She was done, she thought she wasted so much time on her, she had enough but she could not deny how heartbroken and hurt she was. It was like hearing the news of the police finding of what they thought her remains over again. It was like coming home from a long night of finding out that Mona was A then being welcomed by the news that Maya is dead. Once more the resident sweetheart, Emily Fields, is broken.

It would be a lie to say that it was fine for her to turn her back against Ali. No matter what she does Ali would always be Ali to her. She cried herself to sleep that night. It was a nightmare and inside she hoped that it was all a dream and that she would wake up in Ali's bed to that time they kissed again for the first time after a long time. But she did wake up, only to feel the pain and so her tears fell down again. She grew up on those years Ali was gone. She became stronger and less vulnerable, building a barrier for anything that could bring her heart down to rubble again, yet here she was now, balling her eyes out.

It was easier when Ali wasn't around. When she would not see her attempting to fix things with her, when she would not turn away when she sees her coming her way, when she didn't have to avoid the rest of her friends just because Ali is with them. She noticed Hanna all sobered up. She noticed Aria slowly moving on with the New York thing. She noticed Spencer coping with her parent's divorce. She thinks to herself if she could just put a mask on and pretend that everything in her is okay. That maybe, eventually, soon enough, her façade would soon become the truth.

Hanna did not miss it. She saw the truth behind Emily's mask. She wants to help her, if it is a possibility, she would fix her. She always thought of Emily as someone special, not necessarily in a romantic way but someone she would give up her life for. Seeing her that way broke her heart too. She was scared that again, Emily would throw herself to partying and alcohol just like what she did when she lost Maya. She was scared that A would take advantage of her best friend's weakness as of the moment. It was one thing for her to spiral down but it's another when Emily is the one traveling down the broken road. She had to do something.

One morning she saw Emily and Paige talking. She knew Emily still cared for Paige and maybe a part of her still loved her too or in love with the memories. She knew how much Paige loves Emily and how much she wanted Emily back. Normally Hanna would be happy for Emily because at least somehow she found herself someone that could help her get through the pain but it didn't seem right. Paige was a good person and if Emily throws herself at her, whether for rebound or for an actual revamp of their relationship, it would be another complicated mess. It would be unfair for Paige even if it is at her advantage. It wouldn't be a smart decision for Emily either. For her it was the wisest conclusion she ever had, she thought that the best choice Emily had was to give her heart a break, and she was up to help her best friend for that.

"Hanna what are you doing here? What time is it?" A grumpy Emily awakens by Hanna's shaking

"Almost half past six. Come on Em get up, we're doing a loop" She wasn't used to waking up early, morning runs weren't even her thing but she's willingly doing it now for Emily and for herself..

"I just want to sleep okay. I have a very bad headache" she doesn't give up easily so she pulls the covers only to find out that the brunette had with her under the covers a flask that she might have been nursing herself last night.

"I wouldn't have to ask why. Come on Emily, up!" She stood there impatiently. When Emily didn't move to get up but laid on her stomach instead, she decided to do the extreme measures of waking her friend up. She let out a defeated sigh before plumping her body on top of Emily's. And with that Emily woke up and gave in to what Hanna went there for.

Despite Emily's hangover she was still at the lead of the trail going even faster than her usual speed. Hanna was barely able to breathe and limbs felt like they were going to get off anytime but is motivated by the thought of helping Emily. Not a word came out from both girls during the whole run.

"Em wait up" She stops Emily before she could enter her house. "You and Al-" She was rudely cut off by the other girl knowing what she had to say.

"No. We're not gonna talk about…about who you're about say. There's nothing to talk about" and with that Emily went inside shutting the door in front of Hanna's face. What Hanna had left was a sigh.

-Hanna's POV-

This was going to be harder than I thought it would be. Emily kept pushing that she was okay and I almost want to believe her. Alison's not really my favorite person now but the way she looks at Emily when she thought no one notices, I could see from her how sorry she was for Emily. I can't really say she's changed but the old Alison would never look at someone that way. But I'm still teed off with her hurting Emily again. This was what I was worried about when she came home. If Superman had kryptonite, Emily had Alison.

