Disclaimer: SM owns the characters of twilight...
A/N: Hi everyone... This is my 3rd story for twilight. Hope you like this, it's a sad story but hey everybody loves to be in love... Some are fools but some are not!! ;)
Please tell me what you think...
Forever Lost... Forever Love
Planning on breaking up with someone is easy but to actually do it is another thing...
My face didn't show how much in turmoil my mind was. All I felt was the adrenalin rush which runs through my vein as I said my final piece...
"I'm sorry Edward but I don't love you anymore.. Let me go.." I intended to put force on my voice but I just couldn't and the words went out like a whisper.
The anticipation for his reaction was killing me. I could feel my heartbeat in my ears, I was having a hard time breathing normally. I was trying to look cool so as not to let him know that I was uneasy as I waited.
When he heard what I said he immediately took a step towards me as if he intended to put me in his arms as he usually do when he feels that I'm in doubt but I took a step back from him and held up my hand to stop him.
I forced myself to look in his eyes and pretended that I really meant it. What I saw made me quiver inside as I witnessed how he took it.
I guess, I did it!! Because not a few seconds later, his face crumpled as he controlled the raw emotions which flickered on his face.
He looked away from me to hide what he's really feeling and when he looked my way again, I could see that it was hard on him but he put on a brave smile and approached me.
"This is it then?" He huskily told me.
He looked into my eyes, I guess to see if there's something worth fighting for but I willed myself to not show anything.
"Yes." I finally answered as I forced myself to smile back.
He nodded once and hugged me one last time as he kissed the top of my head. I felt my arms respond and was about to hugged him too but I caught myself and let them fall down again. I had to strengthen my resolve.
Before he let me go I heard him whispered 'I love you Bella'. He walked away without looking back at me again.
I thought my knees would give in as I looked at him going away from me. I could feel myself trembling by the sudden emotions I was feeling.
Pain...
Sorrow...
I expected a feeling of triumph, I did it!! I caused him pain!!
But why can't I feel the joy which I expected from all this?!
"I wanted this, didn't I?" I asked myself as my tears started to fall.
I didn't know which was worse, looking at him leaving as it signaled our goodbye or the agonizing pain that was slowly consuming my whole being.
I hated him so much that I deluded myself in thinking I wanted revenge and that he deserves what pain comes his way but what I didn't consider was how I truly felt for him.
I did love him and the irony of it all was... I love him still...
I was blinded with the thought of hurting him as he did to me once upon a time. But all I did was inflict pain on myself.
Because now I realized that the one I sent away was the one I love... but now... the one I could never have...
Forever lost... Forever love...