A/N: I do not own Harry Potter.
ALSO. The idea was given to me by….-drum roll-
Hanah Potter! (.net/u/1782444/Hanah_Potter)

Go see here. (:

NOT HIS

SUMMARY: Severus' thoughts on the relationship between Lily Evans and James Potter.

ONE SHOT.

DISCLAIMER: I do not own…Any of this :/

It's chilly outside. I pull my cloak tighter around my body. It's so stuffy in those classrooms that I needed a breath of fresh air. The air burned my lungs as I inhaled deeply, but it felt good.

I had been working in the potions lab. No, I was not behind on work; Severus Snape is never behind on his work. I was getting ahead in the unit. Why? Because I felt like it…

HAH! Look at me, lying to my own thoughts. That's bull, I was in the potions lab because don't have any friends. Sure, I can hang around with some people, but I don't like to. They treat me like scum…But of course, they ARE Death Eaters. They treat everything like scum.

The only person that has ever treated my like another human being was Lily Evans, and I ruined that by calling her a stupid name. It wasn't her fault, either. She was just trying to help me by getting that troll off of my case.

BAH! I hate James Potter. I hope that, one day, he gets what's coming to him. I hope that one day; the Dark Lord will show him that he isn't all that he says that he is. I hope that the Dark Lord will take him down from his pedestal. By then, I will be higher on the food chain, I will be a Senior Death Eater, and Potter will have to bow to ME!

I realised that there was an object floating around the Quidditch Pitch. I shrug, seeing that it is would give me a place to walk to, so I start towards the arena. As I approach, I decide that I should keep in the shadows. I don't need to be beaten up today.

It's Lily and James. THAT RAT! He probably forced her onto that broom. Isn't that a form of rape? I keep to the darkness of the stands, but I can't take my eyes off of the pair. I sigh.

If I hadn't ruined my friendship with Lily, there was a chance that she could have been dating me right now. I could have been the one with my arm round her waist, smelling her hair…

He didn't deserve her. I didn't deserve her. No one did. She was a goddess that no man should be able to touch.

I know that I love her, by I can never have her, and I have accepted that. It's just hard to deal with.

I know that I don't deserve her, and that she should never be with someone like me. People would look at her as if she were crazy if they saw someone so beautiful like her married to a slime-ball like me.

But I love her.

I love her bright red hair, and how you can see her coming from across the field.

I love her bright green eyes. Oh, how I wish I could spend my free time just staring into those beautiful eyes. If her and Potter ever get married and have children, I would have to go insane if those eyes were not passed down to that lucky child.

I love her brains. She's so unbelievably smart, but she is definitely not a nerd. Nerds are like me, who have greasy hair and walk with their heads down all of the time. She walks with her head high, and her hair is definitely not greasy. That's another thing I love about her, she's so confident. Even when she does get an answer wrong in her homework, which is extremely rare, it doesn't faze her.

I love HER. Everything about her sends my senses on a roller coaster. It's hard for me to even pass her in the hallway.

I see them kiss.

It breaks my heart.

I let out a quivering sigh, tears gathering in my eyes.

As long as she is happy…

A/N: WOO. I think it turned out cute. A little angst-y…BUT it's Snape, he's not a fluffy guy. I hope I did well with it, LET ME KOW HANAH POTTER :).