Nick's POV
I feel around the bed and expect to feel the warmth of another body but instead I am greeted by the cold and empty space that Amanda once occupied. I lift my head from the pillow and look around the room but can't seem to find her anywhere, I look across the room to see the light coming out from the bottom of the closed bathroom door. I wait until I hear the toilet flush and then the door opens and she walks out wearing a robe and her hair is tied up in a clip, I sit up and she sits down on the edge of the bed, she leans over and kisses me on the cheek "Good morning" she speaks with her Georgia accent and no matter how many times I have heard it it's still always so sexy
"No kiss on the lips?"
"Sorry babe but I threw up this morning, I think I caught Zara's stomach bug" in the last week my daughter has been so sick with some bug she caught before her mom dropped her off for a couple weeks this summer, the second day she got here and she was throwing up constantly and ran a high fever, it was enough to almost make Maria fly back to New York to come and pick her up but I wouldn't allow it, much to my surprise Amanda stepped up and spent all her spare time taking care of Zara, it was such an amazing thing to see my girlfriend taking care of my daughter as if she was her own. It was just two days ago when she finally started being able to keep food down again and it would be no surprise that Amanda too would get sick considering she has practically been by her side this whole week.
"Do you think you should go into work today then? I'm sure Sargent will be okay if you missed one day"
"I'll be fine, besides there isn't any day's off for the victims" she stands up and makes her way back into the bathroom and I follow behind, I start to get dressed in my signature suit as Amanda brushes her teeth, when she is done she gets dressed too and finishes just as I begin to put my tie on, she comes over and stands in front of me and her fingertips graze my hands as she starts to tie my tie for me "Here let me" I watch as her fingers work and when she is done I lean down and steal a kiss.
"I saw you brush your teeth so I think it's okay to kiss you now" she laughs and I kiss her again. We both walk into the kitchen and find Gil sitting at the kitchen counter eating a bowl of cereal, it isn't a lot when I get to see either of my children but somehow I managed to get lucky and get to have them both at the same time, Gil adjusted very well and took a liking to Zara and Amanda very quickly and was happy to be spending a few weeks of his summer with them. Zara has always adored Amanda and was thrilled when we started dating, and when she found out she had a brother she couldn't have been happier about it, she had always wanted a sibling and she had finally gotten one. They get along great and both a very comfortable around each other, the situation's with both of their mothers have never been ideal but it made things even easier for everyone when both of my children took a liking to each other.
"Good morning sweetie" she smiles at Gil
"Morning Amanda" he continues to eat his breakfast and Amanda goes through the fridge trying to find something to eat
"Good morning Gil"
"Good morning dad" it has been over two years since I had told Gil the truth about me, how I wasn't just a friend of his mothers but actually his long lost father, it came to a shock to him at first but we quickly formed a tight bond that I never had with my father. It is still crazy to me that I missed so much time in my own son's life and while I have been so used to hearing Zara calling me dad it is still a different feeling whenever I hear Gil calling me that, it's special, and I know that I could have easily missed out on this.
"Is your sister up yet?"
"I think so, I think she is getting ready" right after he says that Zara runs in at full speed and wraps her arms around Amanda's legs
"Amanda!" she yells of excitement that Amanda is up and it makes the two of us laugh, Amanda may have made it clear that at least right now she has no interest in ever having kids and becoming a mom she would be damn good at it, for right now being a step mom to them will have to be enough and I already know she will do such a good job.
"Good morning sweetie" she bends down to hug Zara and then she runs over to me, I pick her up and she gives me a wide smile.
"What am I chopped liver?" Amanda snorts back a laugh as she pulls out some fruit from the fridge and sets it down on the counter, she starts to pick through the bowl of grapes
"Good morning daddy" I kiss the top of her head and laugh as I put her down, she runs over to a seat next to Gil and starts to grab some grapes as she sits down. Amanda takes Gil's empty bowl and puts it in the sink for him
"Go get your stuff together for abuela's "
"Okay" he goes off and Zara hops down off her chair
"Go get your stuff together too Zara" she runs off and I go over and wrap my arms around Amanda's middle, I breath in the scent of her hair and gently leave a trail of small kisses on her neck.
