My Immortal
Disclaimer: Once again… (sigh) Not mine…
Author's Note: Yes, this is, indeed, a songfic to the amazing song of Evanescence. I think this fic is kinda depressing (I've been feeling kinda down lately…) so if you're looking for fluff, you're in the wrong place!
He was still there, like he'd always been. He never left her alone. And because he stayed, she couldn't move on. The hurt couldn't go away. It only seemed to grow stronger.
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all of my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Because your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
Every night she cried herself to sleep. Every night again. And when she slept, he would be there. And he would reach out his hand, but everytime she tried to touch him, he'd move away. And then she saw the whole scene again…How he died.
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
She'd see herself running to the battlefield, looking for him. She'd see him fighting his own father, for the the good side, against anyone's expectations.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
And then she'd see the curse, coming from behind him. And she could hear herself scream for him, and he'd turn around, just 1 second too late. And then it hit him. And she knew, that he was gone.
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
But now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
She'd run up to him, not caring about the curses send her way, and she would kneel beside him. And he told her, that he would always be next to here, that she would never be alone. "I love you, Gin." It was the first time he said it. But she couldn't be happy about it, because right after he said the words, his eyes closed, and he was gone.
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
And then she'd wake up, and think it had all just been a dream. But then she looked beside her, in her bed, and she'd see he wasn't there.
That moment always hurted the most.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
She didn't understand why it had to be him. He had been a much better person then most of the people that still lived. She'd rather died herself then watch him die that way.
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
She had tried so hard to forget him. To make the pain go away. But it didn't. The pain stayed. And it consumed her. It felt like she slowly bleeded to death. He was there, but she was still alone.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And i've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
All alone…
Author's Note: Well, what ya think? Was it good? Was it bad? Was it oh-god-just-kill-me-now-bad? Tell me! (Yes, that was a hint!)