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Chapter 1 All my fault
They always say no to me they always blame me for everything that happens. That's why right now I sit here and I reach back to the thoughts I've keep hidden the ones I haven't touched in years . The thoughts of my mother and father, my nana and papa, my friends and family I think of all these things I've kept hidden for so long hoping never to relive the problems I faced back then. Why was I digging all these thoughts back up I didn't want to think of these thing not now especially not now not on my wedding day not when some one is finally saying yes to me. Not when I was about to stand at the altar with my beautiful blushing bride but I couldn't help it I couldn't see how she could love me I was damaged goods no one special I was imperfect my father even said so.
*Flashback*
"Daddy" I asked through tear filled eyes "Is momma gonna be ok"
"No Logan she's dying, she in that hospital bed dying be cause of you," my father shouted "because your damaged goods you're an imperfect bastard child"
"I I I'm sorry daddy" I stuttered, "I didn't mean to hurt mommy"
"Well you did" my father said coolly "it's all your fault"
*end flashback*
I was 5 years old then, when my father told me it was all my fault and those words still haunt me to this day. I was only when I was 10 years old did I learn that my mother died of cancer and that it wasn't my fault. Everyone except my father tried to explain that to me but I didn't do anything wrong and it wasn't my fault but I wouldn't listen I knew it was my fault even if it was cancer that killed her somehow it was still my fault it would always be my fault.
So I Know It Really Short but its my first story ever plz review and tell me if u like it and wanna read more :)