She was gasping for air but she couldn't seem to find any. She felt like her whole life had just come crumbling down and the load was on top of her. Pressing her lungs and making her insanely nauseous. Toby stared at her guiltily knowing he was the reason she felt like this. He spoke up, "Spencer, you have to calm down….You-"
"Stop it" she managed to get out not letting Toby finish. Her rapidly shaking body was making Toby really concerned. He took a few steps toward a doubled over Spencer with an outstretched hand. He thought maybe he could at least get her to sit on the couch instead of the floor.
"Don't you dare touch me…Don't come near me" she said making Toby flinch at the coldness in her voice. Toby obeyed Spencer's wishes and went to the other side of his apartment. He slid down the wall and sat on the floor opposite Spencer. Tears starting forming in his eyes and he too, was feeling nauseous.
The tears were falling freely now as Spencer looked up. The room was spinning and everything was a blur from all the tears in her eyes. She wrapped her hands around her stomach feeling vulnerable and extremely sick. The only reason Spencer hadn't left by now was because she physically was not able to. She couldn't even stand. Her knees were weak and her head was spinning.
The stayed liked that for a while, neither of them knowing what to say or think.
Spencer mustered up enough strength to stand, although it took all her power. Her knees were still wobbling and her body was still shaking. She looked at Toby. Her vision still impaired from her tears. Who even was he? Spencer had no idea.
"Was everything a lie?" She choked out, "This past year…our relationship…our love." Hearing herself say it aloud made caused her sobs to take control of her and she was back to gasping for air.
Toby stood up shakily at her sudden outburst. "My love for you is not a lie," he said looking sincere.
"I trusted you with everything. I gave you everything," she yelled, her anger towards him increasing every second now.
"You never told me about A," he murmured quietly.
"Are you fucking serious with that? You know why I didn't tell you…I didn't tell you to protect you…You know what A is capable of. God, you're so twisted Toby…." She couldn't even finish what she wanted to say because she was sobbing once again.
She didn't even notice Toby had moved until he was right in front of her.
"Spencer," he said. He said it the way he always said it to her. His actions made Spencer even angrier.
"Get away from me!" she sobbed. Her arms started flailing trying to create distance from Toby. She turned her hands into fists and started pushing Toby's chest uncontrollably.
Her actions didn't hurt Toby physically, but emotionally, he was a mess. Tears fell from his eyes because he knew that he was the reason for her pain…and that was the worst feeling in the world.
Suddenly, Spencer took a deep breath, turned on her heels and ran out of his loft.
Sooo depressed Toby is on the A team. I still believe he loves Spencer and is a good person. Spencer is going to be so crushed when she finds out. :( ...Yeah so i don't if this is just a one-shot or if i should do more... let me know. :)