I love it to watch them. I never realized before how cute he looks when he has a child in his arms. I saw him often with Honor's son play and cuddle but it is nothing compared to this. When he has her on his arms it is like my heart is going to melt. He looks at our daughter like he used to look at me. All that love in his eyes and the smile on his face. It is pure happiness.
In moments like this I realize that he will never again look at me like this. It will always be just a memory of the good times we had.
Now they are over. I don't say that I'm not happy, I wanted it like this. But sometimes I feel lonely, sometimes I need somebody around, and in five minutes they will be gone and I will be alone in this big house again. All by myself without anybody.
I go around the corner from my place and into the living room.
"Hey!" I say as I enter the living room.
"Hey Rory!" Logan answers. It still sounds weird when he calls me Rory, but I will get used to it. He hasn't called me Ace in three years but it still is unfamiliar if he calls me Rory.
"I used my key because nobody opened the door when I rang. Is that ok?" He says and sets her down.
"Sure. You can come in whenever you want." I answer with a smile. It's strange that we talk about things like this. We have a child together, we used to love each other, but nowadays we act like strangers. I don't like it, but that's how I wanted it. I wanted distance and he gave me what I wanted.
"Hey sweetie, do you have all your things?" I ask our daughter. She smiles at me while holding her daddys hand.
"Yes, mommy! I just need my coat!" she answers me.
She is the best thing that happened in my life. In the past I used to think that Logan was the best thing in my life but now he is no longer really in it. And my little princess has my heart totally.
I go to the closet and take out her coat. Logan and Alexandria following me.
"Here Ally!" I say and help her to slip into her tiny coat.
We always call her Ally. Her full name is Lorelai Alexandria Huntzberger but we called her Ally even before she was born.
"Thanks mommy!" she says.
"I'll bring her back on Sunday around seven, ok?" Logan asks and takes Ally's bag.
"Yeah, sure. I will be here." I answer. The imagination of a full weekend without my little girl drives me crazy. But we do this often and I found ways to keep myself busy and not think to much about the loneliness.
"Say bye to mummy!" Logan says. Ally runs into my waiting arms and hugs me.
"I love you mommy!" she whispers.
"I love you to!" I answer.
She goes back to Logan and he takes her tiny little hand into his. "Bye Ror!" he says before leaving.
"Bye Logan!" I answer while standing in the door frame and waving back at Ally.
After Logan and Ally drove away I close the door and go back inside my now empty house. I wander around the empty rooms only to feel lost and lonely like I used to feel since he's gone.
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