This is his life now.
Or is it?

I can't let you go.

You have to.

No, I don't.

Please.

I don't care what happens.

I can't let all of you die.

It's not your fault.

It is if I could've stopped it.

Please don't.

It's okay.

Don't leave…please.

Take care of each other.

That was five months ago today. Leonard McCoy looked out upon the land of his new "home." The nearly barren land, save for some plant life, stretched out for miles across the planet. Leonard wouldn't say he hated it here, he was treated kindly by the servants who took care of him (despite his protests about having servants at all) and the citizens were welcoming when he would walk the grounds. He looked down upon the village. It was laced with small houses built from the sturdy rock of the land and a little beyond that were cottages, those were the markets. That's where he spent most of his time.

This planet was called Keiuuk

The race here is mostly humanoid, which Leonard was happy about. He wasn't sure if he could spend the rest of his days living with ten foot tall lizard, bug aliens or something of the like. Of course, they had their distinct characteristics. Their skin was a peachy hue with a hint of purple. Their hair was a range of many hues of brown. Their ears were large; they reminded Leonard of bat ears, due to their acute sense of hearing. The top of their arms up to the shoulders were blotched with blue dots ranging from all shapes and sizes and continued down their back, up their necks and onto their cheeks. Their jaw lines a bit more angular then humans and their teeth a bit sharper. And each and every one of them had these piercing orange eyes.

They were called the Kei.

Another lucky thing for Leonard is they know English. Of course they have their own language, which Leonard has been studying hard ever since he got here.

Leonard sighed and pushed off the balcony he was lean on. He needed to get out. The bracelets on his wrist jingled as he grabbed his cloak and threw it over his shoulders to cover his bare back. It was a custom here to have your back exposed, Leonard has been unclear as to why yet. He just went with it, the question never arising. He needed to get out of the, he cringed whenever he thought about it, palace.

He was greeted as he walked along the hall with 'my lord' and 'sire,' something he will never grow accustom to here. The guards at the main exit have long since tried to convince him to have one accompany him into the village. They simply bowed and let him go. He walked along the outskirts of the village to the one place he could be a peace. To the river. It was the only source of water around here that the Kei used for their crops. The Kei had developed something similar to a plumbing system that allowed the water to run into the village, and of course to the palace. So running water was nice. They were advance in a few areas, but decades behind anything Earth had. Leonard missed the technology but he was surprised at how fast he adapted.

He didn't want to, but he had to.

Held lay down on the dust ground with his hands behind his head. It wasn't long until he heard footsteps approaching.

"My lord?" a soft voice said. Leonard sat up and turned to see Loknar, one of his servants. He was young boy with hair down to his shoulders which was pulled back. He looked nervous. "His majesty demands your presents."

Demands, Leonard thought. That wasn't good. If his majesty wanted to see him it was usually a request or a wish, but a demand. That meant he was angry.

Leonard sighed as he stood up. Loknar watched him, his orange eyes filled with what Leonard was sure was fear.

"Hey," he placed a hand on the boy, "It'll be okay."

The boys frown deepened. "I hope so my lord. For his majesty was quite…angered."

When he arrived back at the palace, Loknar lead him to the main hall. The guards and servants were standing outside the door when they arrived.

"Oh, my lord," an older Kei, Lumina approached him. She was a few years older than him and she was one of his closest servants.

"What's going on?" Leonard asked but he had a feeling he knew exactly why his majesty was raging.

"I delivered the news and, as you can see…"

"Damn, and here I thought the tenth time would do the trick."

"Sire, this is no time for your jokes."

"I know." He took off his cloak and handed it to Loknar. "Don't want him tearing up another one."

He placed a hand on the door.

"Leonard." He stopped, but didn't turn. "Please be careful."

He said to Lumina nothing as he pushed the door open.

The hall was a mess. Debris littered the floor with what were once tables and chairs. Leonard looked up to where he and Kan'dar sat whenever events took place in the main hall. He eyes met the blue speckled back of the man who stole him. Trapped him and forced this life upon him. Leonard slowly approached him, watching his step as his bare feet tried to avoid the splintering wood. The worst of his anger seemed to have passed.

"And when Leonard?" Kan'dar says in his deep voice. "How many times must we go through this?"

"You're the one that makes a scene."

Kan'dar whipped around so fast Leonard wonder if he would have whiplash. "Watch your tongue."

