A/N: This is my first chapter on this story tell me how you like it

Disclaimer: I don't own law and order svu dick wolf does

Olivia Cragen, a 23-year-old brown-haired, brown-eyed, athletic built Bombshell,who never had much luck with the men; she always managed to pick the losers. They were either slobs, obsessive , abusive or just after one thing. Ever since Olivia was a little girl she had dreamed of falling in love, getting married and having kids with a man whom loved her with every fiber of himself and whom she loved back just the same. When you grow up without a mother, dreams like this are somewhat fairy tales and somewhat something of a necessity . Also watching to many chick flicks are probably to blame as well, but after careful thought and consideration she had come to realize that her time was running out to have kids and the ideal/perfect man probably never existed except in such chick flicks.

She had booked a day off work and Was now sat in the office of Dr Michael White a fertility specialist. It wasn't the first time she had been here, no this was the appointment that things were going to happen. She had spent many months thinking, planning, doubting and sorting out her feelings; she had come to the conclusion that she still wanted kids and if her dad could bring her up on his own then she could do a good job too. It helped that her dad was supportive of her decision after she'd told him her feelings.

"Good morning Olivia" said Dr White. "are we all set to go "

"Yes doctor" said the nurse who was attending to Olivia

"ready as ill ever be" said Olivia as she laid on the hard white bed with her legs up in stirrups feeling somewhat exposed, with only a gown on that covered her top half and left her nether region wide open to anyone that happened to come into the room.

"Well let's do this then" said the doctor as he rounded the bed with a syringe in hand. Olivia lay staring up at the ceiling biting her bottom lip while she waited for the doctor to finish whatever it was that he was doing down there.

"Right" said Dr White "all done, now just rest for 20 minutes and then you can go home and I shall see you in a few weeks"

"Thank you Dr" said Olivia as she laid there glad that a blanket now covered her and stopped the draft that was wafting around her nether regions.

As the doctor left he set an egg timer which counted down 20 minutes. As she laid there thoughts consumed her mind, thoughts of whether it would be a boy or girl, what it would look like, what color hair and eyes. She thought of how much she would love this baby and never leave it. She had chosen to have this baby and she was gonna make sure that she did everything in her power to show it that it was one of the best choices she had made. It didn't matter that the father was not known,that he was a donor, all that mattered was it was loved, and that she could do. Work was OK, it paid the bills and she wasn't on her feet a lot, secretary's mostly sat at computers typing away and answering calls. She could support herself and a baby WHEN there was one.

Before she knew it the 20 minutes were up and she slowly got up so as not to get a head rush. She got dressed and walked out of the doctor's office with an appointment to come back in 5 weeks , a specimen bottle, vitamins and a big smile on her face.

5 weeks later Olivia found herself back at Dr White's office, she'd had to pee in a bottle this morning and bring it with her to be tested, so here she sat now eagerly awaiting the results. 10 minutes later Dr White walked into his office with a smile on his face and a "congratulations, your pregnant" on his lips. Olivia had had a feeling that she was pregnant, she just had a gut feeling that she was indeed carrying a new life and now that the doctor had confirmed it , it also explained the tenderness of her breasts. The way her heart swelled with joy and love was indescribable, it was like no feeling she had ever felt.

"Thank you Dr" she said with a huge smile on her face.

Dr White gave her a prescription for some more vitamins and another appointment to come back in 8 weeks. So Olivia left the Dr's office with a spring in her step and a heart full of love.

Olivia attended her appointments every few months after that and was very grateful that both her and the baby were healthy and she never had any problems. Work was good , she was busy but not overly rushed, she was grateful she wasn't always on her feet. At one of her later appointments she had found out that she was having a boy and since then she had bought everything with the color blue in it. A black push-chair with blue decals on it,a blue baby blanket that was the softest she'd ever felt; she'd even painted the spare room of her apartment a light shade of blue at the bottom and the top part white with a border in the middle, even the wardrobe and draws had blue colored fronts.

She had become so accustomed to this bulge that was protruding from her front, that the thought of it not being there was weird, it came in handy for those evenings when a film and a hot chocolate were on the agenda because she couldn't sleep, it was the perfect little table. The fluttering and the kicks that he would do whenever she would talk to him, and the times when he would just decide to lay across her bladder when there were no toilets around were also things she would miss, she never once cursed at them times, or the times he would stick his arms or legs in her ribcage and somersault in the confined space that was her womb, it was something she cherished, they were moments that only mother and baby would ever feel. She found herself keeping a diary of her pregnancy, the first kicks, the first toilet dash, her scan pictures, and everything else that was her pregnancy.

