Chapter 1

First and Last

They say your life flashes before your eyes before you die

Mike never believed it, he'd always believed that you just close your eyes and die. He was not spiritual or religious so he just assumed when you died that was it. So when his parents died, and everyone said they were in heaven watching over him, he never believed them. That's why he closed of his heart to everyone around him, sure he had relationships but he ended things before they got too serious as he was too scared of falling in love and watching them die, like he had his parents.

Until he met Harvey Specter, who like him kept people away from fear of getting hurt. Mike assumed that's why he fell for the man. However unlike Harvey, Mike showed he cared for people, he wasn't afraid to show his emotions - well just one emotion; Love. That one scared Mike most of all.

Thus everything changed for Mike that day, the day when he almost lost everything, the day he watched as the one he loved nearly slipped away, the day he died and saw his parents. The day when he saw his life flash before his eyes and realised what really mattered to him.

~~~~~~~~SUITS~~~~~~~~

Mike and Harvey were driving back to the office after visiting a client. Their client was looking for their help in preventing a takeover of his company and wanted Harvey's help. Which meant Mike's help too.

Their client; Mr Carter, had a passion for boats and so they met on his yacht. Mike was amazed, he'd never been on a yacht before and was nervous about it sinking. He'd been on a boat with his parents once and it nearly sunk and he was thrown overboard. Luckily he could swim and was pulled out by his father, but it scared him into never getting on a boat or swimming ever again. That it until today.

Mike hadn't even bothered attempting to tell Harvey, not just because he knew Harvey wouldn't care, but because he didn't want the pity. The look people gave him when he talked about his parents, he'd seen it so many times and he hated it.

So to say he was nervous was an understatement, so nervous in fact that he forgot to bring the file with him, with some papers for Mr Carter so sign. Harvey was furious, Mike could tell. Carter shrugged it off and said he'd go to Pearson Hardmann. Hence there they were heading to the office, Harvey and Mike in one car with Harvey driving; Ray off sick, and Mr Carter in another car with his driver.

Harvey hadn't said one word to Mike since they left the boat and got in the car. Harvey was frowning and staring at the road intently and Mike was staring out the window ashamed

"What's wrong with you?" Harvey suddenly yelled and Mike jumped

"What?"

"I'm serious, lately it's like you're falling apart. You're works getting sloppy, you're messing up client meetings and to be honest Mike, I've let it slide for too long and I've had it. I should fire you right now" Harvey pinched the bridge of his nose, he was so angry

"Yeah maybe you should" Mike whispered. Harvey's words hurt Mike, but he knew Harvey was right. Mike was falling apart because he let Harvey in and now he was panicking; he'd never stayed in one place too long and this was the reason. He'd fallen for Harvey, and as much as he tried to deny it; he couldn't. And now he didn't know what to do.

Harvey's head snapped to looking at Mike and his anger eased up as he saw Mike. From the look on Mike's face, Harvey could see it was like Mike was seconds from breaking

"Mike" Mike looked at Harvey and Harvey saw a look of desperation

"You know this is exactly the reason I don't stay too long in one place; I got too close and now it's too late." Mike mumbled and looked out the window

Harvey frowned as he didn't understand what Mike meant.

"What the-" Mike said and Harvey peered over to see what Mike was looking at, they both saw the car Mr Carter was in speed up and swerve next to them, then suddenly it swerved heading towards them. "Harvey look out!" Mike shouted

Harvey had no time to react; he was just shocked. By the time he realised what was happening it was too late as Mr Carter's car smashed into their and both car's skidded along the road, Mike and Harvey were thrown back and force, and Mike's body slammed into the car door

"Harvey!" Harvey looked to see Mike was looking out the front window at the fact they were getting closer to the edge of the bridge. Harvey reached out his hand and gripped Mike's tightly, as both cars crashed through the railing at the edge of the bridge and went over the edge, hitting the water below.

Mike didn't know what happened, it happened so fast. One moment he was arguing with Harvey, the next they were driving over the edge of the bridge. He felt himself be broken apart from Harvey as the car crashed into the railing and hit the water below. Mike's body hit the car door as the front window smashed, the airbags deployed and Mike felt his body be pelted with glass and felt the full force of the other car hitting them.

Mike must have blacked out because when he opened his eyes, the car was floating down to the bottom of the river and quickly filling with water. His whole body hurt and his head was spinning, he could barely feel his legs and his heart was racing as he tried to breathe.

Harvey had never been so terrified as he felt Mike being torn from his grasp and being thrown all over the seat. He was thrown forward and his head hit the steering wheel, then the airbags deployed; his vision blurred and he blacked out.

He woke up being shaken by someone, he opened his eyes and felt wet.

"HARVEY!" Harvey turned to see Mike, who looked horrible, he had a huge cut on his forehead and blood was dripping down his face. He didn't know about Mike's other injuries were as he realised the car was filling with water too quickly and was up to their necks. Harvey saw Mike's eyes filled with fear.

"Mike-" Harvey lifted his head to the top of the car as the water was rising

"WE'LL GET...OUT..OF THIS.." Harvey said and the water rose up and filled the car, they both took a deep breath as the water reached the top of their heads.

