"Why does everyone i met have to die…"
I remember it… the first persons that i met obviously were my parents and my big brother unfortunately 1 year after my birth the doctors said to my father that he has blood cancer "he can live for 10 years more" the doctors said but he can't live those years so he die after 2 years, that was the first person that die.
I though that the cancer of my father was going to be the only sad thing in my life, but i was wrong my mother alter my father's die she was depressed and try to quit that depression by the alcohol and drugs, so she always hit my brother when she was drunk sometimes she try to hit me too but my brother always protect me, then he had a job, he was a policeman, so he can't be at home to protect me, yeah… I know I'm so dependant that I can't protect me by myself, my mother knew that so she hurt me everyday when my brother wasn't there, sometimes with a knife she try to curt me, other times she hit me, I was afraid of her, sometimes after school I didn't want to go to my home, but I have to go if not she would look for me and when she found me she will punish me, I don't know how… One day my mother was very drunk so she fell from the roof, she fell into coma, the good thing was that I hated her… the bad thing is that I'm dependant, my best friend was the opposite of me so my friend always go to my house to make me the dinner and clean the house, I admired and fell in love with my friend.
When we began the high school, my mother die, I was happy with that news, but my friend has to go to other country "don't worry when I return I will look for you" my friend said "when would you return?" I asked "maybe in 2 or 3 years, so don't worry" finally my friend said with a smile after that day I was alone, my brother fortunately knew that I was very dependant so when he returned to home at night he always made the food for the next day and in the morning he went to job. I was happy with that live.
One day after 2 years and 7 months that my friend go, at the morning my friend send me a message "tomorrow I'm going to take the airplane to return" the message said, I was more happy when I read it but that same day at the afternoon an earthquake occurred in the country that my friend was. I was so shocked by the news, so I begin to cry, I send a message to my friend, but he never answer the message "maybe the cell phone don't serves, and my friend can't return tomorrow because the earthquake maybe in months or the next year" but I was wrong my friend never return.
1 years after I was going to go to the university, but a day before it, an assassin kill my brother… "Why does everyone I met have to die…" I though when I was at the hospital seeing how my brother was dying the final words that he said were "don't worry, you have to continue with your live", but I can't continue with my live like it without a family, without friends… without hope how can I live like that?... that's why I'm going to finish with my sad live… it doesn't matter to me if you call me coward or not I take this decision so bye.