Disclaimer: I own no part of Xena, or Solan, or any other person for that matter.
Dedication: This is written for the two people responsible for my watching Xena, the first of them also betaed this, and the second is the person I watched this episode with. Thank you to both of them.
Enjoy. :)
I noticed you immediately: it's what I'm trained for… but I didn't see you straight away. I only saw you once I knew your name.
Solan: the son I'd left behind to protect.
Part of me still doesn't know whether I was trying to protect you… or myself. I thought my decision, then, would be best for both of us. I regret it constantly, when I have the selfish wish to have known you better.
When I saw you again, that boy hell-bent on my murder, the first thing I noticed was not your face, so like your father's, but your eyes: bright and piercing, like mine.
I saw those eyes the first time I looked at your face, screaming your welcome to the world. I knew then that you would grow up to be like me if I didn't give you up, with a head full of revenge and a heart full of hatred. I couldn't let that happen.
As I walk away now, I am uncertain if you'll ever know either what I am or how much I love you.
But I do know that I love you enough to say goodbye again. Just as I knew then.
Thank you for reading. :)