Save me from myself
PROLOGUE
All she felt was fire. Scorching, hot, insatiable. Fire. All she waited for was the explosion, the final combustion, the release. Hot, long fingers were caresing her silky thights and a husky yet velvety voice was murmuring sweet nothings into her ear. The there was blank. She had exploded and so had he. They lay tangled - a beautiful mess of limbs - until sleep overtook them.
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When she woke up, the first thing she did was feel around her, trying to grasp him, but all she found was silky sheets - HIS silky sheets - and a folded piece of parchment. She lifted it up with trembling hands and began reading.
Granger,
This shouldn't have happened. Please try to forget it. Forgive me for pressuring you.
Diggory
She read the last sentence over and over, until it sunk in, until his neat and elegant scrawl was as imprinted to her brain as his feathery yet exciting caresses. "Pressuring you". What pressure?! She'd do it again and again and again. Until the end of time. Night and day. Even without his approval... because that was the only way theywould EVER do it again: raping him. She just wasn't delusional enough to believe that if it weren't for the situation at hand Cedric Diggory would throw her, Hermione Granger a second glance. Much less have sex with her. It's not that they didn't interact at all. It wasn't even the fact that they didn't talk. Au contraire, they developed a friendship during the war and even before that, with him always sticking to Harry during the boy's 5th year and sometimes teaching at the DA meetings. It's just that it wasn't possible for Adonis himself to end up with a plain, boring girl. Because that was exactly what she was compared to him. A silly little girl. Of course, she had seen her share of terrible things and was part of a war that forced her to grow up too fast but she was still so... innocent in some matters... And he was a man. A true, desirable man. The kind of man that ended up with a brilliant career and a beautiful wife - most probably Cho Chang.
And she will remain with Ron because that is what everyone expects them to do so. Everyone wants to see them married and with children. Everyone else...