Fuckin' songfics.
The song is Icy Stroll by 넬(I think I spelled that right. CX It's 'Nell'.). I thought the song went well with this pairing, and I wanted to plug my favorite band. ;D The song's in Korean, but read and listen along anyway, because the song's amazing.
Hetalia belongs to Himaruya, and Nell belongs to that loverly country o' Korea. I don't own shit.
Why do you run from my love, Liet?
Maybe if it's you, you would understand this feeling.
I thought you, you of all people, would understand.
Maybe if it's you, you would embrace this mind.
I thought that maybe if I shared my pain with you, you would understand. You would understand my love and how much you mean to me.
Maybe if it's you, you would see the wounds of my mind
Struck deeper than the increasing wounds of my body.
Maybe if it's you. You would try a little harder.
You don't bend and break before me. Sometimes I admire that about you.
Maybe. Maybe if it's you. Yes, if it's you...
But other times it makes me angry. Because you're surrounded by the quiet, Toris...The silence. The silence is terrible- she brings death.
You would make my heart burnt black new again.
But no, still you embrace her instead of me.
And make the desperation strangling my neck day by day disappear.
Why? Why do you betray me like that? It makes me hurt inside...
But in the end, such selfishness of mine makes you disappear.
Because maybe you just don't understand how much I need you.
It makes you leave.
In the end...
I make you leave me.
Do you not want to love me? Do you hate me?
Maybe if it's you. You would try a little harder.
Maybe. Maybe if it's you. Yes, if it's you...
You're such an obedient thing...If you do not want my love, shouldn't you resist me?
You would make my closed mind, my door, open up again.
You confuse me so very much, Toris.
And my stopped heart revive once more.
I long to just hold you in my arms and not feel you shaking. When you shake, I want to cry with you.
But in the end, such selfishness of mine makes you leave me.
Because I know you do not love me.
It makes you distant from me.
As much as I love you.
In the end, I make you leave me.
I am only scared of you leaving.
How pathetic I am.
That is why I chain you up and restrict you of certain things. I don't give you food so you have no strength to walk away from me.
I cannot love anyone, even myself.
But after those weeks when you're too weak to clean or stand, do you not feel that love in my arms while I hold you and kiss you?
How wrongfully I ended up like this...
I suppose you do not. What is your definition of love, Liet?
Without having any choice.
Actually, I...I don't think I have one anymore.
How pathetic I am.
All I know about love is that I treat you like I do because that is what I feel. I am sure of it.
I cannot love anyone, even myself.
Are you not sure? Your silence is like torture to me, you know that...
How wrongfully I ended up like this...
I just wish you would speak to me. And tell me how you feel.
Without having any choice.
Maybe if it's you, you would understand this feeling.
You sleep so peacefully next to me, yet I overheard you talking to the others about me. Your words hurt me so, Liet. Do you really think i am a monster?
Maybe if it's you, you would embrace this mind.
Why do you sleep so peacefully next to a monster?
Maybe if it's you, you would see the wounds of my mind
I'm sorry, Toris, but you know...
Struck deeper than the increasing wounds of my body.
I just thought you would understand.
-x
Nyahh. It didn't really go anywhere, and it wasn't meant to. It was just something to get me back into the fic-writing groove. Da; that's it. ;D
Hope you enjoyed nonetheless.