Birth
Bella's P.O.V.
Lonely or Alone?, I've always thought I knew the meaning of those words, maybe not. I felt lonely and that was different from being alone. You can feel lonely surrounded by a crowd of friends but... you're alone when there's no one around to keep you company. You can be lonely and not alone or alone and not lonely so there's a difference.
Was I really alone or Am I just lonely?.
Edward left me, in the middle of the woods, destroyed. The worst thing it's that I can't even blame him, don't misunderstand me it's not like that stops me from being mad at them I am mad at them.
Because What kind of person does that?, what kind of guy left someone he just slept with after his brother tries to -lacking of better word.- drink her? Apparently, Edward Cullen... and the worst or maybe the best thing is that... I -Bella Swan- am now pregnant. Yes, I'm expecting his child.
Edward's.
His name hurts
It's just a thought but it hurts so much, it physically pains me to remember him. There are no words to describe the way I feel... Or maybe that's not the problem; the problem is that there are too many words.
It's not only me now, I think it is like I loose and gain hope at the same time, Does that makes sense to you? I mean, I'm a mother now and in part that was what really helped me see who my real friends were; Angela, Jacob, the rest of the pack, well not the wolf pack 'cause they tried to make me abort so maybe not the pack... And Charlie, good old Dad always doing what's right, he never even mentioned an abortion. I must admit I thought he was going to kill someone when I told him, probably he was trying to think of ways to find and kill Edward.
Don't misunderstand I gave it a lot of thought but what can I do, they are vampires and if they don't want me to find them I won't be able to.
First I thought of ways to find them, but they left, why would they comeback just for me? Plus I'm not that type of person I wouldn't force them into this kind of obligation.
"Bella?" I heard a husky voice coming from outside my window, Jacob maybe? "Bella?"
Something knocked on my window; I turned and saw where it had made the impact leaving a long scratch.
"Yes Jacob. I'm here." I sighed exhausted. When was the last time I had a good night of sleep? "I can barely move, where would I be?"
I saw his figure emerge from my window as shirtless and bare foot as usual. "You could've just said 'How are you, Jacob? What brings you here?' lucky you I'm in a goof mood."
"You know you'll have to pay for the window. Don't you, Jacob?"
Jacob, his name brought a smile on my face, even if I know now, because I know maybe more than I should know or I want to know. It's hard to deny that affects me, at this point is annoying.
Everything anoyes me, making mad and irrational but I been trying to hide it. I'm not good at hiding things, I can't lie but that still I have to... maybe; I've always been a fake liar, to certain point at least. Lying, never hurting other ones feeling.
Oh, well that didn't sound depressing at all.
I felt something coming from my mouth.
Ugh…
Nausea again, this feeling keeps coming, I should see a doctor, but how can I explain that my ex vampire-boyfriend left me pregnant with a hybrid? Simple, you can't.
"Sick again?" He asked climbing through my window.
"Again? You mean still..." My whole body was in pain, all the time, everywhere. I can't handle it anymore. "And it's not sickness. I'm not sick; it is normal to feel this way when you are pregnant." I turned so I could be in front of Jacob; he was staring at my floor probably thinking on something else. Why does he asks me things he doesn't want to know?
'Because he cares' said that stupid voice placed at the back of my head. Well he has a funny way of showing it.
"What are you thinking?"
"Nothing" He looked at me softly and almost pitiful. "How's your father doing? He wasn't too happy the last time checked, but I don't blame him it's hard enough see you drinking... Blood" He made a scowl. I've found a couple of days after I found out of my current state that blood made me stronger.
I chuckled. "It tastes better than you might think, blood clams my thirst." I tried to explain, but as usual he chose to disregard my remark.
"It's not too late Bella, that monster inside of-"
I made a reproving noise scowling at him. "If you are going to play nice towards me and then insult my baby you can go. I can't deal with this right now." I pointed at my stomach so he could get the idea."We talked about this when you confess me about the werewolf thing so shut up or leave.
He nodded ignoring the last part. "How are we going to know when... It'll happen?" He shifted form his spot against the wall.
"And you're asking me? I don't now how this is even possible." He made a scowl and I hold back my laughter but unexpectedly there was pain again. I tried hiding a whimper when I feel a kick inside of me. Jacob noticed rushing to my side on bed; he held my hand, caressing it softly.
That's why I love him, because after all he is my Jacob.
