Hindsight

Kireania

Chapter One

Birthday Limbo

Disclaimer: I do not own nor am I making any money from this. DO NOT SUE ME!! I AM POOR AS HELL.

An: This is my first Hellboy fic and I know I'm going to screw a lot of things up So please bear with me and point out my mistakes kindly. This is also going to be HIGHLY AU seeing as Professor Broom is still alive and John Myers is still at the BPRD. This is based solely off the movies seeing as I have never read the comics because I am deprived.

Also I have issues spelling names correctly. For example when I first started reading HB fics I thought that Johann was John misspelled…It's taken until tonight for me to realize that that is not the case. Yes I can be that dense. If I misspell something please let me know.

This story has two possibilities right now. One it can be a threesome between OFCxHBxJohn or Two it can just be HBxOFC with me writing a completely separate HBxJohn Story. If I could get reviews with ideas and points of views that would be awesome. Yes Liz is in this story but she is not a major character. I also have a different story that I want to put up but the idea is similar just different character and different events. So I'll think about that.

Warnings: This will contain sex later on. There will not be much when it comes to gore…I am not that good at writing it so I don't warn about it because it sucks. When the sex comes I will have warnings posted. I have written a lot of smut before so I know how to write it heed the warnings. Cussing with be through out the story.

You have been warned.

"Come on Scout!" Gold eyes eagerly hopped from pocket to pocket searching for the hand held device that was his goal.

"Oh no. There is no way I'm letting you even look at my PDA for five minutes, let alone touch it. Your habit of breaking most anything that you come in contact with far exceeds your notorious appetite and that's saying something…" Bracing himself for the shouting match that would begin in just a moment, Agent John Myers was shocked when there was nothing.

Looking up he was greeted with the one sight he was not expecting to see…huge sad puppy eyes from his charge. The red demon was known for pitching fits in the way of stomping off, throwing stuff, yelling, shooting, threatening, arguing etc…never puppy eyes. This was new. Whatever Hellboy wanted the PDA for must be really really important to him to sacrifice his dignity that much. And of course as soon as their eyes met…

"But SCOOOOUUUTTTT!!" his name was drawn out in such a whine that John just couldn't help himself from picturing a two year old begging for a toy.

"Would you like cheese with that?" He didn't mean to let his sarcastic remark escape but it did….and of course the red demon did not get it and made a confused noise. "Never mind…anyway why should I let you have my PDA? It's not made to withstand you!"

His voice was sharp and grouchy as he tried to make a sensible argument but he quickly realized that his normal calm was not making its way into this argument, but hell who would blame him. They were bunkered down in a small ass cave, just the two of them, there was no food, they were in effin Alaska during an effin snowstorm and there was very little in the way to conserve heat. He was freezing his bits off here and he was hungry who wouldn't be testy in a situation like this. To make him feel even worse the rest of the team they came with were probably in a small cabin with a fire wondering where they were. Damn them all…

…Did Red just mumble something about promising a girl something?

"What was that you just mumbled Hellboy?" Normally he was not the type needle a person about their personal lives but at this moment when they both needed something to distract them from the cold and lack of food it was ok…besides his friend hadn't really mentioned any interest in anyone since Liz had left…again. That was a day that no one wants to relive. But somehow we all got through it, and somehow Red recovered faster than anyone ever expected…What if this girl was how he got over her so fast…

Getting a glare for his efforts and waited for his friend to repeat whatever it had been that he had just said. He was not disappointed. "I want to wish her a Happy Birthday…Come on, kid, I promised her that I'd be on."

The whine and the puppy eyes were back and Myers just couldn't bring himself to say no again. He had seen first hand how depressed his buddy had gotten when Liz had left after they had started dating. The fact that he had found someone else that was important to him was good, hopefully.

Rolling his eyes playfully at the whine in his friend's voice he reached into his suits inside pocket and pulled out the little device that had been the objective of red demon's mission. Before holding it out so that he could take it and most likely destroy it before he was even finished he checked the signal and the battery not sure how good they even were in this area.

… . Of course this is where his service coverage would be at full bars and his battery seemed to be at full charge. Shaking his head at the irony he held the device out and waited for Hellboy to take it.

Nothing happened.

Turning to face his charge he raised his eyebrow and tilted his head to the side in confusion. He was just whining about needing to talk to this girl but now he wasn't taking the device that was being offered. John knew he wasn't at the top of his game at this exact moment but this was confusing him.

"What now Red?" The demon fidgeted as he stared at the floor of the cave they were in. His tail flicked from side to side to show his discomfort about needing to ask his friend for this favor.

"I don't want to break it…"

At first the younger man didn't get the implied meaning behind those words but after a moment of staring at the demon in disbelief he understood. Hellboy was trying to be nice and not break his things so he wanted John to set everything for him so there was less chance for him to break things he didn't know how to work.

