Night fell upon the Hitachiin manor and moonlight bathed the bedroom of the infamous twins that inhabited it. However, the eldest of the pair appeared to be missing. Kaoru, the younger twin, opened his eyes and noticed this. He sat up, looking around as if Hikaru was around every corner. "Hika?" He called quietly. No answer. "Hikaru?" He called, a bit louder this time. Nothing. 'Probably at Haruhi's.' He thought bitterly. Tears sprung to his eyes at the thought. He let out a shaky sigh and pulled out his phone and headphones. He opened his Spotify app and clicked on the playlist titled 'Hikaru'. He hit shuffle and as if to mock him, "So Far Away." By Mary Lambert began playing.
"I'm a million miles away from anywhere
Slide my hand across the sheets
Pretend you're there
But missing you is a slow burn
Every time the earth turns
I'm reminded that night is only half the time
Even when I'm hurting
I know this is worth it
Tell me it'll be alright
Gotta give me something
To get me through the nothing
One more night."
Kaoru, as if by the song's suggestion, gently ran his hand across his brother's side of the bed. He felt tears fall down his cheeks. 'Why does he do this to me? Am I not enough?' He thought, causing him to sob louder. He sat up, burying his head in his knees and gently pulling his hair with clinched fists. 'What does he see in that damn commoner anyways? She's not so special.' He thought bitterly, crying into his lap.
"Kiss me like the world is gonna disappear
I'm a better person when I have you here
Oh I, I, I got you and I, I can get through
Anything as long as I can see your face
Right now you're so far away, so far away
So far away, so far away
I don't need a map
To tell me where you are
You and I, we come from the same star
Every day is a heartache
And every night I lie awake
I'm reminded that the bed is only half mine
Even when I'm hurting
I know this is worth it
Tell me it'll be alright
Gotta give me something
To get me through the nothing
One more night."
The song continued to mock him. Kaoru tugged his hair tighter, his knuckles white. He knew his brother didn't love him back, he didn't care. He knew it was wrong, what he was feeling. Did he care? No.
"Kiss me like the world is gonna disappear
I'm a better person when I have you here
Oh I, I, I got you and I, I can get through
Anything as long as I can see your face
Right now you're so far away, so far away
So far away, so far away
Nobody's got the time
Nobody's got the time
Nobody's got the time
For love
Nobody's got the time
Nobody's got the time
Nobody's got the time
For love."
It was true, his brother just didn't have time for him anymore. He always knew this day would come, the inevitable split between them. He wished he could hold on to his fairytale forever, but knew that the carriage would someday turn into a pumpkin once again. Oh, how he wish it would change. He wanted to hang on so bad, but his grip was slipping.
"Kiss me like the world is gonna disappear
I'm a better person when I have you here
Oh I, I, I got you and I, I can get through
Anything as long as I can see your face
Kiss me like the world is gonna disappear
I'm a better person when I have you here
Oh I, I, I got you and I, I can get through
Anything as long as I can see your face
Right now you're so far away, so far away
So far away, so far away (so far away)."
Who knows? Maybe one day, Hikaru would reciprocate their little fairytale. But for now, Hikaru would forever be out of his brother's reach, a grubby pumpkin that was oh So Far Away...
Author's Note: I own nothing used here. If I did, would I be a broke 16 year old? No. The song used is "So Far Away" by Mary Lambert. If you haven't heard this song, look it up now! It's amazing!