A/N: I'm not sure if this will be just a two-shot or a multi-chapter story, so please let me know what you want.

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Almost seven years have passed. Seven years of being lonely, tired and unloved... Seven years without having someone to talk to, without someone to trust. Without someone to love.

After our break up I knew it was just a matter of time before things would get weird between us, because... let's be real. You can't be just friends with the person you had sex with and kissed so many times, the person you knew for your whole life and held in your arms all night, the person you trusted and adored and well, loved.

But we made it. At least for a few months. I loved her all along, but I knew back then we weren't good for each other. This long distance relationship shit is exactly that. Shit. Of course I wanted to be with her, I saw my whole life with her, my future was full of colours and rainbows and unicorns and... just her. But we both didn't get what we need and I just couldn't do it anymore, so I broke up with her. Now I know it was the biggest mistake of my life.

After a few more weeks she started dating again. Well, I told her it was fine with me but really... it wasn't. But what was I supposed to tell her? I couldn't be with her but she wasn't allowed to be with someone else? Someone who hopefully made her happy? No... I had no right to tell her everything anymore.

I remember a time when she believed everything I told her. The time when I just had to tell her to do something and she did it. Like when I told her that it was totally okay for us to have sex with each other, because we are both girls and so it isn't cheating. Or when I told her sex isn't dating, that there are no feelings involved.

I smile at that memory. A lie. Everything was just a big lie. I just wasn't ready and probably to stubborn to admit to myself that how I felt towards her definitely wasn't how you're suppose to feel for your best friend who's also a girl.

Everytime I saw her with Sam I wanted to puke. I mean, seriously? That guy was just... ugh... a dork, and an idiot, and as smart as a bunch of wet hair. He had this really huge thing in his face, as far as I know he swallowed his food with it, so it had to be his mouth. And that hair? He really needed a new cut. Also he seemed a little creepy. I'm glad I haven't seen him in years, I wouldn't know what to tell him, I probably would try to kill him for stealing my girl as soon as he opens his giant mouth, but well, I just hope that will never happen.

I know she was happy with him because he gave her everything I wasn't able to give her. But there was a part of me that thought if I asked her to take me back she would just do that. I had to learn that I was wrong. She let me down and chose Guppy Face. And I really tried. I tried so hard to get her back, I mean, if the love of your life is telling you 'no' you won't just walk away without fighting, right?

I also tried really hard to fit into the University of Louisville, but it wasn't what I wanted. So after some time figuring myself out I moved in with Rachel and Kurt in New York. I'm so happy everything worked out the way it did, even if there was a lot of boyfriend drama (Brody!) and lots of bitch fighting, but they were my family. They supported me when everything seemed impossible. They helped me to chase my dreams and find a place in the world.

It wasn't long after I moved in with them I started to miss her again. I began to visit Lima more often, always using lines like 'I need to talk to my parents' or 'I'm just trying to help the glee club' but really I just wanted to see her. Sure, everytime felt like someone just stabbed me with a knife, but it was worth it. I was able to see her sing and laugh and dance, and god, that girl could move...

Well, I always knew she was a genius. I was confused so many times about what she said, but when I thougt really hard about it, it always made sense. That girl was just way smarter than any of us. And when she told me she was going to MIT I was so happy for her. She deserved it. She deserved everything and more. But at the same time I knew that if she would leave, she would leave me, too.

So after she left Lima I stopped visiting. Rachel and Kurt were really worried about my strange behaviour but I never let them anywhere near me so they could actually ask what happened. I'm sure they knew some things from Blaine or Finn, but even if. It wasn't like any of them knew what was going on in my mind.

Well, long story short. We skyped almost every day, and on days we didn't, we would just write. Everything, except that she wasn't here with me, was good, like really good. She visited even once or twice. But after eight months I got a last message. I can't do this anymore. was all it said. She changed her number, got new accounts in social networks, and as far as I know moved to a big city maybe in another state.

Until now I have no idea what made her do all these things. She just disappeared out of my life. Not only mine. She lost every contact with our friends. Kurt told me she wrote a letter for most people (I think most people inclueded him, Rachel, Finn, Blaine, Mercedes, Tina, Mike, Puck and maybe Sugar. Maybe Sam and Artie but I really didn't want to think about them) but he refused to show me his, and well, Rachel... she talked way too much so I didn't even asked her.

I knew if she wanted to tell me something she would have done that, but all I got was a I can't do this anymore and I couldn't change anything...

I tried to convince Finn and Puck, but neither of them wanted to show me and so I still have no idea what she told them what she couldn't tell me. I'm not sure if I did something wrong. Years ago I thought her leaving was my fault in one way or another, and even when Kurt and Rachel told me nothing I have done made her make this decition I didn't believe them. I mean, there has to be a reason why I can't get the answers I need, right?

The only thing I know now is, even if I didn't do anything it had to be something about me, or I would have gotten a letter like everyone else.

And even then, she had no right to just leave me... I mean, she couldn't just break my heart over and over and over again... but she did.

After she left I stayed almost a year longer in New York. And when I felt ready to live again I started traveling. For a few months I lived in Chicago, Boston, New Orleans, Miami. I tried to have fun, to make new friends, to start a new life. Just like she had done. But I couldn't.

And after two more years I ended back up in Lima. Ever since I'm living here. I have a nice little apartment in the center of the town and I just got a job at McKinley as a spanish teacher. Maybe I will show up by the glee club. We'll see...

Just like her I lost touch with everyone. Except one person. Quinn. I met her Thanksgiving the year after I moved back to Lima. She was visiting her mother and when we walked into each other in the mall I wasn't sure if it was fate or an accident, but whatever it was, sometimes Quinn Fabray was a creature sent from heaven. Sure, she could be a bitch, but that girl was my best friend beside her since I was a little girl, and just then I realized how much I missed the hazel-eyed blonde and pulled her in for a hug as soon as she recognized me.

Since then we stay in touch. I think I'm not able to lose her again. Quinn moved back to Lima two months ago and lives with her mom until she finds an apartment. She's now the only good thing in my life, she makes me laugh, and sometimes I feel like back in Highschool, when everything was simple... I remember the time when Quinn and I used to be really close, I told her all my secrets, she was the first one I told about my feelings for a certain other girl. And right now it feels really good to know that we can have this again. Sometimes we still act like silly teenagers, we walk down the street laughing at stupid little things, and sometimes we still fight like we used to. Well, we don't slap each other anymore, but all the other stuff... Nothing has changes between us and it feels really really good to have someone again.

Quinn called me like an hour ago and told me she would come over as soon as she finishes working, so when I hear the bell ring I immediately jump up from my couch and walk towards the door. God, why was she ringing? She had a spare key so there was no need to disturb my relaxing time but well, it was Quinn. She's still trying to tease the shit out of me.

So it's not until I grab the door handle that I think about how weird it is because... yeah, Quinn usually uses the key I gave her. But when I start thinking about it I already opened the door, and when I see who was standing in front of me my eyes widen.

"Brittany."