Nodding his head, Myers brought the small device back in front of his eyes and started to log into the server that he knew the bureau used. With his signal as strong as it was it didn't take too long. In those few moments the large demon had somehow silently snuck up on him and was leaning over his shoulder watching the screens go by as the human logged on.

John looked back up from his screen about to announce that it was all set up for him but had to bite back a sudden curse that almost slipped from his mouth at the closeness of his charge instead. He hadn't realized that Hellboy had even moved, usually the lug's steps thudded on the ground. When he had first started this closeness would have bothered him because he was still in awe of Hellboy and his "superhero" like persona but all that was left now was a heft dose of annoyance, an unyielding loyalty and a dash of respect for the big red ape that got him in more trouble than he could have ever imagined.

He waited for an excuse to come pouring out about why he was so close but when none came and an expectant look was in those yellow eyes, John finally fully grasped Hellboy's full plan. John was to be his middle man in this conversation.

About to protest this, he looked back at his PDA and saw the size of the buttons…yea perhaps the ape did think a few things through every once in a while, but not often. Sighing he shook his head lightly and gave in fully. It did occur to him though that this might be a little embarrassing to him as well. After all this was a close friend to him and he had to have someone else type for him…it wasn't exactly an ideal situation for either.

"So what your screen name and password should I put in?"

Hellboy leaned closer and told John his screen name and password and watched as they were entered and as his personal settings were loaded.

John raised his eyebrow at the screen name and just couldn't resist asking, "So where did that name come from? It doesn't sound like the ones that Manning assigned to people…"

The soft chuckle was the only answer he needed. Leave it to Hellboy to go around the director and create an unapproved account with a name that no one would ever suspect to be him. Come on who would ever think that "PamcakesRUS" would be a name that the demon would use online. John snickered a little at the name but understood the reasoning so let it go. Besides a beep pulled him from his musings.

A message from the only contact. DarkSummons.

DarkSummons: Hey hun…what's up with ur IP?

Instantly impressed with the others knowledge and suddenly suspicious, John's mind was suddenly all over the place as to why someone would instantly check another's IP address.

"Scout! Type, 'I'm away on a job so I'm borrowing Myers PDA…He's typing for me' Come on kid type that out…"

John shot a glare at the demon as he was taken from his musings to tap out a message on his device. He stopped momentarily as it occurred to him that Red was acting like the girl knew about him. Pointing that out Red nodded.

"Yea I tell her about the people I'm around. She doesn't know specifics but she knows names. Come on now type that out."

Sighing John typed out the last few letters and pressed the send button and waited for the message to pop up before he allowed himself to elbow the demon that was behind him harshly in the gut.

"Hey! What was that…?"

"Oh shut up HB. That didn't even hurt you and you know it. Now listen. I don't mind doing this for you but you need to understand that I can only type so fast and I am going to have questions 'cause I don't know her. So…"

Beep

DarkSummons: Are you being careful?

Beep

DarkSummons: Oh…and can you prove your last message?

They both forgot their argument for the moment as they stared at the messages. Hellboy smirked and chuckled lightly obviously used to this while John coughed in disbelief. He couldn't believe that someone was that paranoid.

"Is she serious? She's that fricken paranoid that someone is going to hack into your account and talk to her?" His amazement was apparent in his voice as he voiced his thoughts.

"Eh don't worry about it kid. She's got her reasons and just know that they are good reasons. So I need you to type something in that you have to promise not to tell anyone else. Got it."

John nodded and instantly understood that this was indeed highly important to the demon. When Red kept a secret he kept it.

"I promise." John didn't know whether to feel honored or terrified at being trusted or not but he would take it in stride. He now knew Hellboy's screen name and password so he could access that so to be told this was extra important.

"Alright. Type in. 'Proof: You won't let me save you.' That's all you need to type."

John stared at the message but typed it and sent it once the demon looked it over and made sure it was perfect. He wondered what that meant, but whatever it meant it was right because a moment later there was another beep.

Beep

DarkSummons: I take it Myers knows not to say anything.

There was very little communication between Hellboy and John now. All that was said was what Hellboy wanted the agent to type and perhaps a little nudge to type faster.

PamcakesRUS: Of course he does. He promised and I trust him.

Beep

DarkSummons: nods very well. I trust you.

Beep

DarkSummons: Well Myers it's nice to finally meet you. I've heard quite a bit about you. My name's Krys.

Without thinking John typed back a message and sent it without Red's approval.

PamcakesRUS: John: Call me John not Myers. He's never mentioned you but it's nice to meet you as well Krys.

Beep

DarkSummons: I don't doubt that he hasn't mentioned me. I've asked that he doesn't. It's obvious talking just this briefly that he hasn't told you a single thing about me has he?

PamcakesRUS: John: The only thing he's mentioned is that today's your birthday…which is why he begged me for use of my PDA in the first place.

