First things first, this is my first FNL fanfic so if its not good right now bare with me. Second, I am the slowest updater in the history of updaters i have a lot of work i have to do and sometmes it takes me a while to find time to write. Third, This is a story the takes place right after Matt and Julie's break-up in season 2, it's going to be kind of a "what i think should have happen that season" thing. Fourth, I'm a HUGE Matt and Julie fan so if you don't like them this is NOT the story for you (i.e there will be NO Riggins and Julie pairing, i think Matt and Julie belong together as do Riggins and Lyla). Lastly, this is just a story for fun i do not earn anything by doing this but also i LOVE reviews good or bad, its helps me write better.

I also know there might be some grammar mistakes i am not good with the grammar i never claimed to be. And the BOLD words are Matt's thoughts just so you know.

So here we go onto the story!

Break-ups suck.

Matt thought as he made his way through the crowds of people partying and having a good time. He hated that all these people could be so happy and care free while he felt like his whole world had been thrown away in the last 3 minutes. Julie Taylor, Matt's sweet, caring, and almost to good to be true girlfriend (well now ex-girlfriend), had just broken up with him at the pep rally for the new football season. It wasn't as if he was all that surprised, she had been slowly drifting away from him over the summer and by this time she almost untouchable to him, but that didn't lessen the pain. Julie had been his first girlfriend, his first love, he loved her more than anything in the whole world and it killed him that she didn't feel the same way anymore.

"I'll always love you no matter what happens."

The memory of her speaking, almost shouting, these words to him on the muddy ground of the home-made field the team had put together clouded his mind.

Apparently "always" just got a whole hell of a lot shorter.

He knew that when she has said "always" that she probably didn't mean that they were going to be together forever, but at the time it sure felt that way. Everything about he in the moment made his heart soar, the little smile that he had come to know as his smile spread across her face, the look of being totally and completely head over heels in love, and the kiss they had shared had been like something straight out of a great romance story. And even though they were covered head to toe in mud, and in the week following it they had gotten a small cold that moment couldn't have been more perfect. But that was all over now.

Now instead of looking at him being totally and completely in love she looked at him with a look of annoyance and frustration. The smile he had come to know and love as the one she saved just for him was now being directed to the Swed she worked with. And forget about having a mind blowing romantic kiss, it was a rare day when they even bumped shoulders in the hallway.

Quickly that amazing memory he thought of as his favorite was being covered up by the image of the relieved look she had on her face when she had finally said that she wanted to break up. The stupid fake "it's not you it's me" speech she has obviously practiced. And the extremely small but obvious smudge of her lip-gloss that had been almost mocking him like it was saying "ha loser, that's right someone else's lips have been here besides yours.".

Stupid-ass Swed! This is all his fault! If he had just gotten a job at some other place in town this summer none of this would have happened!That was a lie. He wished it wasn't but if he was honest with himself then he knew that Julie's reasons for leaving started way before the Swed stepped into the picture. What those reasons for leaving were, he had no idea, but he knew they started a few weeks after State. They had a great few weeks of just being together and not having to worry about her moving to Austin, they spent most of that time locked away in his room lounging on his bed talking about anything and everything and just holding one another. The last time they had done that without Julie seeming a little different they had been talking about the future. The talk about the future that every boyfriend and girlfriend have where they pretend as if they are going to be together in two years or so. They discussed what would happen when he went off to college and how they would see each other during holidays. Then maybe a year after Julie got out of college they would finally get married and move to someplace that snowed during the winter. They decided they would have 2 kids and a small little dog who never got too big for the house.

He knew they were just joking around but for a moment they both looked at each other and he could tell they both hoped that it would come true, as stupid as that sounded. But then the next day something had changed. Julie started acting un-Julie like and so began the beginning steps to their break-up.

He stopped dead in his tracks in the middle of the party and looked around him. He had to get out of here this party was just too much right now and he really couldn't handle it.

"Hey 7!" he heard his number being called out. He looked around to find Smash and some of his other team members waving him over, "I KNOW you aren't leaving yet, right?" Smash shouted to him. Matt put on the best fake smile he could and headed over.

"H-Hey guys," he stuttered, "great party huh?"

