Maybe Before...
Maybe, maybe he wanted you to accept him
Maybe, he was afraid that you wouldn't
And maybe, just maybe, he was worriedthat the father he admired so much would turn away from him just as he'd done before to the mother, his wife, years ago
Maybe he wanted to be accepted
Maybe he wanted to be loved
Maybe he missed having a family
Maybe he couldn'tlove his father
Maybe all he could do was hate and resent the man who had left him all alone
Maybe he was angry at his father for abandoning his family
Maybe he was a afraid to grow close to someone who could leave him again
Maybe he didn't know how to love someone he had once hated
Maybe he didn't know what to make of his father suddenly returning
Maybe he was afraid he'd wake up alone, without his family, having to feel that loss, alone,again
Maybe he was lost in his own memories of painand fear
Maybe he didn't understand his father's feelings well enough
Maybe he didn't give his father a chance
Maybe he...
Maybe he was still a naive child
Maybe he was just a stupid ungrateful person who couldn't appreciate the gift of finding family after losing all that he loved
Maybe he regrets his past decisions
Maybe he wants to try again, but he doesn't know how
Maybe he's unsure of what to do
Maybe he is still a child
An afraid, lonely, lost child looking for someone to take his hand and lead him home again.
Maybe he was the cruel one
Maybe he should've given his father a chance
Maybe he was wrong
Maybe he didn't see things for what they were
Maybe he should rethink his decisions
And maybe, maybe he wants to...
Maybe he wants to be himself
Maybe he wants his father's approval
Maybe he wants to be told he can be different
That, he doesn't have to be his father's shadow
That, he can be his own person
And maybe, just maybe he wasn't too different from his father
Maybe they had the same feeling about the scars they'd inflicted on themselves
Maybe they were both lost and in need of a savior
Maybe that savior was acceptance and forgivingness...