That's Bella" She stated sounding unamused. "And this is Jacob" She informed him as she got to Jake standing next to me.
"Hey man" Edward said to him as he shook Jacob's hand. Their exchange was strange. There was a certain kind of tension in the air.
Edward was almost as tall as Jacob, with a very slender build and broad shoulders. His hair was a unique shade of a mix between auburn and golden brown, and his eyes a striking emerald green. I wasn't the kind of girl to look at other men while I was in a relationship but I would be lying if I said I didn't think he was beautiful.
"Alright kids, it's time to start lining up, everybody get into your places!" Emily yelled to us, pulling me from my thoughts.
The ceremony was beautiful and went off without a hitch.
We flowed into the reception shortly after and it didn't take long before most everybody was intoxicated. Now here's the thing, Jacob was strongly against alcohol. Why you may ask? Jacob in the pit of his depression in early high school turned to drinking. Sam provided it for him and he did nothing for a while but nearly drink himself to death. He recognized he had the beginnings of a problem after a while, and vowed not to drink anymore. I fully supported him in that, which in turn meant I also chose to not drink as I knew how he felt about it and I wanted to respect that.
The alcohol was flowing around us and as the night went on, Jacob seemed to become more and more uncomfortable.
"Let's go out to the camper Bells, I want to be out of this building." Jake said finally as he stood up. Emily's new husband had brought along their camper and parked it in the back yard of the building as there surely wasn't going to be enough sleeping spaces there for all of the obliterated people after the festivities.
Jake and I sauntered out to the camper as pitch dark storm clouds started to roll in around us. There was supposed to be a major storm here tonight, and rain and storms seemed to be weather Jake and I thrived. We were excited for it. We ended up sitting in the camper playing cards and watching the sky turn purple around us for a good hour or so before the camper door swung open.
Sam and his girlfriend, Tanya and Edward all burst into the camper looking like they had an agenda.
"You guys, can we hang out in here for a bit? Mom told us to come out here for the night." Sam slurred with two drinks in his hands.
Jacob groaned and stood up. "Come on Bella."
I followed Jake out of the camper and as we stepped out, it started to sprinkle. By the time we got back to the building, it was damn near pouring rain.
"Let's go Bella, I don't want to be here anymore surrounded by drunken idiots."
The way the building was set up was that you park your car at the way bottom of the ski hills and had to take a shuttle bus down to it as there wasn't room for parking at the top. Jake and I packed up our bags and changed out of our formal clothing and headed downstairs.
"Fuck it, I'm not waiting for the damn shuttle bus. Come on Bella we are walking down, it'll feel good to be in the rain."
Jake was right. I will never forget that ridiculous journey down the brutally muddy hill. It was the most surreal thing I had ever seen in real life weather wise. It was dark out, but the sky was constantly lit up with flashes of lightening and the thunder was absolutely booming. So here we are, walking down from the very highest point of the hill, soaking wet and full of mud. We both laughed our asses off as soon as we got down to our car at the bottom of the hill, and drove home with the craziest sexual tension only to be attended to when we arrived back at his place.
Before I knew it, almost another full year had gone by and Jacob and I had moved in together into a two bedroom unit that opened up in his apartment complex. I also had gone to cosmetology school and graduated a few weeks into living in our new place. Life felt perfect. Things were finally falling into place, and I felt one step closer to the life we had been talking about building together for years.
Our apartment was the first place I had felt finally at home in, since I was a kid. Two bedrooms, two bathrooms, high ceilings, and such cool character. We finally had a place that was ours.
I worked fifty hours a week at my salon job, and Jacob was still working at the coffee shop. I worked every day, nine a.m until seven thirty, and Jake worked five a.m to noon. We were both busy and pretty quickly had to adjust our schedules so that we could at least have our two days off together as we weren't hardly able to spend time together during the week.
Jakes phone pinged as we sat down to eat dinner together and he took a quick glance.
"Tanya is wondering if we want to go to her and Edward's place tomorrow night for dinner and a movie" Jake said taking a bite of his food.