"Too much. I can not handle it. I just can't understand how and why?" It is too much and it's too hard, how am I going to deal with a family? "Finally it's too much for me. The baby is so strong and sometimes I think is going to break through my skin and get out." He flinched concerned and looked at my stomach disgusted and started shaking.
I paled realizing that he could phase. "Calm down. Try to breathe in and out."
We waited for a couple of minutes until he stopped.
"I guess because he's a leech and you're human" He mentioned out of the blue.
"What?"
"You asked why is that thing growing so fast and why is so strong" He put a hand on my belly "This wasn't suppose to happen, like I said he is a vampire and you're human. I don't know how but..." He said confuse, c'mon Jacob you are a wolf! At this point you shouldn't get surprised by this type of things, right?
I felt the cold breeze against my skin from the open and now broken window "Maybe I'm ready... this baby is ready. He or she'd suck all blood from me and break all the ribs I have, the good thing is that we figured I needed to drink blood before it was too late." I try joking but obviously failing. So much for lightening the mood.
"Bella--" He was about to object but I intervened.
"I can't leave this bed anymore! What proof do you need? I'm ready to have them..." He looked at me for a minute, I must look really sick otherwise he wouldn't even let the words come out of my mouth.
"Do you think they are more than one?" Is he really asking that?
"Look at me, Jake! I'm pretty sure is more than one."
"Well you are enormous" he teased smirking down at me. "I'll talk to Charlie... Get everything you need."
A slight smile spread on my lips. "You'll help me?"
"I might not want this things but if you are having them the least thing we can do is have them under our supervision" He said referring to the wolfs, this hole pack plural confuses me.
"Stop calling my babies 'things'! Or once they get out I'll kick your butt down to La Push" He rolled his eyes and grinned, I was serious! stupid wolf.
He mumbled something that sounded like 'babies don't suck blood out of their mommies' but then again I couldn't be sure and resisted the urge to throw a pillow at his head and make a fool out of me if he hadn't said anything.
"I have everything I need on that backpack." I pointed at the blue one next to the closet.
"You think you can walk?"
I felt something break inside of me and couldn't suppress the pain. I shook my head, I'm carrying a baby vamp, what does he think?! Suddenly I feel the urge to strangle him right there and then.
I let out a No that sounded more like and Awh or Oww than anything.
He put me in his warm arms, like I wasn't heavy at all, and lifted me from bed and jump off the window, yeah for him probably I wasn't heavy, I guess having a super strong friend isn't that bad in this types of situations, Still he annoys the hell out of me.
After a pretty long 28 seconds Charlie woke up from my screams, Jacob quickly explained that he would be following us, immediately in the moment we cross the border to La Push, I felt the contraction hit me hard, Charlie took my hand in his and I saw through the window a big wolf running close to the car.
"We are close, Bella. Hold a little bit more" I nodded at Charlie heavily breathing, trying my hardest not to fall sleep and then another contraction hit again harder than the other one. I almost scream, but instead I hold Charlie's hand.
He's saying that because he is not the one that is going into labor...
"It-t h-urts, Dad-d" I said having more and more contractions.
"Maybe we should take her to the hospital" Charlie said knowing that Jacob could and would hear him.
"N-no- Ooh!" I screamed out of pure pain "The-y won't- und-ers-tand" He looked like he was gonna throw up right then and there. "Hurry, it'll be fine"
I knew this was the only way to be sure the babies would be fine even if at the same time it was a thread to their safety. It was kind of funny how easily this mortal enemies thing work, I knew that they didn't agree with me having Edward's babies and then again I'm here in my way to Sam's feeling one of the worst feelings in my life when a couple of minutes ago I was having a totally bearable pain, great. Obviously I knew they were planning to kill them but I've always trusted in Jacob's loyalty to me.
"We're here, honey" I heard Charlie before everything went black. What?! Did I just faint?
'You need to be strong for us' A boy called from the darkness, it was a singing voice, clear and manly, still it was a kids voice.
'We can't do this without you' A girl said sadly, it was as beautiful as the boy but more rushed almost scared.
'Wake up' One more calm and firm baby boy told me waking me up from my dream
'We need you' and with that my eyes flew open.
I wake up in a large bed being surrounded by a big group of hysterical people, screaming, fighting; I couldn't even process their words.
"Bella, please, if you hear me push; we can't do this ourselves" A calm and sweet female voice told me in discord with the paranoid ones in the back and I obeyed, I pushed, feeling myself breaking inside out and slightly burned.