Just before the bell rang I spotted Emily at the lockers. I secretly pass her my flask. She looked at me perplexed as to why I am giving it to her so I answer her before she could ask.

"If that makes you feel better with all that's happening then so be it." I gave her a hug before heading towards class.

We were all gathered at the lunch table with Spencer and Aria sitting next to each other opposite to where Emily and I were and Alison on my other side. I could see Emily weighing her actions but as expected she took the flask from her bag and secretly took a sip of it. Wait for it. Wait for it. Ha!

"What the hell Hanna?" she asks loudly spitting the sip she took from the flask and throwing the flask on top of our table. Instead of filling it with booze I filled it with a concoction for hangover that I found online.

"Why did you bring a flask on a school day Em? Did you take Hanna's place in the drinking contest?" Spencer asks her angrily. Alison was about to say something but I squeezed her thigh signaling for her not to talk. I know Emily wouldn't really be appreciative of anything she says.

"I take offense in that Spencer" I tell Spencer with a glare to keep her mouth shut. Emily looks at her with looks of dagger then looks at me with the same look. Without saying a word I stood up and drag Emily with me. I was just going take her somewhere secluded at the school but everywhere was too crowded. So I drag us both to the parking lot and got inside my car.

"Did you seriously think I would just let you drown yourself in alcohol? I care about you Emily. I care about you a lot. You didn't want me like that when I was in your place. You're the one who told me that alcohol does not solve anything. Em you know that you could always talk to me about anything. If you want to scream, rant, whatever, you could do it with me. Just don't do this Emmy. It was enough that I had to go down that hole. I wouldn't just sit here with cheesy puffs on hand watching you dig up the hole I just got back from." I catch up my breath after my long speech. Emily was already in heavy tears when I ended.

"I just want to forget" she says with a low voice. I also couldn't help myself from crying. I could just say it would be okay but I don't want to say things that I'm not sure of so I wrapped my arms around her instead. "Take me away from here…please" I nodded and straightened back at the driver's seat driving away towards the road heading nowhere.

We found ourselves at the highest point in Rosewood. From where we were it looked like just another town but in reality that town is something else. It had been half an hour since we've arrived but Emily was still silent. I didn't force her to talk too. We just sat at the ground in silence.

"Thank you Han, for doing this. I was tiptoeing around Alison. I was scared that all the feelings I had before would come back, a small amount of it did. I didn't tell you girls about this but we kissed. Remember the night that she was ambushed by Mona at the church? It was that night. She told me that my feelings before weren't one sided and that those kisses before weren't just for practice. If I was myself 2 years ago I would've danced for joy but I am not that person anymore." I was not prepared for everything that Emily said when she finally spoke up. I was trying to process everything at once.

"How do you feel about that?" I was trying to make sense of my own question.

"All this time I felt like I was just used by her and now she claims that it did matter to her. A part of me is happy but a bigger part of me feels nothing. I've always created scenarios in my mind of when she gets back here. I thought I'd be happy with her and that's it but I was wrong." Is she implying that she doesn't love her anymore or is she saying she can't have a happy ending with Ali? It was all too confusing.

"Do you still love Ali?" She doesn't flinch. Her facial expression doesn't change. She doesn't say a word. "Do you still love Paige?" I changed my question but she stayed the same. Neutral and silent. "Do you love someone…else?" Maybe I was saying the name of the wrong person so I changed my question again.

"I don't know. I'm not sure with anything. I don't know if I love someone out of them two or if I love someone else or if I'm still capable of loving at all. I'm sorting things out" I place my hand on her waist and pull her sideways closer to me. She rests her head on shoulder. I remember us being like this on her porch when she almost left for Texas but only the other way around this time.

"Give your heart a break Em. Take your time" I get her hand with my free hand and draw circles on her palm.

"I don't know where to start" she sighs and puts more of her weight in me but I do not complain.

"Baby steps Emmy. Baby steps" I turn my head and press my lips on her temples.