It was Senior Year and I decided that I wanted to be a new Faith. Okay, so I was actually going back to the old Faith. I had donated most, but not all of my old clothes, and decided to become a Goth again. I knew that things would be different this year, but being friends with Tina, Cara, and Daisy helped me see that it was okay to wear what I wanted to. So to support my new outlook, I was wearing a black long-sleeve tee with a white rose and blood on it, a black torn maxi skirt, a crescent necklace with a red pendant and black heels. I also sported a pair of tattoos. I had Annabeth on my hand and the less visible Jessa above my heart.
Part of my decision did include the revelation that my mother was alive. Her name was Anna Walker and she was a Broadway actress who also coached a Glee club in New York. At first I wanted to condemn her, but then I realized that I didn't know what happened. The only person that knew the real story was my dad, and that would involve ending our estrangement, which I didn't want to do.
Jessa was currently attending Lima State. She was trying to do good there to improve her chances of getting a new scholarship. It wouldn't be easy considering that she had walked away from four years at UCLA.
Jacob Ben Israel was once again patrolling the halls. It would probably be a good idea for him to choose to pursue a career that didn't make people want to punch him.
"I'm here with Glee club captain, Faith Fabray." He said. "So you seem to be sporting a new look this year. Tell me what brought about this change."
"I wanted to be true to myself." I declared. It was at that time that a girl with a long brown hair wearing a red lace off-shoulder dress walked past us.
"Who is that?" Jacob inquired. "Anyway, how do you feel about having your Nationals dream ruined by your ex?"
"Well for starters, we don't have any proof that that was what happened." I pointed out. "Now I have to get to class."
I went to Glee club and found that I was the first one to arrive. Actually, that wasn't entirely true. The girl in the red dress was there.
"You know you do have to audition." I declared.
"Actually, she doesn't." Lucy remarked as she walked into the room. "She's been here since the Glee club began."
I couldn't help but wonder what she was talking about. Then I noticed the girl's eyes. I had seen them before and that was when it hit me.
"Kurt?" I questioned. He was transgendered.
"It's Kathryn now." She answered. "This is who I want to be."
Of course there were also other changes. Brittany, Lucy, and Santana were back on the Cheerios. Sam and Sadie had broken up, causing him to leave Glee club, and Puck had hair.
In our first Glee rehearsal of the year, Will brought out our 'Thanks for Playing' trophy from Nationals.
"This is what 12th place looks like." He replied. "This year we are going to win first place. We're not going to let anyone stop us. I lost focus and let something else distract me."
"We're sorry that the guy who replaced you won a Tony." Rachel commented.
"You know I regret being the laughingstock of the show choir world." Mercedes replied.
"I have something, courtesy of Al Motta of Motta's Pianos." Mr. Schue replied as three purple pianos rolled into the room. What the fuck? "These pianos were repossessed from foreclosed homes. I fixed them up and painted them purple and the Purple Piano Project was born. I'm gonna place these throughout the school and whenever you see them, I want you to sing a song. Use them to attract people like you, who can't keep the music inside of them. So they're out now who wants to sing?"
"I want to." Kathryn replied. I had to imagine that she was nervous. She was making her debut singing as a girl. Her voice sounded different. It was still nice, but she didn't seem to have as much range as she did before.
You had me to get her and here I thought it was me
I was changing, arranging my life to fit your lies
It's all said and all done, I gave all for the long run
Can she say the same thing I guess this is goodbye and good luck
I can't be what you want me to be
I'm sorry for changing
I'm sorry it had to be this way
Believe me it's easier to just pretend
But I won't apologize for who I am
I thank you for this hopeless war
Cause through the pain, I am stronger than before
Now I'm more I don't need you anymore
I'm sorry
Listen close I won't say this again
I'm sorry for changing
I'm sorry it had to be this way
Believe me it's easier to just pretend
But I won't apologize for who I am
I'm sorry for changing
I'm sorry it isn't like it was
Believe me it's easier to just pretend
But I won't apologize why should I apologize
No I won't apologize for who I am
After school, I headed home. I was greeted by Beth at the door. She really like to walk everyone.
