Ok, I put this one shot up once before, except it was a songfic, and i don't think that we are allowed to put up songfics anymore (but i have checked everywhere, and it doesn't say we aren't allowed to!) But hey, i'm gonna see if this one shot will work without the song lyrics in it. I think that it is better with the lyrics in it, so if anyone wants to read the original, please send me your e-mail address, and i will be happy to send you the one with lyrics, this goes for all of my one-shots!
Reflection
Raven looked at her face in the mirror, sighing, she thought;
'Look at me! Everyone thinks that by just looking at my face, they can see who I am inside. They think that just because I have a cold, emotionless mask that I'm like that all the time, but really, no-one knows how I truly feel.
Do they really think that I'm truly like this? Do they really think that I don't have feelings; that I don't care about people? If that's what they really think that I am, then I guess this mask that I put up every day to hide myself away works. It's not like I want to hide everything, it's just that I have to, if I don't control my emotions and keep them hidden, then I could really hurt someone, and I don't want to hurt them, they're the people I care about, they're like my family, they're my...friends.
Who am I really? Am I the girl that everyone sees, who has no feelings, and doesn't seem to care about anyone? Have I been acting for so long that I've lost who I used to be? Will I ever be who I used to be again? Or will I completely lose who I am, and become who they think I am?
No, I can't go on living like this, I have to show them who I am, what I'm really like. Show them that really, I can be happy, that I can laugh and cry and have emotions, and be some-what human! I have to show them that they are the only things in the world that keep me getting up in the morning.
I will find a way to show them who I am, I don't know how, but I will, and when I do, they'll see what I really feel, and hopefully understand who and what I am, and accept me for who that person is.
But how long will it be until I can show them? Will I ever be able to? Will I have to go through my life like this, bottling everything, never letting anyone in? oh please no! I don't want to be like that for the rest of my life!
I won't be like this for the rest of my life, I can't hold everything in forever, one day, I'll let go, just be myself, and not care about anything, for one day, I'm going to let go. For one day, I'll be like everyone else, and everyone can see the part of me that I hide.
One day, I'll be free, one day, I'll just be me, I'll tell them all how much I love them, how much they mean to me, and that I'd do anything for them. One day, I'll play video games, go shopping and just have fun. I'll find a way to do that, without hurting everyone. Someday, Somehow, Someway…'
Ok, that's it, I hope you liked it, and if you want a copy of the original, just send me your e-mail address, and i'll send it to you.
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Later, BlackGothFaerie