Winning At A Losing Game

I don't own Victorious and the song.

So yea this is a little something. Other stories I'm working on them.

Warning: Not fuffy

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I sigh sadly has I walk into my bedroom wiping away more tears. I can't seem to stop them. They just keep coming. I keep trying to erase all the images of her and all the things we said to each other.

I broke down in my biology class. I was trying to work but the tears kept getting in the way. I was sent to Lane's office and we talked but it didn't do any good cause I didn't tell him the full truth.

I couldn't. I'll feel embarrassed that I told him I'm in love with my best friend and I told her today and she doesn't feel the same. At the time I felt embarrassed but now the thought of her kissing her boyfriend, telling him she loves him, thinking about how she doesn't love me the way I love her hurts like a bitch.

I smack a picture of us off my computer stand and I break down. I slap my hand over my mouth covering up the sobs has I break down to the floor crying my eyes out.

I can't take it. I can't take it.

I repeat that over and over again in my head has my body continues to get rocked with sobs hearing my own heart break more. I cry harder as I keep rereading her text message over and over in my head.

I'm sorry I really do love you. I'm sorry that it's just one sided but we aren't meant to be—Jade

I hate myself. It's my own fault. I know I shouldn't have fallen for her. Not because Jade is Jade. But Because Jade and I became best friends, and she showed me sides I've never seen. She acted like she liked me. Like she liked me the way I liked her. I liked her more then a friend. I love her and it hurts so much to know she doesn't feel the same.

I finally get myself together. I stand up on wobbly legs still feeling stray tears run down my face. I lay down on my bed with my "Pear Pod" and put my ear buds in turning it on. Right away 'Rascal Flatts, Winner At A Losing Game' comes on and I break down again, this time reality hits me ten times harder.

Baby look here at me

Have you ever seen me this way?

I've been fumbling for words

Through the tears and the hurt and the pain

I'm going to lay it all out on the line tonight

And I think its time to tell this uphill fight goodbye

The tears are unstoppable now so I just stop trying.

Have you ever had to love someone that just don't feel the same?

Trying to make somebody care for you the way I do, is like trying to catch the rain.

And if love is really for ever

I'm a winner at a losing game.

I know I shouldn't be listening to this song but I can't make myself change it. All the words are true making it hurt even more.

I cover my mouth again as I sob loudly into my hand still listening to the song.

I know that baby you tried to find somewhere inside of you.

But you know you can't lie girl

You can't hide the truth

Sometimes two hearts can't dance to the same beat.

So I'll pack up my things and I'll take what remains of me.

I roll over onto my stomach sobbing into my pillow has that one verse hits me like a bullet. Its not much left of me.

Please someone make it stop. Please I can't take the pain.

The hook comes again and I listen to it. I'm the biggest Winner at this game and I hate it.

I know I'll never be the man that you need or love

Yeah it's killing me to stand here and see I'm not what you've been dreaming of.

Everything seems to go quiet. Even the sound of my heart breaking. I listen to the hook one more time before the song goes off and I silently cry myself to sleep feeling all the pain slip away knowing its not going to last long but I'm gonna savour every last moment off it before I wake up again feeling all the pain and being a…

Winner at a losing game.

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