Don't worry I haven't forgotten my other fics! This week had been kind of hectic but this weekend I'm planning on updating some of them!
The others watched Reid sit in the corner of the airplane. They all knew that he was taking what happened incredibly hard.
They couldn't blame him, though. They would too.
It was chaos. People were running and screaming in the crowd. The agents all had their guns drawn, looking for the killer. Reid thought he saw him, he DID see him, He aimed, thinking he had a clear shot.
He didn't. He froze in horror and terror when he saw killer pushing a small child in front of him as a human shield.
What did he do? He had shot a kid...They had rushed too the small boy and made sure he had gotten to the hospital as quickly as possible.
Reid and the team had rushed to the waiting room as well. Reid couldn't quit pacing.
"It wasn't your fault, man," Morgan said softly. "It could have happened to any of us."
"But it happend to me, Morgan," Reid snapped. "Whatever happens to that little boy it's my fault!"
A few minutes later passed and the doctor came towards them, grim faced and even before he spoke Reid knew what he was going to say.
"I'm sorry, he...didn't make it."
Hotch closed his eyes and Rossi stared at Reid with sympathy sketched on his face. JJ went over to Reid and touched his shoulder gently. He jerked the touch away and closed his eyes.
"I killed him," he whispered. "I killed him." He slowly started to walk out of the hospital, in a daze. Morgan started to follow but Hotch stopped him.
"Let him go, he needs some time alone."
Hotch eyed Reid sitting in the corner. He had to say something. He couldn't let the kid festure in this kind of guilt.
"Do you want to talk about it?"
Reid sighed.
"I don't know..."
"You won't get into trouble for this. I talked with Strauss, she understood what happened."
Reid stared at him.
"You think I'm worried about my job right now? Hotch I just killed a kid!"
Hotch pursed his lips, unsure of how to continue.
"I know," he finally said softly. "But it was an accident..."
"Doesn't matter. Would you still feel that way if I had accidently killed Jack?"
Hotch stared at him, shocked by that analogy.
"I didn't think so," Reid snapped. "I killed a parent's child. I'm going to have to live with that..."
"We've all done stuff that we're not proud of. None of us like killing people, or not being able to save them."
"Did you ever kill any kids?" Reid shot back.
"No." Hotch kept his voice barely audible.
"So you have no idea what I'm going through, so don't even try...just...please...Hotch...I need to be left alone right now."
Hotch swallowed and nodded as he stood.
"We are all here for you...when you are ready to talk about what happened."
Reid sighed.
"I don't think I'll ever be ready."
"We're here for you just the same."
Reid slowly nodded.
Hotch walked off and the others looked at him.
"How is he?" Morgan asked. Hotch exhaled.
"I don't think he's ever going to recover from this.
Reid stared at the bottle of pills in front of him.
It would be so easy just to end the pain. So so easy.
He killed an innocent child. He couldn't get that scene out of his head or the feeling of horror that he had when it happened. How he couldn't breathe, couldn't think straight.
Tears rolled down his eyes.
He was no better than the monsters they hunted now.
He didn't deserve to live. He deserved to be in hell...Slowly he took a pill, than another one and another one.
Soon he'll get his punishment and soon he'll never be able to hurt anyone ever again.
Short I know and an odd ending to a chapter, but I hope you liked it!