PamcakesRUS: Red: Yea I promised you I'd be on for you birthday no matter what. See I told you I would, and I am.

Beep

DarkSummons: LOL I can definitely tell it's not you typing but it's you talking. It's funny. holds stomach from laughing

Beep

DarkSummons: Thanks for being on and thank you John for letting him on. It means a lot to me…you wouldn't believe how much...sigh

PamcakesRUS: Are you okay?

Beep

DarkSummons: You know the answer to that…

PamcakesRUS: I wish you would let me help

Beep

DarkSummons: Red we've been through this…besides I don't want to argue on my bday, k?

PamcakesRUS: fine…

Meyers was confused but stayed silent as the conversation continued. They obviously had argued about many things before but their arguing hadn't made them drift…they seemed to be close because they argued. The concern he saw in his friend and the emotions he could see play across his features and the words on the screen spelled out a story that shocked the young agent. Somehow beneath his nose Red had fallen in love with this girl. And from the sound of it…she loved him back.

That was all fine and dandy but he doubted she knew that Red was a huge red demon nor did Red know who she was on the other side of that computer. And it concerned John 'cause it was obvious that his friend's feelings were real.

Pushing it to the back of his mind John refocused back onto the conversation and smiled at the jokes and teasing that he could reading the words. They've been friends at the very least for a long time. Joining the conversation as well he quickly lost the feeling of being out of place and found that the girl was extremely friendly and easy to get along with. Unfortunately though her time on the computer was soon up and she had to go.

Beep

DarkSummons: I better go b4 they come up and c y I'm so late coming back.

PamcakesRUS: Sorry I kept you so long today.

Beep

DarkSummons: Not ur fault. I love talking with you so I live on borrowed time remember?

Beep

DarkSummons: Oh gottta go fast now. Ttyl be safe

DarkSummons has signed off

John didn't know why but he suddenly had a bad feeling in his gut and it only grew worse when Hellboy pulled away from him and leaned up against the wall of the cave in silence. John wasn't used to seeing him like this…

He looked defeated.

He looked like his whole world was gone and that he had no way of getting to it. He had never seen him like this. Hellboy was always the one that took on all the odds and just smirked when someone said that there was no way it was possible. This look of defeat and sorrow…he'd really only seen something similar the day Liz had left…and that hadn't been anywhere as bad as this.

Logging off the internet he checked his battery, John noted that he was now at about half power. Still pretty good. Shutting it down to power save mode he put it back into it proper pocket and went and sat next to the sulking demon. He was silent hoping that HB would just feel the need to explain.

Silence.

He needed to break the silence. He just felt this overwhelming urge to talk and it couldn't be stifled so in a soft voice he broke the silence and asked a question.

"So how long have you known her?"

Silence met his question and after a few minutes he actually thought he wasn't going to be answered but then his friend shifted.

"About three years now. She was fourteen when we met. She turns seventeen today." His voice was gritty and full of regret and sorrow. He was hiding something and John wanted to know what.

"How'd you meet her?"

A derisive snort came from his companion but an answer soon followed, "What's this? 20 questions? We met online. Chat site. Normally you make a friend you talk to for a month or so and you forget about them. Only with her we just kept talking. She was there through Liz and through Father getting hurt. And I was there for her when she needed me."

He wanted to ask more but Red quickly cut John off, expecting it.

"Listen kid. Don't push. I trust ya but she's different."

John nodded silently and leaned back. He wasn't sated in his quest for knowledge but he knew his friend well enough to know that this was not the time to push him. John was shocked then when a moment later, when the demon started talking again.

"She's needs help but she won't let me help her. I mean it's not just me saying 'Come to the BPRD'. No she won't even let me tell anyone that she needs help. I'm not used to being helpless…especially when I don't want to be."

John's eyes were wide as he just stared at the cave's opening in thought. This girl was in so much trouble that she refused help. He'd heard of people doing that but he'd never expected to meet anyone that did it. People that were abused were like that sometimes…so he read.

"I don't know HB. I know we can't do anything about it out here in the middle of bum fuck no where Alaska but maybe back home…"

"Scout, didn't you just hear what I said! She won't let me do anything. If she won't let me, what makes you think she'll let you?"

Of course he hadn't thought of that. He wanted to help this girl but he couldn't do that if she didn't trust him and she wouldn't trust him if he tried to help. Now he fully understood the problem they were stuck in a limbo like place.

"Well shit…"

"Yea…"

"You know the storm looks like it's basically over…"

"I'm way ahead of ya. I have the Samaritan ready and you just be ready to call it in."

"Deal"

An hour later they were both heading back down the mountain after radioing in their success at eliminating the creature that had been stalking the city at night. They had found the bodies and even some left over bones of the victims…none were alive unfortunately but at least the thing was now dead. Their job was done, they could go back to headquarters.

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