(Based off of Confession (What's inside my head) By RED. For Amanda. Song is obviously not mine, and neither is Shingeki no Kyojin. ouo)
-I feel fine, and I can smile, but I feel the anger coming.-
Eren was human. That's what he always told himself. That's what he told everyone who asked.
Yet, there were only a few people who actually agreed with him.
-It's underneath. I don't know why, It's always overflowing.-
And it was beginning to seem that those few were dwindling; that few wasn't going to include Eren anytime.
-It's a constant fight, deep inside,-
Eren himself was questioning his own humanity. He could turn into one of those monsters, and he hated the fact.
He wanted to feel human again.
-And I want to forget it.-
The shifter sat in the dungeon room, chains clink-ing as he reached up to grab at his hair, violently tearing at it, as if the pain would replace the pain he was given in place of his humanity. Inside.
He wasn't angry.
-I confess, I'm always afraid, always ashamed, of what's inside me.-
He let out a cry as confusion coursed through his every being; bewildered, sad, terrified.
-I confess, I'm always afraid, always ashamed, of what's inside my head.-
And these cries did not go unnoticed.
-And I can breathe, and I still feel,-
Steam arose from the top of his head where he'd managed to tear out some of his hair in his state. He felt overwhealmed.
-But not the way I want to.-
Eren never took notice of the footsteps making their way down to his room as he leaned forward, burying his face in the center of his bed, and he could swear he was going insane.
-I'm on the edge. I don't know how, I can escape this nightmare.-
He broke down, screaming bloody murder as he lifted his head off of the bed, crying toward the heavens.
It may have sounded to one that he was angry, but to the silver-eyed male rushing toward him, it was definitely pleas for help. This became more apparent as tears streamed down the other's bronze cheeks, which were rapidly turning red from fear. Once defiant turquoise eyes were dialated, and Levi couldn't help but feel a slight twinge of pity for the person in front of him.
-I confess, I'm always afraid, always ashamed, of what's inside me.-
Levi stared at the other, though, for he had no idea how to console him.
-I confess, I'm always afraid, always ashamed, of what's inside my head.-
But he knew exactly how Eren was feeling.
-What's inside my head.-
The raven kneeled on the bed, taking Eren in his arms.
-I'm wasting away, it's part of my instinct. I'll run away, from everything I hate.-
The shorter felt like he was going to go deaf from Eren's screaming, but didn't cease his grip; instead, the arms encircling the other merely tightened as Levi buried his face in the crook of Eren's neck, whispering uncharacteristically kind words toward the other.
The other's screaming faltered a bit, but not completely.
-Take this away, help me escape, take this away.-
And Eren screamed until hoarse, before going silent, save for a few sobs that escaped his mouth.
-I confess.-
Levi took his head away, and Eren buried his face in the other's chest. Levi looked down at the other, and the mood of the situation changed for him.
-Innocence.-
To see Eren in his state, weak... helpless... defenseless.
Levi could feel his mouth start to water.
-Innocence.-
No matter how hard he tried to tell himself that the person in front of him was broken, the true monster in this room wasn't Eren.
-Innocence.-
And a smirk made its way to his lips.
(LOVE YOU AMANDA)
(NO HOMO 3)