"Nick" she puts her hands on top of mine and turns around and kisses me, we kiss for a few moments and then I hear giggling so I pull away and find Zara standing there with her backpack in her hand giggling at what me and Amanda were just doing. Gil soon follows and sees me and Amanda standing there still embraced and finding Zara laughing uncontrollably.
"What?" Gil stands there looking at Zara confused about her laughter. Amanda pulls away and goes over and picks Zara up
"You ready to go to your grandma's house sweetie" I watch them walk out the door and I put my hand on Gil's shoulder and we follow
"What was so funny dad?"
"It's nothing" I laugh and grab the keys to the car off the table and lock the door behind us, we both walk out to the car and when we get there Zara is already buckled in the back and Amanda is sitting the passengers seat, Gil gets into the back and and I get into the drivers seat and start the car. It is a quick ride to my mothers house and I park in her driveway, all of us get out of the car and Zara grabs Amanda's hand as they walk up to the front porch, I knock on the door and my mother opens up the door and Zara runs into her arms and gives her a tight hug.
"Abuela!" my mother hugs her tightly and then pulls Gil into a hug, my mother always is watching them whenever we have to go to work but they are still so excited every time the kids visit her. Zara hugs Amanda and then me and she smiles down at her
"Goodbye baby" Gil gives both of us hugs and then goes inside following Zara, my mom pulls Amanda into a hug and smiles at both of us
"It is so good to see you again Amanda" my mom was skeptical at first when I told her there was another woman in my life, seeing as how things had gone with Maria what a disaster that was and then soon finding out that I had another child with a different woman from my past made her worry about what I was doing in my romantic life, I had two children with two different women and yet I was perusing another, it made her be very guarded when I first introduced them but soon she loved her and became very close. We say goodbye to my mom and make our way back to the car and are soon on our way to the precinct.
"You are really good with them you know" Amanda has always been very guarded and it took a while to let me in, it took everything I had to convince her to move in with me and even after we had decided not to jump the gun and get engaged, we were taking things slow and were happy doing so, things were good right now and while I would love to officially make her my second and last wife and the step mother of my children it just isn't what's best for her right now. I understand the pain that she went through, her rape was hard on her and it make her hard to trust men but from the moment I met her I knew I would break her shell and be the first person to get through to her, she may have been in deep at some points with her gambling problems but I was there for her and helped her get through that too. She was stubborn and I was hot tempered, I had met my match when we got together and while things could be difficult at times I wouldn't want it any other way, I would rather have it be hard with her than easy with someone else.
"They are good kids"
"They love you"
"You know I love them" falling in love with Amanda Rollins was a roller coaster of emotions but we both made it work, we fell in love hard and being with her was the best I had felt in a long time. At first it was just sex but then it developed into something more for the both of us, we had both tried to avoid falling in love with each other but it was too late, we were both in deep and while Amanda had a harder time admitting her true feeling for me it came out and after that there was no going back for either of us. We pull into the precinct and both get out of the car, I go over and give her a quick kiss before we go inside and then we go through the door, we get on the elevator and head up to our floor. We get out of the elevator and make our way to our desks, Fin takes one look at us walking in together
"Looks like the Amaro's finally made it in"
"Ha ha ha Fin, so funny"
"What took you guys so long this morning"
"We had to drop the kids off at Nick's mom house" Fin was the first person to find out about our relationship, he was Amanda's partner and they had been especially close since she first came to SVU and during a drunken night she let it slip that she was sleeping with someone from work, it wasn't long after that did he discover it was me and since he hasn't been able to shut up about it, he means well but we get his constant jokes what seem like everyday. Soon after Fin found out me and Amanda decided to disclose our relationship to Liv and after that everyone in the prescient found out that we were dating.