She had her baby bag packed now and was more than ready for him to come into the world. Time had flown by and she was now 39 weeks gone. She had managed to work up until quite late in her pregnancy and was now on maternity leave. She felt like a balloon, yet she hadn't put much weight on and so from the back you couldn't tell that she was even pregnant. She had gotten most of the things that people needed when they were having a baby and more, some would say that she had gone way over board,but she had to make sure that everything was just right.

As she sat on the recliner one evening, she felt damp, her jogging bottoms had become wet yet she hadn't spilt anything; as she stood up she realized that her waters had broken. So she called her dad , he was at her house within minutes and then called her Dr who told her he would meet her at the hospital. She picked up her baby bag while her dad loaded the car with the car seat and off to the hospital they went. 6 hours and a passed out dad later (from the gas and air) she was the proud mother of a healthy bouncing baby boy, 7lb 6oz. He had her thick dark brown hair and brown eyes that she would say we're almost soul baring. He had the cutest little chubby cheeks she had ever seen and was just perfect. Her heart had been so full before but now it got fuller if that was even felt like it would burst.

Jayden, As she looked at her Jayden who had within 5 minutes of being held consumed every part of her heart and mind she knew that without a doubt she would die before ever being parted from him, and even then that would be the only way to part her from him. As she held him in her arms and fed him he looked up at her and stared for a moment, his eyes full of love before closing them and falling soundly asleep with a full belly. She placed him in the cot and fell asleep herself.

2 days later she was allowed to take Jayden home. Her dad stayed with her for a while so she could get into a routine and so she wouldn't feel alone. Post natal depression wasn't something he wanted his daughter to go through like his ex-wife did. It was awful and he couldn't bear to see Olivia go through that so he stayed with her for as long as she wanted and needed him there.

Olivia was strong and so full of love for Jayden that she never experienced any depression or post natal hiccup of any sort, it also helped that Jayden was a good baby, he slept between 4-6 hours at night and in the day he would just lay awake listening to his mum read him stories when he was neither tired or hungry. The sound of her voice calmed him. He loved his bath times and Olivia would get the camera out and snap away at every available chance she got, it all went into her diary.

Jayden was growing nicely and was healthy ; she had regained her physique back within a couple of weeks. She felt good, life was great. After 4 weeks her dad returned home but paid regular visits when not at work, Jayden had wrapped his granddad around his finger without a doubt. After 3 months she returned to work, Jayden attended the creche at her work so she was never without him technically and that's how she liked it. All the staff at work fussed over him, he was the favorite out of all the children there.

One sunny day When Jayden was 8 months old, Olivia and her dad had taken him to the park for a picnic. Jayden loved the park, his little giggles that so easily fell from his mouth as his mum pushed him back and forth on the swings were contagious, along with his Mamamamama babbling. Jaydens laughing was something that Olivia would never get tired of hearing and would always try to have him do at least once a day. Her dad was setting up the blanket and basket of food that they had bought with them under the trees. It was a beautiful sunny day and Olivia was enjoying the family time with her son and dad. After Jayden had been on the swings and had been down the slide a few times with Olivia enjoying his laugh it was time to eat,

"Liv lunch is ready" her dad called, he'd set everything out , plated it up and even had Jaydens car seat from out the car sat waiting for him with his bib next to it; I LOVE MY GRANDPA written in big blue letters. Olivia had gotten the bib as a surprise for her dad in thanks for all the help and support he'd given her unconditionally.

See truth be told, Olivia's dad Don had been through a rough patch when Olivia was younger and when her mother had left, he'd hit the bottle, he didn't make life easy, he'd left his job as a police officer as he couldn't function properly with always being drunk, he wasn't able to protect anyone let alone himself. Olivia buried herself in chick flicks and romances, which in a way kept her going. She always looked for the good in people and maybe that was why she had always chosen the wrong guys as she got older, looking for the love that she so desperately wanted. After seeing Olivia come home with a black eye one night Don sobered up, he realized that night that she was all he had and he was the one who was supposed to protect her. So from that day on he'd not touched a drop of alcohol and they had never been closer. He'd returned to work as a police officer and he was a well-respected officer of 32nd prencinct, So much so that he was now training rookies. Some of the stories he would sit and tell Olivia were funny and they'd laugh together.

She picked up Jayden and walked over to her dad , she placed him in his car seat and strapped him in. Don put the bib on Jayden and smiled as the little boy smiled at him while Olivia got out the tub of food that she had cooked at home and then processed down into mush that Jayden could eat. She didn't like the bought stuff you never knew what was in it. Homemade was always better and Jayden loved it. Olivia and her dad sat and chatted and laughed while they ate and just enjoyed each other. Don always had days off to come on a family outing when he knew they were taking place, she would book her days off and he would book his off to match.

