Clarke came back into the dorm fuming. Slamming the door behind her as she went and laid face first in her bed.
So there was no doubt she was upset but why Lexa didn't know.
"Clarke what's wrong" Lexa asked while getting up from my position on the opposite side of the room. Putting her book down as I went to her.
Clarke only screamed into her pillow and then finally turned to look at Lexa. Blue met green and Lexa could tell she had been crying.
"I broke up with Finn" Clarke said
Lexa was shocked, to say the least. Clarke started dating Fin earlier this semester when we got back from summer break and Lexa told Clarke about my fling with Costia. When Lexa first found out she was dating him Lexa knew it would end badly. Finn was a frat boy and stupid while Clarke is amazing, kind, and just better.
"Why Clarke, I thought you said it was getting serious"
"That's why we broke up. I couldn't pretend it was working anymore"
Lexa just looked at Clarke shocked. Lexa thought everything was okay between them. Lexa saw them hanging out all the time and from what Lexa can see they were in love. I guess not. But to Lexa something didn't add up...
"If you broke up with him then why are you so upset?"
Clarke just rolled her eyes and stood up to go over to the dorm mirror in the right corner of the room. She wiped her face and turned to Lexa. Her eyes were dark looking and I didn't know what to expect.
"Why do you care Lexa!" She yelled
Lexa stood up from her crouching position form beside Clark's bed and She just couldn't say anything. Completely frozen from Clarke's out burst.
Clarke walked closer to her and continued "you don't know me! So you should mind your own business! What gives you right to ask me anything?!"
Lexa still couldn't say anything while Clarke was yelling at me. It was like Lexa taken back to a time when her parents would yell and fight around her and her older sister Anya. The screaming got so bad Anya use to buy us ear plugs for them to use when they fought. Lexa felt like that little kid unable to do anything but watch as my parents went at it as if they never loved each other. Lexa told Clarke some stories once about my childhood when Lexa got drunk one night after the anniversary of her Parents death. The next morning Clarke said she wouldn't tell anyone and that she was sorry she went through that.
Lexa never shared my childhood with anyone, not even Costia. Clarke vowed that day that no matter what was going on she would never yell.
Lexa heart rate went high and She started shaking. Lexa just couldn't believe Clarke was yelling at her. Lexa thought they were friends. Lexa knew they weren't that close but at least she thought Clarke gave their relationship some value. Before Lexa knew it She could feel tears starting to form in her eyes. Lexa knew She had to get out of here but She couldn't move.
Once Clarke realized what she did, she stopped and saw how Lexa was shaking and had tears in her eyes. Lexa was still beautiful even when she was crying.
Clarke stomach dropped into her gut. It was like Clarke finally took in Lexa fully since she walked in the door.
She walked over to Lexa to touch her arm and Lexa flinched back and turned towards her bed. Lexa started gathering her stuff quietly. Clarke felt even worse then before. She knew how Lexa felt about yelling and yet she still did it.
"Lexa wait" Clark said softly behind her
Lexa didn't say anything and just put her laptop in her bag.
"Lexa please. I.. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to yell at you."
Lexa turned around and she had tears running down her checks. When she looked Clarke in the eyes, everything just froze and Clarke could see how hurt Lexa was.
Lexa just looked away and walked towards the door and without looking back she left.
Clarke stood there and just looked where Lexa just left out of. She felt the tears leaving her eyes before she could even realize she was crying. Clarke walked over to her bed and sat down. Clarke felt like her heart was breaking in half and she knew why.
She loved Lexa. That's why she broke up with Finn. But Lexa had Costia and so she didn't need Clarke screwing up her life. Making it more complicated. Lexa didn't deserve complicated.
So Clarke cried. She laid down back on her bed and just cried. Because she knew Lexa wouldn't be back for a while and Clarke could take this time to mourn something she knew she could never have.