Tanya was starting to come around more and more again, and Jake desperately wanted her and I to be friends. They were back to constantly texting and hanging out and it gave me a tight feeling in my chest. Jacob would never cheat on me… His ex had cheated on him and he knew how awful that felt. I couldn't imagine him ever wanting to inflict that kind of pain on anyone, and especially not on me. Jacob said Tanya and his best friend Paul had really hit it off as well, as Paul was now working with them at the coffee shop. The three of them supposedly were calling themselves the three musketeers and were always together. I still didn't like her, and I liked it even less that Jake and her had started hanging out again, even if most of the time Paul supposedly was there. I knew I shouldn't be jealous, but god dammit I was. I worked so damn much and she was spending more time with my boyfriend then I was.
"Edward wants to cook us dinner" He continued with food in his mouth.
"Sureeeee" I said trying not to sound too unamused.
"Edward seems like kind of a dick" Jacob said as he shoveled in another bite.
"Haven't you only met the guy the one time I did?" I questioned him.
"Yea but I don't know, I just don't like the guy. Seems like a douche."
I rolled my eyes and continued quietly with my dinner.
"I'll let T know we are coming" He continued.
T Huh? Ugh, I hated it.
Next thing I know, we were knocking at Tanya's front door.
"Hey there" Tanya answered the door, clearly only really acknowledging Jacob.
God help me I already want to leave.
She walked us up the apartment stairs and into her second floor apartment.
"Hey guys, welcome" Edward greeted us from the kitchen as we walked in.
The small apartment smelled amazing, I was immediately drawn to the stove to see what he was making.
"Homemade tortellini, I hope you like pasta." Edward said to me with a smile.
"Looks and smells amazing, I could live off of pasta I swear so yes this is perfect" I smiled back.
"Can I get you guys anything to drink?" He offered as we turned around to find that Tanya and Jake had already migrated to the other room.
Edward and I in that moment turned back to each other to make the most intense eye contact I have ever experienced in my life. It was like we both in that moment knew exactly what each other were thinking. We both didn't like each other's spouses. We both didn't feel right about things between Jacob and Tanya. I weakly forced a smile and looked down from his gaze.
"I'd love some water, just show me to the glasses and I can grab it." I said quickly, trying to brush the hurt feelings I knew we were both feeling, under the rug.
"Oh no, here I'll get some for you" He said as he snapped out of it as well.
"Can I help you with anything?" I offered as he got me some ice water.
"Nah I think I've got it all set and ready for us if you guys are hungry." He said smoothly as he handed me the glass with a kind smile.
We sat in the living room and ate as we watched some terrible movie that Tanya had picked out. Jacob and Tanya talked basically through the entire movie, and only a few times did they really even give Edward or I an opportunity to join in the discussion. I kept my head turned to the TV screen for the most part, not actually really watching it, just in my own mind thinking. I would occasionally look up and find Edward looking right at me. The look in his eyes seemed to reflect yet again, the exact thoughts I was having.
I obviously didn't know Edward, this was only my second time meeting him. But I definitely didn't get the douche vibes that Jacob had been referring to when talking about him before. He seemed like a genuinely nice guy, very well mannered, and pretty quiet.
"Thank you for the delicious meal Edward, you have a serious future in the culinary industry." I had earlier discovered that he was currently in culinary school and working in a kitchen full time for a job as well.
"Thank you Bella, I really appreciate that" He smiled as I helped him clean up our dishes.
Jacob and Tanya were still in the living room laughing about something.
"So they've been hanging out a lot with some other friend they work with, Tanya tells me?" Edward started.
"Yea that's Jake's best friend Paul, they've been friends since elementary school. I guess Emily gave Paul a job at the shop as well. Apparently they all hit it off and are now some kind of power trio"
Edward quietly laughed to himself, or was it more of a scoff? Either was acceptable really.
Tanya and Jacob appeared from the other room then and Edward and I went quiet.
We said our goodbyes and thank you's, and the guys exchanged an awkward hand shake and a nod. The last thing I saw as I turned to close the door behind me was Edwards face. That same look in his eyes that had gripped me before. We both knew.
Alright guys the story is about to take a serious turn so buckle up, excitement is coming!
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Xx, M