Quick small talk than I got to get the hell out of here.Smash raised his eyebrows, "Are you serious? If this party could get any more lamer it would be a 6 year olds birthday party." he looked around to make sure no one was looking then pulled a tin flask out of the inside of his jacket and gave it a little shake, "We are bringing the real party over to the school parking lot, you in?"

Matt looked at the flask for a moment then back at Smash, "Smash I don't think that's a good-" he was about to say "idea" but a wave of blond hair came into view behind Smash. Julie was heading into the ranch house with Lois dutifully by her side. He had thought she had left after she had torn out his heart and stomped on it. Apparently not. Seeing her still here enjoying the party was like salt being rubbed into gapping whole in his heart. In what was like flashes in his mind he saw it all over again, her look of relief, her fake speech, the smudged lip gloss. It all ignited something within him, not agony for the loss of his first love, but a loathing for the bitch that she had morphed into.

"Matt are you ok?" he heard Smash ask him.

He looked at Smash who looked almost scared, "Yeah, I'm fine." he said through his clenched teeth.

"You sure? You look a little pissed off." Smash said. Matt looked at the flask in Smash's hand and he grabbed it from him.

"Can I have this?" He asked taking a swig not caring what Smash's answer was. As whatever it was that he was drinking hit the back of his throat Matt felt a full blast of the burning as it made its way down. It was such a strong burn that it almost covered up the pain that came with every beat of his heart.

He swallowed what was left in the flask then dropped it to the ground and asked, "Have anymore?"

Smash had never seen Matt like this before and truly didn't think he had it in his to down a whole flask in one setting. Whatever was making Matt act this way must be something bad but right now he wasn't complaining because it meant Matt would be joining in on the party.

"You better believe we do!" Smash said putting Matt in a somewhat head-lock and dragging him and the rest of the team out of the boring "party" and onto the real party.

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"You and Matt broke up?" Lois asked with a concerned voice as she and Julie sat on the front porch of the ranch house.

Julie nodded, "Yup, we are officially over."

"Are you ok?" she asked putting a hand of her shoulder.

"Lois I am the one who broke up with him. It was my idea. Of course I'm ok." this was a lie and she could tell Lois knew it too. She usually was a much better liar this but she was the one who did the breaking up so she had to pretend to not be bothered by it. Truth was it had been one of the hardest things she has ever done but she knew had to be done. Matt loved her more than anything and if she let him he would eventually get down on one knee and ask her the one question most girls spend their entire life waiting to hear. But she didn't want that. Not now. Not when she sees everyone around her starting new relationships and ending them. Not when she has been watching Tyra have so much fun being single and just dating, not being in a "relationship". That's what high school was suppose to be like, it wasn't suppose to be finding the one person you were going to spend the rest of your life with.

She knew Matt was ready, he was ready to settle down, get a job, buy a house, get married, and spend the rest of his life in Dillon watching Panther football games every Friday night. Julie wasn't ready for that. She wasn't ready to become her parents. She didn't know if she ever would be. She loved Matt, she knew that, but she wanted to also have options. Whenever she told that to people they automatically thought she meant the Swed, the guy she had been crushing on since the beginning of summer, but honestly it had nothing to do with him. Sure she liked him and she planned to keep seeing him but she needed a break from the constant guilt she had for not have the feelings Matt was having.

"Do you not love him anymore?" Lois asked.

Julie's eyes went wide, "Of course I do! It's just complicated." she tried to explain, "He and I just want to different things."

"Like you want the Swed and Matt wants you?" she joked.

Julie narrowed her eyes and glared at Lois, "Not that's not what I mean, and that's not even funny." she spat at her.

Lois raised her hands in defense, "Ok sorry I didn't mean it. But come on a part of the split had to be because of the Swed."

Ok yeah Julie liked the Swed but she wouldn't make any big almost life changing decisions because of him. She wouldn't dump her boyfriend of almost one year because of him.

"No it has nothing to do with him." she said.

"But-."

"I SAID NO! DROP IT!" Julie shouted at her than stood up.

Lois looked surprised by the outburst, "Julie I'm sor-." Julie cut her off.

"Look I'm sorry I didn't mean to shout. I'll talk to you later." Julie said rushed and ducked into the party.