Olivia comes out from her office indicating the start of our day. Liv sends me to go with her and talk to a rape victim and we spend our day talking with her and hearing her side of the story while Fin and Amanda go to talk with the man she accused of being her rapist, at the end of our first day of the investigation the most we have gotten is this is a classic case of she said he said, she claims it was rape and the evidence proves that but the guy claims it was rough sex and that was exactly how she wanted it. I go back to my desk and lay my head down feeling stuck, we have had many many cases like this before but they always left me feeling stuck, this job was hard in the first place but working with special victims was only made for the people that could handle it. I have had my share of cases that nearly broke me, mostly the ones that dealt with children and what sick people had done to those children, it pained me because those children could have been the same age as Zara or Gil and they live in the same world as these people and it makes me sick to think about, I love my children and couldn't imagine my life without them but someday's I am understanding of why Amanda is hesitant to bring children into this world, no matter who it's with and how much she loves them.
Thinking about her I lift my head up and look around for her but can't see her sitting at her desk, I look around for her or Fin but can't find them and assume they are still out doing their part for the investigation. Liv and I spend the rest of our day working the case and towards the end of the day I still haven't managed to see Amanda since this morning. Fin walks past me and I stop him "Where's Amanda?"
"She went home a little while ago"
"Why? Is she okay?"
"She threw up after we got done interviewing the suspect so I dropped her off at your apartment" I get up and go over to Liv's office, I knock on the door and Liv calls me in
"Nick, is everything okay?"
"Amanda went home early, Fin said she was sick and I was wondering if I could go home a little early today to make sure she is okay. Zara had a bug and I think Amanda might have caught it"
"Yeah sure, it looks like this will be an easy case, we have enough evidence to convict this guys. Nice work today Amaro"
"Thanks" I walk out and wave to Fin goodbye, I get into my car and dial my moms phone number, I listen to it ring until she picks up
"Hola Nick"
"Hola mamá, is Gil and Zara still there?"
"No, Amanda already came and picked them up, is everything okay?"
"Yeah, she wasn't feeling well so she left work early, I just didn't know if I still hand to swing by and pick them up"
"She told me about not feeling well when she came and picked the kids up"
"Okay, as long as I know where they are, I am heading home to see Amanda now"
"Okay te amo"
"Te amo mamá" I hang up the phone and start the car, I pull into our drive way and pull the keys to the apartment out of my pocket and as soon as I unlock the door I am nearly tacked by Zara
"Daddy" I pick her up and give her a tight hug then let her down and she runs back over to her doll house where she was playing with her Barbie dolls, Gil is sitting on the couch playing video games and I look around for Amanda
"Where is Amanda?" Gil looks up from his game to look over at me
"She went to go lay down in your room"
"Me and Gil has tried to be quite since she said she wasn't feeling very good"
"That's very sweet of you guys, I'm sure she appreciates that"
"I think she got sick with what I had"
"I think so too, I'm going to go check on her and then I will start getting dinner ready for you guys" I walk over to our bedroom and find the door to be close, I open it and walk into the room and find the bed still untouched and made, the same way we left it this morning before we went to work. "Amanda" I notice the bathroom door is closed but I don't hear any sound, I know she hates it when I see her throw up but I would hold her hair back every single time. I hear the toilet flush and the sound of the faucet turning on, she yells over the sound of running water
"I'm in here" I sit down on the bed and wait for her to come out of the bathroom, she opens up the door and look pretty pale
"I was worried when I didn't see you all day, me and Liv were busy with our latest case and I didn't notice until later when I hadn't seen you" she just sands there and doesn't say anything "Is everything okay baby?" I look down and notice what she is holding in her hand, the last time I saw that was when I was married to Maria, that little thing changed everything. "Oh my god, is that what I think it is?"
"I'm pregnant"
Authors note-Hello guys, I have been a fan of SVU for years and have seen every episode like five times each lol, I have shipped Nick and Amanda for a really long time and have been thinking about this idea for the fanfiction for a while but it wasn't until I was watching an SVU marathon and they played the episode where we got our first taste of their ship and I got inspired to write. I hope you like this chapter and like the start to this fanfiction, if you do please leave a review and I hope to update soon and until next time-Izzy