Harvey's head was throbbing and he felt tired and his eyes started to close. He tried to keep them open, but they wouldn't.

Mike saw Harvey's closing his eyes and he knew they had to get out. Luckily he could hold his breath for a long time, he looked down and undid his seatbelt, then he swam forward and undid Harvey's. He cupped Harvey's face, and saw his eyes' closing. Mike shook Harvey's head and Harvey opened his eyes for a second, then started to close them again.

NOOO Mike yelled in his head, then he smashed his lips against Harvey's and blew air into his mouth. He pulled back and Harvey's eyes were wide open and shocked

Mike widened his eyes to indicate to stay awake and Harvey nodded, then Mike put his arm around Harvey's waist as he pulled him out the smashed window, and away from the sinking car. Mike didn't know the extent of his injuries as his whole body felt numb, but he wasn't thinking about himself, he only thought about Harvey.

As Mike held Harvey against him and kicked his legs, they slowly made their way to the surface. It took a while as Harvey kept slipping and Mike felt his muscles in his arms stiffen.

They broke through the surface and Mike took in a deep breath and coughed. He turned to Harvey who was unconscious

"Shit. HARVEY!" Mike gaped, then swam towards the shore. They had fallen quite far from the bridge, the drop was equivalent to a 4-storey building, so they were lucky to be alive.

Luckily there was a little docking platform for boats nearby, which Mike reached relatively quickly. As soon as he got there he reached out one hand and grabbed the edge of the docking platform, it was about 2ft higher and Mike felt Harvey slipping. Mike's grip slipped on the edge and they fell below the water, then they was pulled up. Mike looked up to see two men pulling them out the water.

Mike coughed out any water in his lungs as soon as they got onto the docking platform and collapsed to his knees

"Thanks" Mike said as he shivered; he was dripping wet and freezing

"What happened? One man asked

"I-"

"Hey you're friends not looking good" The other man yelled and Mike turned to face Harvey. Harvey wasn't breathing and his lips were turning blue

"Shit" Mike luckily knew CPR, so put his hands over Harvey's chests and started compressions

"One of you call an ambulance!" Mike yelled then he pinched Harvey's nose and blew in his mouth.

One of the man dialled 911

"NO. HARVEY. COME ON YOU CAN'T DIE ON ME!" Mike yelled as he pushed harder on Harvey's chest, probably cracking some ribs and blowing into Harvey's mouth

Suddenly Harvey started coughing up water and Mike turned him onto his side. Mike collapsed back and rested on his feet as he gripped his knees, breathing heavily.

"Thank god"

"Ughh my head, what happened" Harvey groaned and tried to get up

Mike pushed him back down; "You nearly drowned that's what" Mike said; "You stopped breathing and I had to give you CPR. Luckily you're too stubborn to die" Mike gave a small smirk

Harvey looked up at Mike; "You saved me?"

"Well I couldn't just let you die" Mike scoffed

"The ambulance says it's going to be a while as there was a multiple car pile-up." The man who dialled 911 said rushing over and Mike frowned at him, then he remembered

"Hey have you guy's seen anyone else come out the water?" Mike said looking at the two men who shook their heads

"Shit they must be still down there"

"Mike?" Harvey sat up slowly

"Mr Carter's car went off the bridge as well-"

Mike was cut off by a splash and to see Mr Carter's driver emerge from the water. One of the men helped him up and he collapsed onto the ground coughing. Mike looked from the driver to the water

"Hey where's Mr Carter!" Mike yelled to the driver

"His seatbelt was stuck. Couldn't get him out" The driver said coughing and shivering

"You left him there!" Mike shouted; "He'll die!"

"I had no choice!" The driver yelled back

Mike turned to the two men; "You need to go get him" They exchanged glances and looked at Mike

"We can't swim"

"Seriously" Mike put a shaky hand to his face

"Mike?" Mike turned to face Harvey who was looking at him; "Don't. I know what you're thinking, you can't"

"I can't let him die" Mike whispered

"You could die" Harvey put his hand up to Mike's face and Mike put his hand over Harvey's. Mike knew if he went after Mr Carter he could die, but if he didn't Mr Carter would die

"Where's the ambulance?" Mike asked

"Still 5 minutes out"

"Mike no" Mike turned back to facing Harvey, he looked in Harvey's eyes; the eyes of the man he loved. Mike didn't even think about it, he just leant down and kissed Harvey, Harvey was shocked at first but then he pulled Mike closer and kissed him back. He didn't know why, he'd never thought about Mike that way, but it just felt right, and it was the best kiss he'd ever had.

Mike pulled back at looked Harvey in the eyes; "Harvey I don't want to die never having told you the truth." Harvey frowned; "I love you Harvey. I've tried denying it, but I can't anymore, and I just...if I die..I don't want to die, never having told you the truth."

"Mike-" Harvey was shocked, he'd never known that Mike felt this way

"Harvey I'm sorry" Mike gave Harvey one last look then ran and dived into the water

"Mike!" Harvey tried to get up, but one of the men stopped him. Harvey stared at the water shocked. Mike had just kissed him and all he could think of was holding him and kissing him back. Now Mike could die and he'd never get his chance. He didn't want to lose Mike.

Mike knew he had to do it, he couldn't let Mr Carter's die. He couldn't let anyone die. It's just who he was, even if it meant sacrificing himself. It was bad enough nearly losing Harvey; his heart stopped when he saw Harvey wasn't breathing. Then when Harvey woke up, Mike realised he'd nearly lost the man he loved.

He told Harvey he loved him and kissed him, and as he dived into the water; all he could think of was that it was their first and last kiss.