Leonard kept his eyes locked with Kan'dar. To break eye contact was a sign of weakness among these people Leonard has learned. He wasn't going to give Kan'dar the satisfaction. Kan'dar made his way over to him, stepping right on the broken wood. Kei skin was much stronger than a human's. As he got closer Leonard couldn't help but feel his heart begin to race. Kan'dar stopped in front of Leonard, their eyes never breaking apart. He stood a good 2 feet taller than Leonard.

"Oh Leonard," he placed a hand upon Leonard's cheek. "Do not be afraid. Tonight we will try again and soon you will bear my heir."

His heir.

Leonard's eyes fluttered for a second. Kan'dar did not miss it.

"You do not wish to."

"It's just," Leonard looked away. Damn.

Kan'dar's gave him no chance. "You will accompany me tonight in our quarters."

"Yes, of course."

He placed a firm grip on Leonard's shoulders. "Good, now send some servants to clean up this mess."

With that Kan'dar turned and left. Leonard could see the servants and guards scrambling out of the way to look busy. He sighed and followed but stopped by the small group.

"You are unharmed Sire?" a guard asked.

"I'm fine," he said as he watched Kan'dar until he turned a corner and was out of site. "Send a few servants from the grounds to clean this mess, get them out of the hot sun for a while."

Yes Sire's were said as he began to walk away, Loknar and Lumina trailing behind him. He went into his quarters and took a seat on his bed. Lumina muttered something to Loknar and the boy departed.

"You know Sire," she began as she followed his cloak and placed it on a chair by his desk. "Perhaps if you paid a visit to the Care they could help. They have developed a few remedies that have helped a few of our females conceive."

"I don't want it."

Lumina watched Leonard carefully. She took a seat next to him on the bed, taking his hand in hers. "It will all be alright."

"I don't want to have a child just for it to be taken away. Shit it feels like I've been pregnant anyway, been getting pains. Tests all come back negative though."

"Tell me Leonard, how is it that you can bear a child? For in all that I have heard it is the female humans who are the child bearers."

"I'm a special case. Cells got all messed up, entered the world as a freak. I never had to deal with it until I landed here."

"You are not a freak, you are you. That is all that is important."

Leonard gave Lumina a tight smile, his eyes shined with unshed tears. "I don't want to do it anymore. I just want to go home."

She squeezed his hands and they sat in silence.

Leonard looked at himself in the mirror. Kei attire was simple and revealing. Leonard had learned exposure of one's body showed power. The less upper body wear, the higher the position. Kan'dar, of course, wore no clothes above his waist. He was their king, their majesty. As for Leonard, he wore a sleeve and pants. The sandy colored left sleeve came down a little past his elbow, at the shoulder there were three straps that buckled across his upper chest and back. He wore a pair of dusty colored pants that stopped just below the knee. That was his outfit, minus the bracelets and sapphire pendant which represented his royalty. And of course, his Academy ring.

"I'm a fucking queen," he muttered. Leonard's convinced his skin has become permanently tanned. "Maybe I'll die of skin cancer."

There was a knock at his door.

"Yeah?"

Loknar entered. "His Majesty is ready for you my lord."

Leonard bit back something sarcastic remark and simply said, "Thank you, dismissed."

Loknar nodded and left.

Leonard took one last look at himself, before he shivered and flexed his right hand. He sometimes got the sensation it was wet, when it really wasn't. He nodded it off as a psychological case. Nervousness, anxiety, whatever. He sighed and headed to the quarters he shared with Kan'dar.

He missed Jim. The Enterprise. Hell, even the pointy eared hobgoblin.

Uhura, Chekov, Sulu, Scotty.

He missed them all.

His family.

He stopped in the middle of the hall and took a deep breath.

When Leonard arrived it was the usual routine. Kan'dar greeted him, then ushered him to the bed.

And dominated.

Leonard was grateful for the running hot water. He always felt dirty after lying with Kan'dar and he was desperate to just burn his skin off. He soaked in the water for about an hour before he felt well enough to stand. His body ached and he wanted nothing but to lay down all day.

Surprisingly he got his wish.

Drowning.

He was drowning.

And he was trapped.

Leonard woke with a start, gasping for breath, covered in sweat. That wasn't the first time he had that dream. It was always the same. He could never see anything; he was just underwater and unable to move anywhere. He pulled his arm over his eyes.

"I'm losing it."

Leonard wasn't sure how much longer he could last here. He felt a stab of pain in his stomach as he curled over onto his side and let out a groan. There was a sudden hand on his forehead and he opened his eyes to see Lumina there.

"You're running a fever."

Leonard let out another groan and tried to get up.

"No, no, rest. I sent Loknar to get supplies from the Care."

Leonard nodded weakly and drifted off to sleep again.

To drown again.