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3 more shots and 1 and a half beers later it was safe to say Matt was almost completely smashed. Smash tried to get him to do a few more shots but when he started singing on someone's truck Smash knew Matt had had one too many. After much struggle he and Landry finally got Matt to sit and drink some water.

"Man I have never seen you like this before," Smash said sitting next to him on the bumper.

Matt took a few deep breaths and leaned over trying not to puke, " The ground is spinning," he choked out, "why is the ground spinning?"

"Well Matty that's what happens when you decide to drink all of the alcohol in Texas," Landry joked as he leaned onto the truck, "I mean what the hell has gotten into you?"

Matt sat up, "Julie broke up with me. It's over. We're over," saying it out loud seemed to make it more real. Almost too real. Matt had the sudden urge to have another drink.

"Julie Taylor broke up with you?" Smashed asked sounding almost shocked.

Matt glared at him out of the corners of his eyes and spat," Did I stutter?"

"I-I can't believe it. Sweet little Julie Taylor broke up with you," Landry shook his head in disbelief, "What'd you do?"

Mat shifted glare to Landry, "Why would you assume I did something wrong? Just because Sweet, Innocent, Naïve Julie couldn't possibly do anything wrong say like cheat on the guy who loves her with some dirty unshaven Swedish asshole who probably doesn't even realize the damage he has caused to my life," Matt looked sadly at the ground and mumbled, "He probably doesn't know how damn lucky he is."

They all three sat in silence for a minute watching all the people having a good time walk by until Smash couldn't stand to stay quiet any longer, "Ok enough of this pity party, hows about we find you a new lady? Someone better than Julie Taylor." Smash exclaimed excitedly as he stood up, Matt just shook his head 'no', "Oh come on Saracen I am sure there are plenty of bigger and better fish in the sea."

"I don't want a bigger or better fish, I just want Julie, to me she is the biggest and best there is," he mumbled.

"Matt she doesn't want-"

"Shut it Smash ok?" Matt snapped at him.

Landry raised his arms up between the two and said, "And on that happy note I think it's best if I get you home Matt."

"I can take myself," Matt cut him off.

Landry shook his head, "No no you can't you can barely stand on your two feet you are not getting behind a wheel," Landry stepped over to Matt and hauled him to his feet, "Come on my car is over this way."

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The drive to his house couldn't have taken more then 15 minutes but to Matt it felt like and eternity. The flood gates to the past were still wide open in his head and each memory can crashing into his head like a tidal wave. Every conversation they had had. Every kiss they had shared. Every promise they had made. It all just kept floating in, each bring its own new set of pain making him long for the sweet release of the alcohol to numb this uncontrollable pain that ached in ever part of his being. He just wished that all this pain could be transferred somehow to Julie. So she could feel the complete and utter torture she was putting him through. Even though he still loved her with his whole heart, right now there was a thick blanket of total hatred for her that was almost stronger than anything he had ever felt.

Matt was so lost in his own thoughts that he barely heard when Landry had said they were at his house.

"Do you think you can make it to the door?" Landry asked as Matt took off his seat belt.

Matt nodded, "Yeah I think some of it has worn off so I should be fine," he opened the car and said as he got out, "I'll see you tomorrow."

Landry wasted no time speeding off after he saw Matt take the first few steps to the front door ok. All Matt could think of was getting to his room and sleeping until he could forget about this horrible day. That thought though soon disappeared as he heard a twig snap from the side of the house covered in shadows.

At first he thought he had imagined it but then he saw something move within the shadow. It was a sort of a blob shape at first until it got closer to the light and facial features became recognizable. Then two and three and four more shapes also came into the light. The quarterback, running-back, and tailback and a few others of the Milbank football team stepped forward. Matt knew instantly that this wasn't good, they are the first team of the season that the Panthers are playing tomorrow night and Matt overheard Smash talking about how he had heard they were planning on doing something to make sure we didn't make it to State this year. What they had planned, no one knew. But as Matt watched the Milbank's quarterback raise the baseball bat he had been hiding behind his back Matt realized, this was it.

To be continued....

Please leave a comment whether you liked it or hated it. Like i said before it helps me become a better writer.

Also if someone could tell me what the Sweds real name is because i have been trying to think of it but it keeps coming up as a blank and i don't feel like pulling out my copy of season two to check (it makes me slightly depressed). If you know please tell me, i will love you forever.