"You are doing great, Bells." I felt a warm hand holding my head carefully while something hot got out from me. "Else the babies could break trough your skin to get out."
Someone groaned in the background.
"I see the first one, push a little more, now!" I did it, once, twice and then I've heard a cried. "Your baby, it's a boy, Isabella" A boy? I open my eyes to see curls, dark bronze curls, they reminded my of dad's curls...
"Char--les, the- baby, is calle-d Charles--" I whispered knowing that if there was any wolf they would here me. "Baby.."
"We are not done yet, here comes another one" I wasn't sure if it was Emily or Kim I just felt surprise and push, my baby? My mini Edward... I felt the pain and push as hard as I could "There are two more babies, Isabella Marie Swan. Don't you dare to-- Don't give up. Come on, honey" the soft voice became firm and I push hearing another cry this one was by far calmer than the other one, I was tired and this time I couldn't open my eyes.
"Anthony" I tried to reach my babies but I was far distant in my pain.
I felt strong and warm hands around my shoulders. "I can see the last one, Bells, push one more time and that's it" I Pushed feeling the strength leaving "Come on, Bella, the next time think twice before having three kids" And with the last and more potent cried I heard everyone gasped for a few seconds and then the blackness came again.
I gained consciousness when I heard someone yelling on the distance.
"Oh my God, have you just--? On the baby, Jacob?" the feminine and soft voice said confused and concerned.
"Jacob, no! it's a vampire..." some yelled making the babies cry again.
"Renesme..." I call for the girl letting the darkness take the pain away. "Edward... I had- our ba-bies-, I'-m done"
"Jacob, he imprinted on her" Someone said, ignore it taking it as an hallucination.
And then I understood how people traded their live for their kids or how they cherish their families, it's not only because of the love that brings them together is because they need them, a newborn need its mom to feed them, and a Mother needs the feeling of being complete, because a kids and a family means serenity, peace . A family it's a whole. And I felt that way, I needed my babies not just because they were mine or they were Edward's, it wasn't about the love I felt for them, even if is more than the love I have for myself or anyone else, it's because in a selfish kind of way they make you feel complete and satisfied and they are as part of you as your own heart is, they're not a legacy, they are everything, your air and water you need them to survive... And I didn't need their father anymore I just needed them. My babies, Anthony, Charlie and Renesme.
Two Months Later.
We were in Emily's back yard, I saw Jacob playing with Renesme on his lap meanwhile Anthony and Chuck 'chased' Sam, who obviously let them catch him.
"Bella? I'm sorry we're keeping you here... but the kids they're... They powers are, well you know." I turned to see Emily's bright smile, quite deformed from the scars line, she was beautiful even with them. "Have you figured out their powers?" I nodded, I've been killing myself over these months trying to understand what they can and can't do.
"Not exactly but only time will tell how can they develop those abilities" I looked around to the almost one year looking kids "For example, when Renesme touches you she passes on her thoughts, images and what's in her mind at the moment. She can't influence you with her thoughts but it something like telepathy"
"What about, Charles? I can't exactly understand what he does... It's kind of--"
"I think is the opposite to Nessie's power, When she can create or put things in your head he can take them he can absorb them. What he could explain me it's that he doesn't read other people's mind because and it's more like taking you memories, attitude and, yes, thoughts away from you, almost erasing them. I made some research it's called Anmepathy" I frowned at the sight in front of me; Chuck looked at Sam who was still with Anthony behind him. "Anthony! Come with Mommy..." I called after him and came obedient.
"I think, Anthony is more--" Emily didn't finish her sentence not knowing what to say. I think she was scared of the kid's powers. "It's an strange ability you have little bunny" She said once he reached us and sit on my lap.
"He has mind control, I find out a couple of weeks ago, I was unsure of Sam's response to this so I talked to Anthony and explain him the consequences that using his power might bring."
"It's a risk but they are kids not monsters." I insisted.
"They know it's not usual, Bella. That's why they don't use them" Emily replied. "They're really intelligent."
"Yes, I'm lucky to have such a smart kids"
Emily nodded excited "I can't wait to have a family on my own…" I saw her sighed and followed her gaze in Sam's direction. "Little kids running around the house."
"You'll be a great mother, Emily" I felt her warm and soft hand holding my shoulder.
She blushed probably thinking of Sam "Thank you" she nodded grinning at me.
Four Years Later.
I sluggishly opened my eyes to see the soft morning light flooding through my window, today was my 22th birthday.