"Hi Mama, Mommy's home." She declared.
At that point, Jessa walked out. She had moved in with us because it was easier. I knew that she really liked Jessa. She thought of her as her second mom, which she was. I was glad that she thought of Jessa that way. She seemed like she was a little bit intelligent. She did inherit a good brain from me even if Puck's side was less than favorable when it came to that department.
"Hey." Jessa told me before she gave me a kiss. "How was school today?"
"It was interesting." I declared. "The big thing was the news that Kurt is now Kathryn."
"What?" She questioned.
"Kurt is transgendered." I explained. "Apparently he transitioned over the summer without me knowing about it. Of course we were in London for most of the summer."
"Yeah, I'm surprised that I didn't come with a British accent." She joked. "So he's a girl now? Does she still a have a penis?"
"I don't know. I don't think that's something that I can just ask." I replied.
"So I never did ask why you're dressing like this again." She stated after Beth was in bed for her nap. I smiled and began to sing.
You say that I'm messing with your head
All cause I was making out with your friend
Love hurts whether it's right or wrong
I can't stop cause I'm having too much fun
You're on your knee, begging please stay with me
But honestly I just need to be a little crazy
All my life I've been good, but now whoa, I'm thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about
If you love me, if you hate me you can't save me baby, baby
All my life I've been good but now whoa what the hell
So what if I go out on a million dates
You never call or listen to me anyway
I'd rather rage than sit around and wait all day
Don't get me wrong, I just need some time to play
You're on your knee, begging please stay with me
But honestly I just need to be a little crazy
All my life I've been good, but now whoa, I'm thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about
If you love me, if you hate me you can't save me baby, baby
All my life I've been good but now whoa what the hell
La, la, la, la, la, la, la
That night when we were watching the news, I noticed that Sue was running for Congress…and she wanted to take the arts out of schools. What the fuck? There was no way that people would vote for that. She even called out Will by name. Someone would have to take a stand against her. She also didn't seem to have an idea on how Congress works. One representative didn't have that kind of power. They'd have to convince others to help them. She was not running for governor.
The next day I noticed that there was a purple piano in the lunchroom. I couldn't believe that Will had brought it in there. Didn't he know that we were too busy eating to worry about breaking into song. Some of us wanted to enjoy our organic subs. Of course Rachel was really adamant about us sing. Was the piano her idea?
"We'll do it if you shut up about it." I relented. She then began to sing a song from The Voice. I didn't really like that show. I still had a feeling that no one was going to care about a song while they were busy eating lunch.
Blue and black, heart torn now
You uncover what's beneath my skin
There and back there's no doubt
Your touch is my medicine
I'll be okay cause you heal me
And I give you all my pieces broken
In your hands there's nothing you can't fix
My heart is frayed, my scars are open
So put me back together now stitch by stitch
So put me back together now stitch by stitch
I'm still afraid of falling somehow it's taking over me
Don't ever let me let it go
There are back there's no doubt
Your touch makes me whole again
And I give you all my pieces broken
In your hands there's nothing you can't fix
My heart is frayed, my scars are open
So put me back together now stitch by stitch
So put me back together now stitch by stitch
So put me back together now stitch by stitch
Once the song was over, Becky threw some food at Rachel and then it erupted into a food fight. It turned out to be a disaster. It also didn't seem to inspire anyone, even though we didn't really need anyone.
We retreated to the choir room after lunch. Luckily, I managed to not get hit except on my hands.
"You know you guys really sucked." A new voice from came from the doorway.
"Who are you?" I questioned.
