Seeing Sadness
By: Umi Sakura
Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing or any of it's characters used in this fic.
Author's Note: Try to guess which couple I'm talking about. =)
Sadness. The only thing I see is pure utter sadness. How could something like this have happened? I don't even know anymore. One minute I'm fine the next… I'm sitting in my room crying like a baby into my pillow. Man so this is what it feels like to get rejected. It's never happened to me before. I've dumped every girl or boy friend I've ever had but I never knew how they felt. Why did I have to go and do a stupid thing like that anyway? Man why was I so stupid?
I should start from the beginning, though it's about 11:00 p.m. now and I should be going to bed. I was walking around yesterday when there he was talking to HER. They'd been going out for a week now though I hated her with all my heart and I am his best friend. Or at least WAS until this happened. I walked up mumbled hi like I always do. He seemed so happy. He was always happy around her. She glared at me then got back to their debate on wars of the past of something. I wasn't really paying attention. I was too busy trying to think of a way to tell him. I HAD to tell him or I would have exploded not that that would have been the WORST thing that could have happened. Believe me when I tell you this is MUCH worse.
So I nodded and talked every once in awhile when she hit him in the jaw and left. I hadn't the slightest idea what had happened so I just asked. He told me nothing, smiled and left. I didn't see him aging until that night.
He was in the park under my favorite tree when I got there. I had brought my new book to read under the stars, it was pretty bright out that night. It was a full moon. He smiled. I smiled. Then he told me that they had broken up and that he was feeling pretty down and wanted to just sit with a friend. I told him he could and sat down to read my book. He sat next to me and just looked up at the stars. Then I went and opened my big mouth.
"I love you too you know." Was all I said. He turned and looked at me.
"You don't mean…" he started and I looked up from my book.
"Yeah like as not just a friend." I whispered praying that he would return my feelings.
"I'm sorry you feel that way about me. I don't return your feelings." Then he stood up and left. He didn't even look back as I started to cry.
Which is why I'm acting all foolish and girly and crying my brains out onto my pillow. I can hear him packing next store. He's leaving so that it won't be so odd around here anymore. But I have this feeling that him leaving will only make it worse. Which is why the day after he leaves I'm leaving too. I just don't want to put the others threw this too. So I'm going to go off into the world and pray that someday he'll get out of my mind. So I won't see the sadness anymore.