I got up to the bathroom feeling dizzy. I tried to reach for the bathroom chair and rested my head on my hands as a cold breeze covered my body. "Take a deep breath" I told myself standing up, I took my pills out of drawer and watched my reflection on the mirror purple circles under my eyes made clear my lack of sleep.
Finishing my morning routine I went downstairs and followed the long hall, once I entered the kitchen I saw Charles reading some new book on the couch, he looked at me smiling softly and nodded giving me my quiet 'happy birthday', I smiled back and left the living room to pick up the new paper on the porch.
They all developed different personalities, complex and enigmatic as they were. Anthony is a lot darker than his brother and sister, always with a sarcastic remark. Anthony keeps to himself and most of the time he doesn't interact with others because he understood a persons mentality better than the person it self. He knew the dangers of their thoughts. He doesn't need to touch you to erase or see the thought or memory, something that has to do with his perception even though he can't hear thoughts the same way Edward could. Anthony compares it to be in a library; he can open a book and read it or take a page out of it, either way he has the knowledge with him.
Then there is Renesme, quiet, innocent, unpredictable sometimes; though there is an air of wisdom on her every move. She stills needs to touch the person to send the image to you, I know she aims for the contact, the interaction allows her to be in more focus and direct the illusion or thought. Her talent evolved too though, now she can create something bigger than a word or simple image, she makes worlds of imagination that keep you trap in what you think is reality. She unlike her brother is very curious of things, my past specially… something I made clear is that their father didn't knew about them and they are free to try and find him if they want.
But Chuck on the other hand, it's mature, shy and calm the balance for the other two. More outspoken, intuitive and sensitive than his siblings, he doesn't take sides, always thinking before acting. He can control everything with a brain, he almost never use it so it's still not really clear for us to understand how it works, I know it's similar to possession, without leaving you own body, he can also do it with more than one person at the time. Thanks to his skills he has grown up sooner than Renesme or Anthony, he is more on control, Charles needed to be more controlled.
"You're up" a soft and sweet voice called me from behind my back. I turned seeing Renesme. She grabbed Jacob's hand blushing "Happy Birthday, Mom!" Renesme congratulated through my mind hugging me tightly.
I gave her a melancholic smile, as much as I wanted to have a happy birthday I knew deep inside that wasn't possible.
Just when I had a real reason to be happy.
I was never really scared of the death itself until I met Edward and then had the kids. It wasn't an irrational fear; I had all the right to be scare, but it was more of the future after my death what scared me.
"Thanks, Honey" I waved at Jacob cautiously not to comfortable with the way Renesme was looking at him. I couldn't blame her, she was starting to develop feelings for Jacob and feelings he wasn't aloud to have and didn't return. She was his best friend but not his lover. She suffered for that but with time friendship would grow into passion and intensity would form other type of relationship.
He tried ignoring my half-hearted glare grinning at me "Happy Birthday, Bella"
"Thanks, Jacob."
Renesme cleared her throat "there's something he needs to tell you. Victoria." She excused herself with a gesture and walked away gracefully as a ballerina.
I waited until Nessie disappeared inside the house to ask Jacob what she meant "Any news?" He looked at me confused, I rolled my eyes. "About Victoria, Jacob, news about her"
He shook his head. "No, we've been careful. The last trail was maybe 8 months ago." Eight months ago? A memory crossed my mind.
"Wasn't that the last time... you...?" I looked at him confused.
"Yes, it was around the time we picked the Cullen's scent in Port Angeles." He answered above a whispered for the kids not to hear, they new everything they needed to know about the Cullens family. "How did you know about it?"
"Anthony said something about a vampires scent; I got scared that they were the Volturi or Victoria again so I asked Jared."
"I didn't want to bring that up so I played oblivious." He smirked. I lowered my head feeling an uncomfortable sensation against my temples.
"Bella, are you okay?" He softly muttered trying to keep unwanted attention away. I nodded slowly so I wouldn't be hurting myself more. "Is there something wrong? And please don't lie to me."
"You have to keep it a secret, please."
"You know I can't keep secrets from pack, Bells"
"Not from them, from my kids." I whispered. "It's really important for me to know the won't find out from you, Jacob. I need time to think of a way to let them know." I gulped. "I have cancer."
A/N: I took me nearly two months to have the courage to put this... It's nearly 2:00 am. here so I'm almost asleep on my computer. The Link Of The Trailer it's on my profile if you want to wacth it.