As they were starting to put things away after eating, loud shouting could be heard coming from the swing area, a man had gotten the attention of everyone including Jayden and it made the little boy whimper. People had stared to clear like there was a bad smell and Don could tell something was off.

"Put Jayden in the car Liv" Don said and she quickly got up and took him and the car seat over to the car. Don
followed with the empty basket and blanket and loaded them into the boot.

"Stay here ,ill be right back" said Don as he made his way over to the man who was now shouting even louder and waving around a shiny metal object.

"Be careful dad" Olivia called to him

"Always am kiddo" said Don with a slight smile.

Olivia knew that her dad wouldn't just be able to leave, it was his job to help and he would always do what he could. As Don walked over to the area that enclosed the swings he'd called in to 32nd prencinct on his mobile and officers were on their way.

"Hi" he said as he carefully approached the man brandishing what Don could now see was a gun "Can I help at all"

"Back off" said the guy, his gun pointed at a female who had a child of about 7 clutched in her arms. The guy holding the gun was nervous and was shaking, Don could tell that he was very unstable and so he continued to talk to him in a calm voice.

"What's your name" Don asked. The guy looked gone out at him

"Why do you care , this is none of your business" said the guy "go away, you can't help"

"What makes you say that?" Asked Don

"Everyone's against me, no one will help me"

"we'll I'm here and I'm asking how I can help you"

"Why do you wanna help?" Said the guy

"this is a park, there are other people here with kids and if the cops come and see you holding that gun they will shoot you, then you won't be able to get any help, Do you like scaring kids" asked Don

"No" said the guy suddenly taken aback, Don could see him thinking

"Well that's what you're doing right now" said Don and the guy started to look around. He saw the faces of scared parents and children dotted on the outskirts and hiding amongst the trees of the park. He looked back to the child hiding in the arms of young woman cowered in front of him and saw the fear in the her eyes. He immediately lowered his gun and Don stepped forward to take it from his hands.

"Sorry , I didn't mean to scare you" he said to the little girl who was looking up at him. The man now looked deflated.

"I didn't mean to… I just …I love her… she won't let me see my daughter…I only wanted to see her" said the guy "no one will help me"… he slumped to the floor crying.

Just then 3 police squad cars pulled up with they're lights flashing, out jumped several officers with their guns drawn. Don nodded to one of the officers that approached and gave him the gun he had taken from the man who was now being cuffed and put in the back of a squad car. The woman and child were being lead to the back of another squad car to give statements.

"Thank you" she said as she walked past Don

"You're welcome" he replied

Olivia had sat all this time in the car with Jayden, watching all the events unfold. Her bottom lip was bright red and close to bleeding she'd bitten it that hard while praying to God that her dad would be safe. For the first time in her life she had seen her dad in action and to say she was proud of him was an understatement. Once Don had given his statement to the officers on scene he walked back over to Olivia and Jayden in the car. As he approached Olivia opened the car door, scrambled out and flung her arms around his neck.

"Oh dad" she said "I'm so proud of you, I was so scared"

"Thanks kiddo, I'm OK" he replied, "it's just my job."

"But if it hadn't been for you he might have hurt that woman and her child, you could've been hurt or killed" Olivia told him.

"It's OK Liv" said Don "it's OK"

After she released him they both got into the car and drove back to Olivia's house. Don parked the car on the driveway and helped unload the picnic basket and blanket and Olivia took Jayden upstairs to be changed before putting him down for a nap. It had been an emotionally draining day and she needed time alone to think.

"Are you OK kiddo" Don asked her "Yeah" she replied "I just need time to think a few things through"

"I'm OK" said Don, he dipped his head to look her in the yes and smiled "call me if you need anything" and with that he gave her a hug and left.

That evening Olivia ate dinner, fed Jayden, played with him and was grateful that she didn't ever have to face his dad or worry about him doing anything like that to them. She spent time just watching him and then when it got late she put him to bed. She sat on the couch in the living room and was so awed at how her dad was able to help that woman and her child , she felt really proud of him. Although Her main concern was Jayden she couldn't shake the feeling that she had when she thought about being a protector for all, not just Jayden. Her dad was a protector so maybe it was something that came naturally, was in her DNA. She thought and thought and planned and thought some more and went to bed knowing what she wanted, had to do Olivia Cragen wanted to be a Protector for all, A police officer, after all it was another way she could protect Jayden while he was growing up, put away the bad guys so her little boy would be safe. She went to bed knowing in her heart that's what she wanted to do.