Summary: Clary is the best shadow hunter in the world. But not everything is how it seems… Johnathan has had brain issues and Clary has had to step up as the ''big sister'' when she should be the little sibling. How will she deal with all the stress? Will a certain golden-haired boy be able to beat her disorder?

A/N- I do not own any of the characters. They are thanks to miss Cassandra Clare!

I don't need help, do i?

Chapter 1

CPOV

It's just another demon hunting night at Pandemonium. Sadly I lost a bet tonight so I have to be the bait. GREAAT! Izzy dressed me up all slutty although I have to admit I do look pretty hot! I am wearing a red skin tight dress that hangs low in the back and stops short on my thighs. Its suits my fiery red hair that is in loose curls. She also made me put on 7 inch heels that are extremely hard to walk in.

I am sitting at the bar when I spot my demon. I flip my hair back to get its attention. It works. He walks over to me. "Well my my, what is a sexy girl like you doing sitting alone on this fine night?" he asks while looking me up and down. Gosh, why do men only look at women like they are a piece of meat? "Waiting for the right person to come along I guess…" I say leaning forward. He catches on and leans down into a ferocious kiss. GROSS! I pull and whisper "maybe we should take this a to somewhere a little more private." He then nods. I then stand and lead him over to the closet where Izzy and her older brother Alec are waiting for me.

Once inside the demon throws me against the wall and proceeds with our kiss from earlier. That is when he cries out in pain from Alec's blade that is now launched in his chest. He backs up and folds in on himself. "Wow thanks Alec; I think he may just be the worst kisser ever!" I say sarcastically to him. He laughs and rubs the top of my head "that's my girl." Is all he says in reply. "Well I'm tired let's head back to the institute." I say. "Okeydokey" replies Izzy from behind me.

(Time skip to institute)

I am walking down the halls of the institute (now in sweatpants and a tee-shirt). Once I find the room I was looking for I knock and process in. This room is Johnathan's room. My brother. (A/N- Johnathan is not evil he is just her older brother. ) "Hey Jon" I say walking in to a sleepy looking Jon. "Sup sis" he says wincing trying to sit up. I run over to him and push his shoulders down so he is lying again. "Head hurts today again?" I ask although already knowing the answer. You see my brother has had two concussions that we very close to each other and now he can barely get out of the Institute and be a normal shadow hunter. I have had to take over the role of "older sibling" and I have been having trouble dealing with the stress of not always knowing if he is alright. I need him to get better. I have been bad, and even worse lately. My stress has come out on food. And I don't mean eating more. I rarely eat. I am usually too busy stressing or training or fighting. In the past week and a half I have lost ten pounds and the number keeps decreasing. But I don't worry about myself though; all I care about are that the others around me are happy. I am brought back to the real world when Jon replies "nah I feel great don't worry sis. Although I am worried about you…" I cut him off by retorting "Don't you ever worry about me Jon. You need to focus on getting better." "Come one sis seriously. You have been looking a lot thinner lately and you never share your feelings" he says. It's true. I build walls to protect myself. I don't share my feelings because I don't want to burden anyone with worrying about me. "I'm fine Jon. I don't need you worrying over me. And I'm going downstairs right now to eat an apple." I say getting up and walking towards the door. "I love you Clare-bear." He says weakly. I turn at the door and say "love you too Jon" before walking out and down to the kitchen.

All of the sudden, the doorbell rings. I go to answer the door seeing that the others are all upstairs. Once I open the door I am stopped by a golden angel. A boy about 17 stands at the door with golden eyes and beautiful gold hair. Once I come back to reality I realize that he is gaping back at me. I blush and say "Hi would you like to come in?" He seems to come back and replies "yes I would indeed" while walking in with a big smirk. "So who are you may I ask?" I ask shyly. He eyes me and says "I am the all mighty and sexy Jace Herondale. Who would you be?" "I'm clary Grayback (A/N- Jocelyn married Luke instead of Valentine) and is there a specific reason you're here Mr. Herondale?" I say as politely as possible. "Its Jace" he retorts "I'm here to stay in the institute and would like to get to know you." I blush. "I'm also here to see my parabati Alec." He continues. As if on cue Alec comes rushing down the stairs and goes into a quick embrace with Jace. "Welcome home, I see that you have already met Clary." Alec says once they pulled back. "Indeed I have" Jace returns with a wink at me. I slowly start to blush. Gosh what is wrong with me? I am the best shadow hunter. I am not weak. I cannot break down any walls for this person that I just met. I need to go blow off some steam. "Well I am going to the training room to do some throwing I will see you boys at dinner I guess…" I trail off walking towards the training room. "see yah Clary!" Alec yells before I turn a corner heading off. I really love Alec. Not in that way. He has his boyfriend Magnus. It's just that he always treats me as if he is my older brother. He always has to approve of what I'm wearing to make sure I don't look too slutty. He also wards off any boyfriends I get. Luckily one boy has passed most of his test and Alec hasn't scared him off yet. His name is Sebastian Verlac and he is my amazing boyfriend. He always lets me be myself and tells me I am beautiful no matter how awful I look. He is the best.

Once I am in the institute I see Izzy has already warmed up and is working on dagger throwing. That's her weakness but she is killer with a whip. On the flipside I am strongest with a dagger and have the best aim. She is my parabati and I love her. We became parabati at 13 and I still remember the day she asked me.

Flashback

"Hey clary can I ask yah something" Izzy says very giddy. Before I can reply she goes to one knee and asks to be my parabati. I say yes and we hug and jump and laugh.

End of Flashback

Before I have a chance to say hello, a pair of very strong and muscular arms wrap around me and I let out a loud scream…

JacePOV

Wow. The door to the Institute is opened by the most beautiful girl I have ever seen. We talk for a quick second before Alec walks in and we hug. All too soon my little angel is gone. Wait. My Angel? What's wrong with me! I'm the player that doesn't really care about girls. Maybe this Angel will change me. I am about to ask Alec whether she is single or not when I hear a gut-wrenching scream. Alec and I spring quickly into a full sprint searching for the maker of the noise. I hope it's not my Angel. I will swear now that I will protect her no matter what!

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