Okkkaaayyy since this is my final year in school, I haven't really got much time for fanfics… SORRY! But I will try my best to be a good writer, I promise!So this is a Renessme/ Alec story.. renessme's about to be married to Jacob Black… all because of a stupid joke…. So she escapes… right to Italy… out of one loop, into another. But will this loop take her to her happily ever after, or will she be always stuck in the shadows? R&R!
Love, Irene Ashlynn
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Sticks andstonesmay break my bones, but words will never hurt me….. Like hell they won't.
Sticks and stones may break our bones, but words and sentences shatter my heart.
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Chapter 1- I'm not antisocial, I'm anti-idiot
Ren POV
A new day. But that seems like a complete misnomer, because it isn't a new day at all. Here I am, in the same old house, the same people, the same room, with the same sun shining through the same old windows. My situation is same too- Renessmee Cullen, about to be married to Jacob Black, her handsome wolf. Huh. Handsome, my ass… he is handsome from outside, wicked from inside. How could he, I think to myself. "How could he be so cruel to play such a cruel joke on me?" There is no one around who can give me my answer. No one except me and my memories, who keep playing the same broken record.
FLASHBACK
"Hey nessie!" Jake beamed and lifted me of the ground as I squealed, laughing. " hey Jakey!" I grinned, happy to be with my best friend. I had an awesome family, a great gang of werewolves who were my friends, and a best friend like Jacob. What could spoil my utopia? Little did I know, I was about to get a reality check. "nessie, I need to tell you something….. I am gonna die soon…. Because some mysterious virus has striked the pack….. or rather killed many werewolves….. and I think it has gotten me….." Jake whispered, looking down. The grin vanished of my face. The wind kept rushing in my ears.
"Jake… you're kidding right? I mean, this is impossible…. And I'm gonna punch you for this joke, you mutt!" I said, laughing, thinking he'd laugh with me. But then, a painful expression ripped through his eyes as they shone with sadness. "No, Nessie… its true….. and this disease is incurable…..so Carlisle can't help me." He said, shaking his head sadly. "Okay, STOP! You've got to be kidding me…. this… can't happen… no… not with you… no…. no…" I said, grabbing my head and sinking to the ground in shock. He was joking. He was an idiot, like always. And any second now, he's gonna burst out laughing like old times… I whispered to myself, trying to calm down. "But what if it's true? What if it is REALLY true?" I whispered, my voice cracked. Jake sat down. He forced my chin up and said, "Nessie, you are my imprint…. Ever since you were born, I have loved you…. And there is nothing in this world for me now, except you… I want to live my life with you… I want to dream and love you… so…. Will you grant me my last wish and say that you love me, like I you?" Jake asked.
The sun was gone, lost behind the clouds. The wind now roared in my ears, as though to yell at me to show how wrong this felt, how messed my life was. The grass was coloured dark green. There was silence. Complete, deafening silence, which burned through my ice-cold veins. The words which he just said kept banging on my skull like an iron hammer. I felt numb, yet I felt horrible. How, how was I to say no to his last wish? How was I to deny and reject his love for me and completely shatter his heart? But it was true, and I felt sick knowing that he had imprinted on me. But still, like a foolish girl I replied, "Yes. Yes, I will." Even if it means condemning myself and my true feelings. His face lit up. "YES!"he roared. "I knew it! See you assholes, I told you she'd say yes!" he screamed and suddenly, my audience came. The whole wolf pack stepped out of nowhere, all those immature guys grinning." Congrats Mr-and-Mrs-about-to-be-married!" they all screamed. But it went through my spine like a thousand volts of electricity. "what do they mean jake?" I said, now reeling from this shock. "I'm not dying, silly. It was just a little test to see how much you loved me. All the imprintees had to take it. Congrats, you've passed!" He laughed grinning.
-PRESENT TIME-
A joke. I killed my heart for a joke. A sick, stupid joke, by an even more sick mutt. I killed my feelings for him, and now I am bound. Bound by my promise to marry him.
A knock came upon my door. "Don't come in if you're stupid." I said, emotionlessly. The door opened and Leah Clearwater an my mom stepped in. "Well, isn't this week full of surprises. What's next? Wiz Khalifa strip dances in Trumsbull?" I said snarkily. "What's with all this anti-social attitude? You're about to be married. So why are you sitting in your room like you're a prisoner?" Mom demanded, frowning at me. "I'm not
being Anti-social. I 'm being Anti-idiot. Contro idiota. Anti i̱líthios. विरोधी मूर्ख. anti exc-" "I got it. Now be nice to our guest." My mom sighed, tired. "bye, both of you. We are going hunting, so you two have the house to yourself"
"What do you want now leah? Another joke from your pretty pack? O r you're just here to see me." I said, not even caring that she'd probably tell all about my snarky behavior to jake, and then I'd have to confront him. "I'm not here for that. Actually, I don't even know you that well, so I don't know why I'm here. But I won't tell anything about this to Jacob, or any other guy." "You can tell them. You're not my protectress or something. We aren't even friends. Which brings me back to, why the hell are you here?" I asked her. "I'm here to be friends with you I guess. Now that you've understood how horrible mates can get and you've lost your coloured glasses, we can talk like human beings."
She shrugged. I sighed. Somehow, it didn't matter how she knew that I didn't wanna marry Jake. Maybe I'd always known she'd know. The way she'd looked at me that horrible day, not laughing, not crying and grinning like the others were. Just staring with an unrecognizable emotion in her eyes. Maybe, it wasn't hatred. Maybe it was understanding . She was right. Werewolves can be horrible "I know. Horrible reality check. And I don't know what to do. Everyone expects me to the radiant bride, all smiley-amiley and blushy-blushy. Shit, I hate blushy-blushy. I wanna kick someone right now. Hardcore." I said, finally feeling happy that I could TALK, and not just say something others wanted to hear. "But enough of that. Jakes a freaking dumb asshat. I am an idiot for saying yes. Matter finished." "Oh, is it? It's not finished till you or he die, darling. And that's a REALLY long time." "Well, then I'm a piece of mess." "We
Know that already. You've fucked up. Now what are you going to do? Sit here? Nope, that ain't gonna happen, chick. You're going. Away." "Where? And why?" I frowned.
"Away from here. We'll figure it out. Don't worry. Just hold on to your heart and brain. The rest of you will follow." "Right."
We were both being stupid. I couldn't escape. I'd made a commitment, a promise. Still, hope was a dangerous thing. I was already making plans, and thinking whether I could leave right now.
King James 2000 Bible
That which is gone out from your lips you shall keep and perform; even a freewill offering, according as you have vowed unto the lord your God, which you have promised with your mouth.
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