Hey everyone here's a something to read. It's sad but that's been my mood lately.
For some clarification for the sake of grammar I capitalized hide's name. For further clarification hide is pronounced hee-de.
Pairing: Implied hidexYoshiki and HeathxYoshiki
Warnings: nothing maybe sadness/angst
Disclaimer: I don't own the band X-Japan. Each member of said band belongs to themselves. I'm not making a profit out of this. It was written for the sole purpose of entertaining myself and others.
Dedication: This one is for you Hide. May you be annoying the crap out of all the high angels in heaven with your awesome guitar playing. Dec. 13, 1964 – May 2, 1998
A/N – Just a little something to get the max out of this please listen to
hide – goodbye ( http : / / www. Youtube .com / watch?v= WjojvCoFLe0 )
X-Japan - Without you ( http : / / www. Youtube .com / watch?v=Xv_BpdbqyXw )
Eliminate all the spaces.
Without you makes a larger impact I suppose but both songs I was hearing while writing this.
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Not Goodbye
He stood in front of the stone holding the bouquet of red roses in his hands.
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I'm back again. It's been a while. I really hope that you're proud of us.
It took effort and a long time to looks passed what happened.
It took me a long time. Seven years of intense psychological therapy it almost sounds ridiculous right? Plus three years to get in touch with everyone. To connect again.
Pata… you know him he's the same, laid back and calm, he did take you passing pretty hard though.
Toshi, you know what had happened thankfully we worked things out and now we're best friends again. I was really nice making a song for him to sing again.
Heath… um… well we're together I guess you could say. I don't mean to leave you but… I'm pretty sure you understand though.
You left me. You left me without a warning you son of a bitch. Do you have any idea how much I…I hated you. I hated you with all my heart for so long. You left me the same way my father did. Do you have any idea how much it hurt? How much pain I felt?
Heath, I'm glad he's willing to put up with all my crap and I love him for it.
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He knelt down and gently placed the bouquet down sweeping away some dead leaves to reveal the name.
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It's funny you know I've read a lot of stuff on the internet. The fans…your fans I should say, they all have a weird perception of you. They see you on some pink fluffy cloud, with your yellow heart spotted guitar, with a pair of tie-dye colored wings. Your fans have quite an imagination.
But I guess I can see where they are coming from.
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He gripped his hand and held his breath trying to prevent the onslaught of tears.
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I miss you Hide.
I really do miss you.
I lied earlier you know.
I never hated you.
I loved you. I still do.
I love you Hide.
With all my heart.
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He sighed and hastily wiped away the tears that had slipped down his cheeks. He slowly stood dusting off his knees.
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I have to go now. I'll come back though. I'm not saying good bye. You never gave me the chance to say it. So instead I'm saying, see you later.
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I hope you all read this and enjoyed it. I wrote this a while back and posted it at my LJ account but I seemed to have forgotten to post it here so that's what I'm doing now.
Reviews are nice. They always are as long as it's not some idiot trying to act cool.