"I'm Sugar Motta and I have self-diagnosed Asperger's, so I can say whatever I want." She explained. I was pretty sure you couldn't self-diagnose Asperger's. I then realized that her last name was the same as the guy that gave us the pianos. "I'm basically like a diplomat's daughter and my dad gave you your pianos."
"How can we help you Sugar?" Will asked.
"Here's the deal. You need new members because you're not going to win with this band of misfits. I'm awesome and I wanna be in your Glee Club." Sugar replied.
You know even though this girl was kind of a bitch, I kind of liked her. I hoped she was a good singer. She began to sing Katy Perry's "E.T.".
She wasn't a good singer. I didn't think that she was a bad singer, but her pitch control was all over the place. I thought that if she learned how to control it, she could be good or at least decent. She was only a little worse than Katy Perry.
Will told her no, which I don't think was fair. Sure, she needed some vocal training and she had a bit of an attitude problem, but…okay those are good reasons.
"It's not fair to just exclude her." I pointed out. "Mike can't sing and he's still here."
"Mike knows that he can't sing. She clearly doesn't." Rachel argued.
"Are you two about to fight?" Puck asked.
I sighed and walked out of the choir room. I had bigger things to worry about, such as Sue trying to eliminate the arts from schools. I knew that it wouldn't take effect until after I graduated if she managed to get something passed, but I wouldn't be where I am right now without the arts. I wouldn't have the drive to succeed without Glee club and I wouldn't have met Jessa. I didn't want someone else to be denied the opportunity.
The next day, I noticed someone knew walking down the hallway. He was wearing red pants and a bowtie. It was Blaine. Was he a student here? I decided to give him a hug.
"So are you and Kathryn still together?" I asked.
"We're trying to work things out." He explained. "It hasn't been the easiest since I've always thought of myself as attracted to guys, but I'm trying and I definitely support her in this. When I first met her, I told her to remember courage and it honestly takes more courage to be transgendered than gay because it's much less accepted. So do you know where she is?"
"I think that she was with Lucy." I responded.
Later in the day, we were in the courtyard performing a song. Puck was singing the lead.
If you really want more, then scream it up louder
Get it on the floor, then bring out the fire
And light it up, take it up higher
Come on push it to the limit, give me more
Watch me as I dance under the spotlight, listen to the people screaming
More and more cause I create the feeling that keep em coming back
Yeah I create the feeling that keep em coming back
So captivating when I get it on the floor
Know y'all been patiently waiting I know you need me I can feel it
I'm a beast, I'm an animal, I'm that monster in the mirror
The headliner, the finisher, I'm the closer, I'm the winner
Best when under pressure, one second's left when I show up
If you really want more, then scream it up louder
Get it on the floor, then bring out the fire
And light it up, take it up higher
Come on push it to the limit, give me more
If you really want more, then scream it up louder
If you're on the floor, then bring out the fire
And light it up, take it up higher
Come on push it to the limit, give me more
Come on push it to the limit give me more
Come on push it to the limit give me more
If you really want more, then scream it up louder
Get it on the floor, then bring out the fire
And light it up, take it up higher
Come on push it to the limit, give me more
If you really want more, then scream it up louder
If you're on the floor, then bring out the fire
And light it up, take it up higher
Come on push it to the limit, give me more
Though not everyone seemed to like it, the Cheerios used our performance as a distraction to light our piano on fire…well everyone but Brittany and Lucy.
The following rehearsal, Will decided to put his foot down. He threw Santana out of Glee Club for helping to destroy the piano. Well it was nice to see him be a badass for a change.
"So I have an idea for a musical this year." I declared. "I think we should try to contact Disney to see if we can perform Lemonade Mouth."
I just hoped that they would say yes.
So Faith is a Goth again, but the bigger news is that Kurt is transgendered. She looks like Nina Dobrev. The songs are "I Won't Apologize" by Selena Gomez, "What the Hell" by Avril, "Stitch by Stitch" by Javier Colon and "More" by Usher. Please don't forget to review.
